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Farewell awesome 2011, Welcome uncertain 2012.

2011-12-31T23:00:00.009+08:00

It's currently 2309 hours. In just another 51 minutes time, we are all entering into a new year, 2012.

Reflecting, 2011 has been a really really REALLY rough year for me. No kidding. I experienced mental torment, emotional turmoil and my physical health had to pay a price as well. Well, first there's this annoying obstacle to tackle: O levels. Was practically living in hell everyday until the last paper on 151111. I'm really grateful towards my friends' existence in my life; they were the ones who really pulled me through the hellish periods with their simple texts and really funny jokes!

Even with the bad sides, 2011 has been a fruitful year too! (Or should I say, my stay in Unity is fruitful) Got more opportunities than what I deserve, getting awesome teachers (specific ones though) and getting a chance to move towards my passion.

Well ok, before bragging and going on and on about 4 years of my Secondary school life which most of you are most probably uninterested to know, let's walk along some memory lane! :)

January 2011
Nothing much happened in January. Not much changes and not much to adapt to as well since all our teachers remained the same.

2 January 2011:
A simple 2709 class gathering before the school semester starts. As usual, we talk cock sing song and had fun trying to fly a kite in a windless night (Janice ran at least 5 rounds around the empty beach trying to get the kite flying).

Appreciate this bunch of supportive guys a lot throughout these 4 years! Although we are all in different classes now, I'm still super glad that many of them are still go steady and on about class gatherings and sometimes, pester me to organise one until I can literally go crazy. Heh. They really keep me so committed and motivated to serve this class even though we have all graduated from this class 2 years ago. These guys are really important elements of my secondary school life!17082709, spirit never die.

7 January 2011:
CCA Open House! Last performance that I participated in before stepping down. From audience's comments, I heard that we did really well! All those countless holiday trainings under Mr Sun was totally worth it :)

February 2011
School work started to get intense, I guess? I miss school .... Waking up at 6am in the morning, wearing my uniform, carrying my heavy bag and falling asleep in class especially during Humanities. Hehehe.

February/ March was a period where all the pure science students are fretting and stressing over School Practical Assessment (SPA). Naturally the number of practical sessions increased and we, the bio students, had fun every practical session trying to pour chemicals or cut flowers/ plants or dissect the gross and disgusting goat's heart.

19 February 2011:
A random 4711 clique (Plus some guys: Andrew, Weikang, Daren and Hakim) barbeque session at Pamela's house. Had fun with the girls and the guys, especially the part where I helped in setting up the fire and playing with Pamela's kinect. Woohoo~ Love times like this. Not just the activity, but the great company of the people. We celebrated Lynnquek's sweet 16 as well! (Alongside with Pamela's relative).

22 Febuary 2011:
Had a steamboat session with some 2709ians at Kernhon's house, together with some of his relatives. Gambled and had a fun catch up session with everyone that was present! :)

March 2011
School life gets more intense as everyone was trying to rush to get more CIP hours. For our class, we paid visits to this kindergarten and have fun with the kids over there! I don't really like kids so I wasn't anticipating CIP very much while it was being planned; but the cute kids there changed my perception about them and they made me so excited to go back for CIP every wednesday or friday!

15 March 2011:
Last trip to NPCC Campsite @ Pulau Ubin during High Ropes Course. Would really miss that place a lot although I went there only pathetically 3 times. I don't know why would I miss it too... Perhaps I just don't want my NPCC life, my Secondary school life to end just like that.
Anyway, I was the only girl in my squad which attended High Ropes Course. But with the fun Haikal, Wenwei and Afiq, my stay at Pulau Ubin on that day was really awesome.
I remember myself screaming on my first obstacle course. The first two part of the obstacle was still ok, but the third part was horrifying. Basically, I had to skate on a skateboard on 2 thick ropes. Being an idiot who doesn't even know who to skate on ground, I kept on grasping on my own safety rope which apparently made myself lose balance even more. But I just didn't want to let go of it. Hehehe, had a really awesome day under the sun and walking on the wet grass.

19 March 2011:
An outing to Sentosa with 4711 Clique and some of the guys. Awesome day under the sun with really great companies even though I was knocked down by Hakim in a game of Captain's ball.
After a day at the beach, we headed over to Pearlyn's house to attend her sister's birthday party. Ate and played around. Some of the girls tied braids and we walked around having the same hair pattern. Hehhehheh.

April 2011

Nothing much happened in the month of April. I think we were all busy .S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G. Yay~

May 2011

7 May 2011:
On this fateful day we celebrated Pamela the alien's happy sweet 16th. (Her brithday's on the 8th, but it clashed with the weekends so we made it advanced) However, she is down with some dizzy spells illness so she was absent for school on that day.
The rest (8 of us) made a super funny and touching video for her during her absence and Liyee Chia did all the editing and stuffs. Had a super hilarious time trying to get the video up hahaha, for example: Using our ponytails as Liyee Chia (Acting as Lulu in the video)'s armpit hair. Lol.
On the day of celebration, our initial plan was to get Pamela to get out of her house so that some of us are able to intrude into her room to get all the surprises up. We cooked up the excuse of "Eh, a lot of math worksheets and homework and test papers, please come to the bus stop outside Verde to take it from Jingyi." Yet, thanks to her spells, she was super reluctant to come out of her crib and kept on rejecting meeting us. It was super hard to try to intrude to her house, seriously. Hahaha.
Then, our temperamental (? ok is there such words? Hahaha) Aries woman, Jingyi, began to flare up because our plans were not working at all and she began to "scold" Pamela via messages and calls. And at last, Pamela finally wanted to roll out of her crib to meet Jingyi (Accompanied by Me and ... Jovita? Haha I forgot.) to get the heap of papers. The rest of the clique members walked the long way to get to her house with the help of Pamela's maid and intruded into her room and started to create chaos in there.)
As Pamela came to the bus stop, totally oblivious that her room was being attacked by a bunch of ding dongs, the bus stop gang (Jingyi, Jovita and I) hinted to go to her house. Thank God she agreed instantly. We walked to her house and tried to bring Pamela up to her room but yet again, she was super reluctant. (Candles were burning on cake by the way) In the end, I decided not to entertain her anymore and entered her room to join the rest. Then Pamela finally climbed up to her room, shouting, "Oi, what you doing inside my room with the doors closed?!"
1...2...3 and BAM, surprise! Hahaha, had a really enjoyable time at Pamela's house that day, again, with great company :)

(Insert photos here, can't seem to find them although I uploaded it!)

Jingyi went over to her house and handed her a disc which contained the video that we all acted together on the 8th. :)

31 May 2011:
Another 2709 BBQ gathering right after our Olevel Mother Tongue Papers. As usual, gathered and catch up with each other, have fun and everything. Really appreciate times of meet up like these :)

June 2011

3 June 2011:
Jovita's sweet 17th's on the 4th. The rest of the girls gathered at Pamela's house to get Jovita's handmade rainbow cake and birthday card done.
This preparation and baking session was a super expensive one because Pamela's oven glass plate broke while we were baking. This sort of dampened everyone's mood but at least the cake turned out well! Weehuhu~

4 June 2011:
We celebrated Jovita's sweet 17th at Marina Barrage. It was a potluck event so everyone bought their own food and it turns out that the food was so much that it cannot be completed.
We had fun flying kites and taking photos and blowing bubbles and talking non-stop under the super hot Sun. All of us were melting so we decided to leave at 4 plus. Upon reaching Choa Chu Kang, 6 of us decided to visit Qian Hu and experience the killer fish spa. For Jingyi, Pamela and I, it was our first time and to us, this first experience was pretty horrifying. We were practically screaming (especially Jingyi and I) due to the unbearable itch produced when the fishes bite. Hahaha~ Epic times hehe. But it got better after awhile :)

22 June 2011:
It's our Weiyi's sweet 16th! We went to Pizza Hut to celebrate her sweet 16th birthday, with Elmo balloon and a sunflower hehe. Headed to Kbox with Jingyi, Jovita, Liyee and Pamela after that! :)

July 2011
This was probably the worst month of 2011. The month where I was being scarred and hurt and the period where I really experienced what true pain really felt like. Don't really feel like expressing everything here, but yeah, now, I've moved on. Other than God, I'm not gonna depend on anyone anytime soon. Because being emotionally attached to someone can really kill you inside out.

I don't know when was this but 4711 clique had an ice-skating outing somewhere around July, after our Mid Year Examinations. (I think it's in July) Had a really fun time watching how our people fell and landed on their butt.
After that, some of us went over to Pamela's house to watch a few movies. Jingyi and I were the silent killers for the day....... Haha! Everyone had a tummyache after eating KFC in the afternoon.

22 July 2011:
2709 Clique celebrated Janice and Chuxuan's birthday at Kbox, after Sports Fiesta. It was Janice's super belated (her birthday is on 2nd July) and Chuxuan's advanced birthday (her birthday is on the 24th).
We 4 (Chiahsuan, Lynn, Shiheng and I) prepared the cake outside while the passionate-about-singing-duo were singing inside the room. As we walked in with the cake and two big cards, we expected them to stop singing and look surprised. Instead, they continue to sing their songs as we walked in and sing birthday songs for them. What nice friends huh hahaha!
We, sadly, didn't bring any camera so they wasn't any group photo taken. :( Yet, we really had a great time together! :)

August 2011
Not much happening stuffs in this month. I guess everyone's studying ~

September 2011

1 September 2011:
It was Teachers' Day Celebration and Aces Day. Had fun with 4711 cheating in the Aces Day games haha. Teachers' Day Celebration was awesome and I'm gonna miss my teachers so much. :(

See the alien face.

3 September 2011:
2709 gathering at Amelia's house for her Hari Raya Open House! Experienced Malay food and I really can't get used to their style and taste. But I really had a great time with everyone!

10 September 2011:
Mini gathering with Clare, Wenwei, Haikal, Afiq, Shireen and some of Clare's friends to have a lantern party haha. Had fun catching up with those that I haven't met for very long, had fun burning all the things that we could find to start a fire, and had fun trying to hide alcohol from patrolling police cars, lol!

17 September 2011:
This was the day where I accepted Christ into my life. At first I was pretty uncertain and unstable in my walk with Him, and I admit that when I decided to convert, it was only a play thing to me. Given all the hurts and heartbreaks I've experienced, I took everything as a joke and I just accepted and said I would accept Christ and walk with Him for the fun of it.

But as time pass and as I prayed, I really grew more optimistic and now, I wouldn't let my emotions control me THAT much (Emotions do overwhelm me at times even now, but not as much). I didn't regret making this decision, really. There are parental objections and etc (Now, they are still oblivious to the fact that I am a Christian), but I believe that God will make a way for me and use me to save the lost souls around me. :)

30 September 2011:
Graduation Ceremony (Class Of 2011). Felt so emotional on that day somehow. It seems like my first day of school was just yesterday and I can still remember my first day of school, those days where 2709 really created havoc in the class, those days where we studied until we practically go crazy (especially during Math lessons) so vividly. It seems so weird that all of these are ending soon and would never come back again. I really miss my secondary school life, I miss school and miss going crazy with my girls. :( I miss the past 4 years.. and the fact that I'm leaving the school to another strange institution makes me feel so miserable.
Whatever it is, 4 years have come to an end and that's that. My 4 years had been fruitful with ups and downs in it and I've never regretted entering this school even though my first thought when I just entered secondary school was: "So I'm gonna be in the same class as all of them for 2 years?!"
I've made it through, we've made it through. :') With or without regrets, at least we knew we gave in our best, in one way or another.

October 2011:
7 October 2011:
Official last day of school. Graduation Ceremony was conducted one week earlier for other batch because of the Nlevel students. Had lunch with Angeline, Chiahsuan, Shiheng and Lynn Chew after school. :)

Olevel started on 24 October and ended on 15 November (for me). I think I didn't do really well for it and I got to admit that I'm rather disappointed in myself. :( My strive to study totally died down even before Os started and I relied on my past knowledge, especially for my Humanities (where I only spent one night for both Social Studies and Geography). What's worse is that Humanities is compulsory for both my L1R4 and L1R5. :( English was a killer for me, and I am really afraid of failing it. Failing English = Failing the entire O levels.
Really hoping and praying for the best and really hoping to meet my desired grades and results. :(

November 2011 & December 2011:
I started to worked as a Waitress at Sushi Tei (West Coast Outlet) after my major papers are down. In one way or another, I do enjoy working at Sushi Tei, especially with awesome and funny managers and colleagues!
Sometimes, I was being pushed to Big Splash Sushi Tei to work. To be honest, I prefer Big Splash over West Coast outlet because the people there are somehow friendlier and more fun-loving and the managers there are awesome, like West Coast's.

16 November 2011 - 18 November 2011:
4711 Clique Chalet! This is the chalet where I spent most of my time sleeping thanks to the examinations. Hehehe, nevertheless, I really had fun with my girls and everything! :) Grateful for this chance to really gather and have fun together. Love my SNSD :)
On the second night, some of the other classmates came for the BBQ session. Some of the guys stayed overnight as well.
After chalet, the super-tired us (girls) went to town for some prom shopping hehe.

22 November 2011:
It was Prom! Had a really great time and on that night, time really ZAP past.
Before the night of our lives (Lol), some of us went to Reitian's house to get our makeup and everything done. Reitian's sister helped us in our makeup and she really did an awesome job yo! :)
I really enjoyed prom and that was probably one of the once enjoyable and memorable night of my life. I miss prom!

23 November 2011:
Velocity A outing to Sentosa! Had a fun time playing games with my brothers and sisters! ^^

After which, I went back to Unity to attend Student Leadership Camp 2011's Gala Night. Miss Chua Shi Qian came back to visit us and it was sort of a reunion for us. :) I really miss Ms Chua a lot after she left for MOE Headquarters 1 year plus ago. (I think). Really thankful towards her for polishing Guoyao, Shireen and I (and some others) into who we are and where we are today. :) Thank Ms Chua! You once said that you read my blog, and I truly hope that you are still stalking my blog so that you can understand my gratitude towards you which I would NEVER have the courage to express it right in front of you hehe.

24 November 2011 - 26 November 2011:
2709 Chalet down at Home Team NS @ Pasir Ris. That place was horrible, lol. But the company was great! :) The first night was pretty screwed though because I didn't get to play and spend time with my classmates :( Really hope that such chances of gathering wouldn't die down once we all lead separate ways. :(

Anyway, we celebrated Lynn's SUPER BELATED brithday (Her birthday's on the 5th of OCTOBER anyway). Hehehe.

29 November 2011 - 5 December 2011:
Taiwan trip! Sat on the plane for the first time in my life. To be honest I was rather scared of a plane crash, LOL. It was a midnight flight so I was feeling really tired and drained (And I had work in the morning).
Taiwan was great and awesome, especially their weather. The first 2 days was rather okay. On the 3rd day, the first day of winter started and that day was horrible. Even my butt froze, lol. Days after that were rather ok and I had fun experiencing life in another country! Taiwan's food are AWESOMEEEEEE!Went there and ate like 10 meals a day. Came back as a fatter girl, hehe. Food is bliss!

9 December 2011 - 12 December 2011:
Kairos Camp! This is my first time attending a church camp and I really had a fruitful time. God's presence was really strong during the camp as I praised and worshipped Him. :) Had my Kairos moment in camp!
The camp was physically draining because I slept little (ok to me, it's very little) yet spiritually filling. :) Thank God! Praise Lord!

12 December 2011 - 13 December 2011:
Liyee's birthday on the 13th and Pamela, Jingyi, Guoyao and I decided to surprise Liyee on her doorstep at 12 midnight.
Before the surprise, some of us gathered to get her cards done. :)
After which, the 4 of us made our way to her block and have some chit chat session before going upstairs.
Pamela collaborated with Liyee's sister to get this surprise done. First, we wanted to intrude into her house. While Liyee was spending time in the toilet trying to wash her face etc, the 4 of us sneaked into her kitchen with the help of Liyee's sister.
When it stroke 12 midnight, Liyee's sister lured Liyee out of the toilet using DBSK. Lol and she finally turned up in the living room which was right beside the kitchen. As she was out, we appeared out of the kitchen with her cake and she was startled. Expecting her to feel awkward and head in our direction, she ran back into her room instead. HAHA funniest reaction from a birthday girl.

13 December 2011:
Celebrated Liyee's birthday at the singing queen's favourite hangout: Kbox. We didn't want her to know that we are going to Kbox, so we blindfolded her from Lot One all the way to Kbox. To make it even more suspicious, we brought her all the way up to the 6th storey (Kbox's on the 5th) and brought her down to the 5th storey via the stairs. It's really funny when she couldn't stop screaming because she is afraid hahaha!

21 December 2011:
Velocity Christmas Party!

27 December 2011:
U08 Outing! It was supposed to be a 18 people event, but only 4 turned up that day. #fail. But it's ok, had fun equally as well since we are comfortable with each others' company. We made our way to Marina Barrage to fly kites. Less than 15 minutes up there, it began to rain. We even saw the rain impending from the Singapore Flyer region.
Spent the rest of the time chilling below the barrage, taking and spamming pictures of us (standard). Afterwhich, we made our way to Marina Bay Sands and took more photos before returning back to Woodlands. Had our dinner at the super stinky Seoul Garden, together with Esther Ma'am. Had a slight catch up session, and went home afterwhich. :)

29 December 2011:
Velocity A4 Outing! Went to Marina Barrage for the second time of the week. But thank God! The weather on that day was awesome. Had a picnic together as a lifegroup and had some games! Thank God for the day, thank God for the weather, thank God for the experience!

30 December 2011 - 31 December 2011:
Had a random overnight gathering (?) at Pamela's house. Had a really awesome and great night with my girls. Our initial plan was to play mahjong overnight... But Guitar Hero and Taboo (with Roulette set being the forfeit) took all our energy instead.
We all slept at 6AM in the morning and agreed to wake up at 7.30AM to eat breakfast. But.... We slept all the way until 9AM. Lol.
Great night I had just before 2012 starts, am really grateful and happy :)

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4 years of intense working and committing, all these have come to an end. Never thought that I would feel that sad and unwilling since as time pass, all I desire was rest and lesser commitments. Yet, as my council mates/ squadmates and I gradually let go of all the small/big responsibilities to the younger ones, I can't help but feel sad.

To be honest, I didn't like to be in Student Council when I was in Secondary 1. Teachers pick on us just because of our striking gold badge and expects so much out of us. Being in a council used to be a burden to me, not until I reached secondary 2 and began to lead certain areas of the council with awesome people like ...

Shireen Cindy & Chua Guo Yao!
Really grateful to have them in my life. I can probably say that we grew up together in the council and got positions in the council together. The days where we went to Decoders' cafe to have fun, going to the Student Activity Centre everyday after school just to slack and play pool, and the days where we saw our efforts go down the drain when the Student Activity Centre was passed over to the Cabin Club.

Talking about the council, CCA Council and Student Council merged soon after we changed our principal. So we were the last batch who still remains separated. To be honest, I think I am really lucky because I'm too used to the lack of manpower to deal with events, and the strict discipline we get. With the merge, the way the council worked changed and yeah ... I feel that I don't belong there anymore. Haha.

While shouldering the council's responsibility, I was committed to my own CCA. Although many conflicts and misunderstandings have occured, yet we've persevered it through. Closed the chapter to my NPCC life. Am leaving unwillingly, yet fulfillingly. Thank you U08, all of you mean so much to me.. It's kinda sad that we must all separate now.

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2011 has been a really fulfilling year. Ok maybe, my entire secondary school life was fulfilling. Sure, I had many conflicts and failures, but yet, it's all these failures that make me stronger. Great thanks to my friends who were there to motivate me when I am down, and million thanks to God, who never left my side at all. :)

First, thank you to 2709 Clique: Eu Shi Heng Koh Chia Hsuan Lynn Chew Shen Ee Lim Chu Xuan Janice Ong Chin Hwee.

& then to 4711 Clique: Loh Jing Yi Pamela Loh Chia Li Yee Jovita Minata Rei Tian Foo Pearlyn Ong Lynn Quek Qin Chia Wei Yi , especially my dearest night gang.

Then to U08: Clare Yak Haikal Bin Kasmani Lim Wenwei Ahmad Afiq.

Then to my council mates: Chua Guo Yao Shireen Cindy Koh.

Then, Velocity A! Am not gonna type out one by one because there's too much to name!

But, I'm extraordinary grateful to Ex-Velocity A1:

Liaw Zheng Kai Eva Soh Charissa Lee Angel Chan Chung Zhi Huai Bowen Yip Wei De Kelver Yeo Khoo Kai Juan

And of course, to my current Velocity A4:

Yap Wai Han Eva Soh Chung Zhi Huai Bowen Yip Wei De Kelver Yeo Khoo Kai Juan Tee Hon Eng Jessica

Then to Nam Jie Ying !

Thanks for being there when I needed a listening ear and a place for me to rant my feelings to.

2011 was great, and I wish for the same 2012 (Cause I know it would never be as awesome as this year. Not that period though).

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Okay, to achieve a fulfilling new year, there must be resolutions right? Well I was browsing through last year's and it's so awesome because I was so tired I only spent 5 minutes to do it: Live healthy, good results ... and $$ come to me!

Well, I'm gonna do an elaborate one now.
Well in the year of 2012...
1. Persevere like how I used to at the start of the year and the past 3 years. I'm growing tired of rushing and expecting the best out of myself way beyond limits, and I'm really very tired... I know I just can't do this alone anymore, and I need someone to push me forward. Yet, who will be the one?! So, I guess I'd still have to continue to motivate myself and pull through these tough 2/3 years ahead. C'mon, I really need the motivation!

2. Get good results. Like duh which dude doesn't.

3. Pink of Health. As I rush and try my best, I really hope my health doesn't deter me like what it always does! -_-

4. Grow deeper in God. As my commitments increase, my time for God would miserably get lesser and lesser.. Even if that happens (which I hope it doesn't), I really pray that my relationship with Him still remains strong! He blessed me with so much stuffs, :)

Ok I'm super tired already time to sleep bye!

End of Os! (Technically)

2011-11-04T11:23:00.006+08:00

Hi my babies I am back in action 8)

Today's 4th November and it's the end of all my major papers! Stress but, I've done what I could. For 4 straight years. This 4 years are perhaps the most stressful yet most fulfilling period of my 16 years of life. Ups, downs, changes, knowing people, leaving people.... Just life.

In an blink of an eye, I am now a graduate of Unity Secondary. I have never once regretted coming to this school and knowing all the wonderful friends in this school. :) I hope that all my valuable friendship would remain strong until the end of time!

Ok so I have so much to type, rant and cry out about in this post that I don't know where to start. Hmmmm, I shall start with any random topic that comes into my mind then!

At the start of this year, I was well known for nonetheless, my BANGS.

Now, I have evolved into the more 淑女 side of me. Hahaha.

Ok whatever. I just don't have the time to visit the hairdresser to even get a proper trim. I was at home doing assignments everyday. No joke.

Yes horrible. But am so glad that it's all over now. :)

So in general, this year has been suckier than last year....

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Most of my papers were okay except for my Humanities and English (and apparently both are compulsory in my L1R5). I can do nothing but pray now 'cause I can't change my answers....

I know this is abrupt but I am going off soon! To Kbox muahahaha! Would probably return at night or something, all the best peeps! ^^

Hurts so bad.

2011-08-15T15:41:00.003+08:00

You know the times when reality feels like a sweet dream and those days all you do is to anticipate the arrival of the next day because reality was better than your dreams?

I miss those times.

I have never thought I'd land into a plight like this, becoming a victim in relationships. Being fed with lies all the while but totally oblivious to it.

But life's just like this isn't this? Faulting at the wrong time, falling in love at the wrong time.... This is really tormenting, but come to think of it, who can I look for? Those who promised to be there, those who promised they will stay forever ... Eventually left one by one. Even you.

I know I have to be strong, I have to be positive, I can't bury myself in pessimism forever.. However, it is impossible to recover in such a short span of time, especially when my national oral exam is just 3 days away and my Prelims start just next week.

I have no one but myself to blame. Blame myself for growing too dependent on you. Now that you left without a single word, I'm here rereading all those letters you left just months ago.......

Well, feelings fade, emotions die and time heals ... Now that your life is smoothsailing than it get ever get, I am forgotten. I was the one you changed you, I was the one who bled to save you. Now? You recovered ... and I am left here to die.

Had never cried this bad, fuck everything, 2011 suck

Top half of my 2011 gone with the wind ~

2011-05-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

If you're perfectly right in the mind, you can already infer that I'm very tired by analysing the above picture. Well if you're sane on top then you can also infer that school is causing all these.

Today is the first day of May, it's labour day. Not a very good day for me today because I've been down with flu since early morning, directly causing the flooding of tissue papers in my dustbin. Ahhhh, horrible.

Secondary 4 life is more horrible than I'd imagine, seriously. There's still 6 more months (maybe 5 more since it's may now) to Olevels and each weekends' homework are ... (insert the correct adjective here). There's so much that sometimes I'd rather go to school (not early morning though, I'm still highly reluctant to compromise my beauty sleep) than sit in front of my heaps of homework and feel stressed over how the hell am I going to complete them. Graduating students have no life.

To add on to my agony I'm having both my language paper 2 days later .... The worst part is I have no idea how to improve both my lousiest subject. I do read storybooks, model essays for chinese and all ... But my results still deteriorate. #fail. I envy those which are good at both languages /:

So, today I've doing this thanks to my flu. Sleep is bless!

Ok I've nothing to update already. Shall go and watch my teebeeeeee now, byeeee ~

Hello 2011, Goodbye 2010. Hello Sec Four Life, Goodbye Sec Three Life.

2010-12-31T22:18:00.003+08:00

After so long, I'm finally back to blogging. Haha!
Yup, and today's the last day of year 2010, it's time for evaluation. I'm not gonna try to watch my tenses, neither am I gonna watch for any typos or any irritating spelling mistakes. I will write in Singlish with my "ley la lor"s for all I care. Haha, I don't think anyone will have the damn patience to read my forever so long blog post.

Hmmm, yeah, to me, 2010 sucked. Let's type each event one by one. Dedications to my dear friends and family at the end of this post! Ok la I think you will skip my acheievement parts to the dedications part right LOL.

January 2010

To be frank, I had the best birthday throughout the past 15 years of my life. Because my birthday is dated at the start of the year, nobody bothers to remember or whatsoever. Haha, actually I'm quite used to it, until this year when the presence of so many people proved me wrong. Many actually bothers to remember :) Thanks guys, really appreciated it :)

Band concert 2010.

Febuary 2010

2709 BBQ Gathering. Best class ever !

Campcraft Competition 2010. Although performance wasn't that good but at least experiences gained :)

March 2010
Seniors all stepped down, and all the responsibilities were flooded to us, the Sec 3s. NPCC, Student Council, yada yada, it all came at once. The sudden increase in responsibility (leading to increase in stress level) makes me go WAAAA STRESS AH. Haha, it was really difficult to cope. Academics + commitments = complete the equation yourself. Proposals after proposals, camps after camps, events after events, responsibilities after responsibilities, how to even cope with academics. Of course I will start to drop in my academics la. Haha!

Student Council Executive Committee 2010 - 2011.
Guoyao - President.
Izyan - Vice President.
Krisada - Head of Discipline.
Me - Head of Core Events.
Yanty - Head of Supporting Events.
Shireen - Head of Student Welfare.

U08.

First event planned: Sec One Orientation Camp. First experience trying to run a camp. One word: Tired. Haha, but the bond between squadmates and I managed to let me stay awake even with 3 hours of sleep each day. With their jokes and everything ......

April 2010

Second commitment: Unit Hike. & right up after Unit Hike is a U08 BBQ.

May 2010
YGSP Chemical Powered Car Competition.

It was my first project being a leader ... Okay la I fail as one leader ok. Because I planned things late :/ then we hardly have any tryouts, thus resulting in a "just 0.8 metres more and we could win" situation :/ Ugh, learnt deeply from my mistake ... If we're trying again next year, I wanna clinch the champion!

June 2010

It is this month that took a complete U turn. Not that time rewind but everything went from really good to really bad, worst it could ever get. That's when I started to become a pessimist from a optimist.

I don't really feel like typing what happened, but still I want you all to know that: It would be a joke if I don't miss you all. We tried to fix all the pieces together, but it didn't work out. I guess it will never ... Well still, thanks for all the times we've spent together. It has been great with every single one of you, from breaking rules all together and bullying others together. Yeah, it's all in the past now. Haha, you all may find this a joke ... But yeah, I valued that friendship, really alot. Sorry for anything I've done.

Okay so at that point of time, my point of view to life totally changed. I cannot stand being alone; to be truthful, I was really dependent. I needed company, I needed someone to be beside me all the time. With them leaving me, it was like majority of my pillar of hope and happiness was gone. Like in an instant. Okay la, maybe to all of you, it may be nothing. But losing something I value, especially friendship was something really ... tormenting.

It was like, don't know continue living for what. It was really terrible. For a dependent person like me, travelling alone in front of all your once best friends was really a torture la.

What's worse was, Irene went to Australia. She was the only one I could really talked to, yet she was gone as well. I don't blame her ... But it was really hard to pull together. At night, I would sleep with wet pillows, and in the morning I would wake up with puffy eyes. That continued for straight 2 weeks. I wanted to pour everything out, but there's like no one I could message to. Damn terrible.

I still remembered there was this partcular course I must attend to. On the 8th June, I actually cried in public 'cause I really can't take it. -.- I found myself really useless. -.-

That period was my SYF period too. I sort of shut myself since Marissa didn't come for some trainings.. So when she isn't there, did drills and went home. Like sudden escape LOL.

Things became slighty better when Ma'am knew what happened. Her random Kbox sessions, her jokes, her craps, and especially her "Must be like me ma, bu shuang just shoot everything out ... You dont' always keep to yourself!" Haha, thanks Ma'am.

July 2010
Singapore Youth Festical Opening Ceremony 2010.

This was perhaps the best period of the year, knowing all these lovely girls, espeically Nam Jie Ying! ^^ Please read the previous previous post :)

August 2010
Achievements began coming in, from National Day Parade to Journey to the Youth Olympic Flame.

This year was assigned to be a flagbearer. Slow march was ... SLOW. HAHAHAHA ok learning process was okay though ...

Journey of the Youth Olympic Flame.
Practices often clashed with NDP trainings so Krisada and I have to run here run there run everywhere, tired ah! That period seriously lack of sleep :/ But on that day itself, it was really great satisfication. Haha! Knowing new friends was great too! Kelvin and Jessie :).

September 2010
Was the runner for Teachers' Day Concert. Haha, although someone tripped over the cable and caused the system to shut off, everything still went well. :) Was quite glad :)

October 2010
Exam period. One word: STRESS. How to survive Olevelssssss -.-

November 2010

Survival Training Camp 2010.
Hahahahahahahahahahahaha. I shall keep my comments to myself .... Okay la my group members should know how pissed I got (Darren and Maoan was my venting machine; kept slapping them during campfire and kept on shouting to release anger. But futile effort, still broke down in the tent at night, causing me to sleep only at like 2am -.- Wow failure.) Haha, but I'm proud of myself for being the only girl there, somemore I didn't shout back at anybody, especially YOUYOUYOU -.- Haha bloody hell I really hope I never see you again.
Oh and I'm proud that I ________________ ! Ok how proud can I get -____-
Although many people pissed me off (especially YOU bloody hell), I still had fun ... Jumping off the jetty. It was damn shiok, the wind before SPLASHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Weehehe. Knew new friends too ^^

Students' Leadership Camp 2010.
Was only the incharge of campfire. Hiccups here and there, lack of sleep, clashed with Prom Nite; but everything still went well :)

December was like nothing.
Well as you can see ... 2010 is a year filled with achievements. But it was also a year filled with practically nothing but sadness :( I'm happy but I'm sad; that's how contradicting life is.

Okay, enough with my bullshit! It's time for dedications! Okay I know you all can't wait.

NamJieYing.

Hi pig! i bet you are going to be one of the first reading this post, hahaha. Okay la what i wanna say is thank you for the past 4 to 5 months. We were very close during SYFOC, and after parade ended, we drifted ... It was until I went to your shop when we finally became closer again, like reuinion ^^

I remembered you once told me that I never left you when you needed me. Haha, I was like really touched when I received that message, from a person I've knew for such a short period of time.

Well, you've never left me in the lurch when I was feeling terrible from thoughts and etc. One single tweet on Twitter, and the next moment, I will receive your message, asking me to cheer up. One memorable time was during STC! Haha, all I did was send a message to Twitter and then : "Pig! You okay or not!" Well although I wasn't really in the mood to talk, I still poured everything out and eventually felt better. Besides Irene, you are my next person I pour everything too. :>

& when we are sad at the same time, we emo together ROFL.

Let's not be sad and work hard in the coming 2011 ok! 2012 wouldn't happen :x

LynnChewShenYi.

Hi Lynn! I don't kow whether you will be looking at this or not. But have you finished your work? HAHAHA.

I wanna thank you for all the help you have given me all these while, especially in academics. When I have problems, the first person I message to is you :x Right from Sec 2, you've been a great partner, helping me organize outings :) Really thanks! & you are damn cute! You gave me an extra birthday present just because you forgot my birthday :x Thanks yeah!

KohChiaHsuan.

Hi you this childish lame person! Thanks for being such a joke to me for the past 3 years, haha jokingjoking ! Not joke la, you know I love you <3

LimChuXuan

Hi siaozhabor! HAHAHA! You another joker. All your blog post, your funny jokes, weird habits always make me laugh like crazy one.
I still remember you always like to boast how cute you are when you are young and when I went home and logged into your blog, WOW LOL FULL OF BABY PHOTOS. Your live story like never ending, LOL like alot to say! Funniest part is checking whether Janice is a girl or boy. HAHA making us laugh like !!! Okay la to be frank, sometimes when I sad and I happen to go to your blog, I will amchio a little bit, haha, your stories all power (Y) <3

EuShiHeng.

This picture above, like idontknow how long ago one lor! Haha you another emo kiddo, like to keep all the things to yourself. But at the same time, you're another joker, a joker sitting behind me during class and beside me in Bio lesson. I love how we always purposely bully ______ in bio class ! & of course, when we see Mr Arul laugh (showing his teeth), we would stare at each other and then go: "BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA, 长得很象黑人牙膏那个！" Then the whole class will stare at us with those O.O eyes like something possessed us. Thanks for all your stupid jokes, don't emo liao, HAHA!

JaniceOngChinHwee.

Eh idiot you know very hard to find just ONE picture with you and me or not! HAHAHHA we always like to make fun of your gender! Ok la I really thought you are a guy when I first saw you in school -____- I'm practically like: "Eh 为什么那个女的在穿裙sia!!!!!" Then when I knew you were a girl then I calmed down :x All these years, your vulgars the most among the 6 of us :x Vulgar until we came up with a game for you!
Two players: Janice Janice Janice CHESS! (Scissors paper stone)
Winner: 回家睡觉啦!!!!
Loser: KAOBEI LA !!!!
HAHAHA, joke seriously. We purposely play infront of you make you damn pekchek with us HAHAHAHAHAHA ! Thanks for all the stupid actions, ,aking me laugh especially during sec 2! Be more ahgirl la Janice ^^

ChuaGuoYao.

Hi President! HAHAAHAHA.
Thanks for all the exam tips and cheats for all the years. You are my walking calculator :x Thanks for all these while, academics got problem, confirm find you first! :x You're one guy friend I can fully trust, espeically in plannings :> Thanks seriously!

ShireenCindyKoh.

Hi Shireennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn ! Thanks for being sucha joker :x Even when everyone's tired, you're the only one who's capable of entertainng yourself! Anyway I just hallucinated the trees dancing. HAHAHAHAHAHA! Thanks for all the hearttoheart :>

Darren, Benedict, Ruling, Alfred.
I know this is surprising HAHA! I wanna thank you for all the craps plus nonsense and all the white duck black chicken ahneh jokes HAHAHA ^^ Although we weren't that close earlier, through recent fancy drill trainings, somehow we became close, especially with Benedict and Darren's bullying! Please stop showing me your middle finger :D Thankszxc :x

Last but not least ....

IreneLeongShuYun.

Okay first thing first ....
WE STILL DONT HAVE A PICTURE TOGETHER !!!! SEE LA WHY YOU SO SHY. In replacement, I got your favourite:

Hi dearest panda! I'm sure you're heartbroken why I didn't put you first! Aiya, normally most important one must leave till the end ma ... Somemore yours longest, put below!

It was great knowing you, although 2010 sucked. Almost through all the storms, you were there for me, and I would speak up to you about my problems. I only wouldn't unless you're the problem :x You were willing to accept my wild and impulsive character. Although sometimes I don't like it when you die also don't want to tell me your problems, I still love you :)

Throughout this one year, you've been a great companion. You took over the role of almost everything. Being my naggy grandma, making sure that I ate when I'm hungry and see a doctor when I'm sick. Being my understanding teacher, telling me your stories and making me reflect about all my doings. Being a great sister, supporting me in whatever I do, whether it is right or wrong. Being a really great friend, giving me the tight hugs when I want and need it the most.

I know it was tough on you because I demanded you to forget the past so that you'll look straight into the future without your past disturbing you. I know your life isn't good, and since that day, I wanted to transform your life. Haha, little did I knew you were such a great impact to me too.

In an blink of an eye, we have knew each other for 381 days. Okay, 382 days because it has already passed midnight. Well I really hope nothing bad will happen in the future and we can get the future we want. :) Loveyou xo.

New Year Wish: No end of the world forever, not in 2012, never ever.
New Year resolution: Live healthy, good results ... and $$ come to me! LOL.

Okay, I'm really knocking out .. GOODNIGHT IT'S 0212. Happy new year!

Another emo day.

2010-11-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

Dictionary has thousands and millions of words ... And I can't even find the right one to describe my feelings now.

就让泪流。

December started in a very mentally tormenting manner ... 2010 suck hardcore.

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2010-11-17T11:16:00.001+08:00

2010 is the most fucked up year ever, I swear.

End of End-of-Year.

2010-10-14T20:47:00.002+08:00

Singapore Youth Festival Opening Ceremony 2010 :'( ...

My End-of-Year has ended. I should be happy and screaming when the invigilator says: "You're dismissed." But my Amath was really screwed and yeah, my EYE ended miserably. My mind went blank when I saw log and ln, although I practiced for it the day before -.- ... What's worse was that the linear graph was ln ! Yes, screwed up. Out of 2 hours 30 minutes, 2 damn hours was spent on the first and second page, leaving only damn 30 minutes left for my last page (which is all trigo and graph drawing plus graph sketching. 30 minutes was all I have. I began to panic and my hands turned cold, shaking as I stared at the question. I ALMOST cried out when I saw the graph question man ! Wanted to skip that question but after I found out that that question is made up of 7 marks, I attempted that question. Yeah, anyhow. I was practically shifting all the terms all over the place, anyhow ln anyhow shift down shift up. Whatthehell. Didn't even bother to draw gradient 'cause I really had no time. I got so nervous that my y=|cos x| maximum point became 2 ! Miss Lee, please burn my paper.

I wanted to do a proper post in the afternoon but I practically no mood for ANYTHING. Wanted to sleep but my mind's still high on caffeine so I didn't sleep. Even till now, I feel energetic. When I slept at 12am everymorning and oke up at 0530am to study and recap -.- Mad! How to survive Olevels -.-

Now that I'm reminded of Olevels, I'm taking it in approximately 1 year later ! WHATTHEHELL .___. Time flies ! Stop and let me catch up !

So anyway I want to dedicate this post to my wonderful four ladies up there ! my MYMJJ ! Marissa, Yuhui, Minyi, Jieying and Jiaying ! <3 !

These four wonderful ladies are my SYFOC mates ! And best part: We ony knew each others' existence during the last week of training ._.

First training was really alien to me. I don't know people around me ! Crap only. Cadet inspectors called us to place our bags according to our areas, so while placing my bag, I knew Jiaying from BPGHS ! Although we aren't that close, a few trainings later, we became close already. When falling in in a very rushed manner, I fell in beside Marissa ! The first SYFOC friend I knew ! :> First training was obviously the most torturing one so we cursed and swear together first. Subsequent trainings we began sticking to each other like glue :p.

Then, there was one training when Marissa didn't come :( Me the emo penguin knew Jiaying since then ^^ ! Then we began to frequently talk and we knew each other more !!

&&& ! When we were having rifle drills once, Minyi fell in beside me ! Being like a blur and gong sotong, I marched with the same hands and same legs haha WTH ! Minyi saw that I was having difficulty and she whispered beside me (first sentence we exchanged!) : "SHOOT OUT YOUR LEFT LEG FIRST !" Was giggling when she said that, but that sentence worked wonders ! Thanks Minyi ! What's more, she would constantly ask "You okay?" "Need help?" to ensure that I would master rifle drills well! Memories ...

Oh! & when I make mistakes in my drills, Sir Romzi will shout from the top (shit ! Forgot what is it called alr ! ) : " GO EAGLE, GO EAGLE ! " Hahaha ! 'Cause I refused to tell him my name and he saw "eagle" on my yellow PE shirt. So, I became a bird.

Trainings at Home Team was dry. After one month's worth of training, SYFOC'10 contingents began to train at Singapore Indoor Stadium ! That was the most amazing period of SYFOC ! Before that period, I only knew Marissa. We arent that close to Jiaying and Minyi yet. :/ Then, for the FIRST SIS TRAINING NIGHT on the way back to HTA, Jiaying suddenly came to me and :"I love you ... Are you willing to be my girlfriend? I am a les ! " HAHA! I just stared at her and stun ._. Since she and Minyi were sitting in front of Marissa and I, we began chatting and we grew very close!

Next training, Jieying and Minyi brought breakfast ! So Marrisa and I ordered from them and we ate on our way to SIS although it's not allowed (like we care).

Jiaying began to grew close with us, and MYMJ became MYMJJ ! (Y)(Y)(Y) ! & our daily routine each day was:
"Meet 0645 at the outside the busstop at HTA ah ! " Then we would make our way to the toilet at the basement and take our time to change into our Half-U, complaining how sleepy we are, what time we slept last night, all those all those ! After changing, we would fall in in front of the two pillars at the entrance

Then we would march to the carpark and when we are sent into the bus, the 5 of us would purpoely walk DAMN SLOWLY to get the small but empty bus ! Other people snatch large bus we take small bus and the seats at the back is all ours ! then we would begin chit chatting and began eating our breads !

After which, we would make fun of Sir Jiahao, Sir (idkwhatname) and Sir Ashwin ! Especially giving the -____- stare to Sir Ashwin when he say cold jokes ! HAHA WTH.

Upon reaching SIS, training ! Jieying and I will SMS each other when Ma'ams not looking and complain about the people beside us :x Haha ! & we would make fun of Poh Lin when she imitates Anita Sarawak, a famous person in the SIS poster ! ;X

During lunch breaks and dinner breaks, Jieying and I would volunteer to take our lunches and run (with our boots) to the logistic booth ! Then we would make fun of the CIs there and laugh and joke with Mr Chng ! (Y). Then we would carry the gross and oily handles of our lunch boxes up idk how many flights of stairs and began giving everything to everyone ! Sometimes everyone just take and we would be left with nothing :(. So, we are clever enough to call Marissa, Minyi and Jiaying to help us chope all our food, jelly and water first ;x ! This also applies to all our snackpacks ! :D

After training, we would eat our dinner in the bus ! With the seat as our table and our butts on the bus floor, we would enjoy our dinner on the bus! We would have heart to heart talks, and enjoy the beautiful Singapore river area scenary. Neverthelessly, we would change out of our Half-U in the bus ! :)

Then, when we return rifles, we would complain how tired we are etcetc :/ Walking out of HTA, we would bid farewell when either of our bus comes and say "0645 meet at busstop ah! " HAHA ! When we reach home, we would text each other, calling each other to cheer up and jiayou for tomorrow etc ! Great memories !

I really miss my SYFOC mates :/ I want time to rewind :( ...
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Anyway, I wanna thanks my panda, Pamela, Lynn and Liyee esp for helping out in my studies via twitter ! MANY THANKS TO THOSE WHO HELPE ME TOO !!! LOVE !

Happiness.

2010-10-09T14:37:00.001+08:00

"If you're trapped between your feelings & what other people think is right.. always go for whatever makes you happy." - @TheLoveStories #TLS

No, it's an impossible task; especially when that particular thing makes the other party sad although you're happy. That defeats the purpose, doesn't it?

It's all about forking out willingly, Yuhui. Forking out and sacrificing everything at no cost, and expecting nothing back in return. Not even slight happiness. Yes, you're willing to give up everything for that person; but that doesn't mean the other party have to do that too. Because remember, you forked out willingly from the start. No one forced you.

Now, all I can do is fake a smile and pretend that I'm happy, extremely happy, with life. I don't wanna to be somebody I'm not; but the consequences of being sad threatens me to be happy.

Yuhui is a happy girl, a happy optimistic strong girl who's able to tackle everything. Even if everything is messed up and ruined, I'll clean up and say it's perfect, covering the flaws. Even if a porcelain plate is broken, I'll find all measures to glue it back and use it again, thinking that it's condition is still as perfect as it was. Even if a doll is torn, with all it's cotton flying all over the place, I'll stuff dust into it and it'll still be my greatest companion. Even if perfect truth turns out to be a facade, I'll be the only dumb one floating in that truth.

Yeah, that's why I'm happy. Almost all the time. And I'm enjoying bits of it.

Hectic, goodluck :>

2010-09-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

Hello people, there's only 5days now left to my End of Year Examinations, and I'm sure many people are slogging very hard for it now to promote ! Yeah, I just wish to wish you all good luck ! Partially it's because I'm getting bored from Emath congruence and similarity revision la, haha ! Ok, I hope this application doesn't screw up my blog :>

I wanna post this big, but yeah, this is let version so .... WHAT TO DO ? Okay, be right back after my exams, I hope I don't break down like how I did for my Mid Year :/

2010-08-29T20:45:00.000+08:00

想要得到，就努力去争取，不要因为自己不努力而争取不到，就样样都怪在我头上。

2010-08-28T11:23:00.003+08:00

I should be working hard right now, for my EndofYear. But, I'm just too lazy. :(

Woah, seriously lor, see all my thick thick notes ah ... *dies miserably*

I feel like stuffing fastfood inside my mouth now.

I feel so random typing all these crap.

Haha, okay, I should rush my Teachers' Day momento now and practice Amath proving with made me vomit blood 2 nights before.

Okay, byebyezxc.

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I'm stillllllll so lazy to do my momentos la seriously!

Was stalking a lot of people's blog and found out so much love/bestfriends dedication! & LimChuXuan most pro love story. HAHAHA !

So now, it's my turn right? My bestfriend story though, I don't want love story ~

Haha hiding for 257 days, I've finally decided to disclose this friendship ~ I mean, also no point hiding right, since so many already know, including the ones who are not supposed to know. Ha, everyone somehow took the fact rather calmly, so I see no fault revealing. :)

I wanted to post a picture of us here, but laughs, I found out we have no picture, sad max. :( 'Cause she's camera-shy :) So I shall show this cute picture:

Haha, joke!

Okay, I shall get serious now.

On 151209, she came for my December training. Initially, she was just my instructor, and I was just a cadet to her. Other than imparting knowledge to us, she was yeah, just a normal instructor to me. & I was still a cadet who's still reluctant to go training and destroy the field by pegging and pegging.

Then, during promotion test (campcraft lashing), I was showing attitude because I didn't know a single thing (Was missing for that particular training for chalet LOL). She was like "Okay everyone, tie diagonal lashing." I was stuck obviously. I was being a bitch and kept on showing attitude to her. & she showed me that face ! Ya that face you know (!!) , then ignore me (Sister, you best.) Feeling pekchek, I gave a super high class lashing. Haha, still remember her face when she said : "At least still got effort marks ma ..." Haha okay I suck :)

Another random stuff: Screwed up my knots test too ! Name 5 uses of every single knot :D I only knew 2 purpose of thumb knot. THAT'S ALL haha :)

Back to the topic:

Next incident, 2009 Annual Camp. Before heading to school to get ourselves slaughtered, we had lunch and Afiq gave everyone a chocolate bread. I was SOOOO full so I just hid it DEEP inside my bag (AND IT'S REALLY DEEP! Can't even see okay!) Headed to school, and bag inspection. :)
I was told by a panda to open my bag. After I opened my bag, showing only a shower bag, towel and a pouch (filled with girls' stuff) from the top. My panda was like, "What's that?" *Points to somewhere, don't know where* Following her finger, I took out my pouch, asking: "This?"
Her - "No, that." *Points nearer* To my surprise, she was actually pointing to that SMALL CORNER of that chocolate bread's wrapper. & if I didn't remove my pouch, I swear you practically can see no sign of that bread.
Reluctantly, I pulled out the partially squashed bread, and smiled to her :) She was all like , "WHY YOU BRING THAT ?!" *Body shaking as she laughs*
Me - *Points to Afiq* "He gimme one !"
Panda - "You better throw it away, or eat it now. "
Me - "NOW ?!"
Panda - "Yeah."
Me - *Gives the face and throws bread to Afiq who distributed the bread to everyone."

See, we have telepathy ! She knows what's inside my bag and caught ONLY caught me (-.-) red-handed although some others' bag also have chocolate bread ! Hahaha ~ Memories.

After the camp, headed on the morning campcraft trainings and afternoon fancy drills training. I still remember she was teaching us how to peg. Panda :" So, you must make sure your left feet is (at that position, don't know how to call it). I'm a left hander, so I put my right leg there. Use one hand to hold on to the peg, and another one to hold the hammering peg. Then hit." *PIANG PIANG PIANG, oh no, can't go down anymore* "Now, the peg can't go down. I think there's a rock below." I still remember vividly that I was laughing after that for no reason HAHAHAH !!!

Next, she was the one who teached Yingtian, Fiona and I flagstuff together with Terence Sir. Esther Ma'am got control of the tentage people. Haha ~

I think that was around the period which I began to stalk her on Facebook hahaha ! Yeah, I'm pro ! Found her Facebook but didn't add her though. Waited until 311210 came and added her, 'cause I thought training ENDED. But it didn't ._.

For some reasons she can't add me, and she sent me a message on Facebook that she added me on MSN instead. Haha :) The Facebook message conversation was DAMN funny ! I just read it and was laughing to myself like some dumb freak ._. hahaha ~

We talked to each other on MSN, and secretly, I onlined every night just to talk to her. Haha (okay, lesbian-ness side of me all come out already :D) Soon, she wanted my number because she wanted to pass me my birthday present (which was nearing). On the 4th, we meet for like 3 minutes and she passed me my present. Adam Khoo book, pink rabbit and green letter ! I mean, would you go to that extent when you knew someone for less than 5 days ? She did ~ and lifted up my mood a whole lotttt ! Huhuhu ~ Since we exchanged number, we texted each other till now. Yeah, 257 days :>

Random again : I had my greatest birthday ever in 2010, serious. Surprise from panda, and another from Esther Ma'am was really unexpected :>

First outing to National Dental Center on my official birthday, 6th January 2010. I still remembered she specially came down to YewTee and accompanied me to Outram Park :O. Staring at my Emath textbook (indices) flabbergasted, she offered to for my homework for me. At Outram Park do, on bus also do ! I was like 0.0 ~ Haha, cute lazy panda of mine. Anyway, I still have your masterpiece with me inside my general file, panda! Hahaha :)
Dinner at LotOne aftermath. Pepperlunch-ed halfway and saw her favourite teacher in the coffeeshop, haha :)

After such a long description, have you all guessed who is it?

Yes, none other than my dearest Irene Leong Shu Yun :)

Dearest sister,

I just wanna thank you for being my sole motivator, my sole support for 8 months. :) You've changed my life dramatically, always the first one there whenever I break down and whenever I have problems. Being 4 years older, you always try your best to help me in all areas, be it studies and gaining experiences. (although always get rejected by me whenever you offer to help haha).

I still remembered how you always cried everynight in the first few months when I knew you. How you always complain to me that you want to go back to your 17 year old life. I stilled remember 9th January 2010, the night that you shared about your dispirited and spoilt childhood, and also the night when I started my birthday present to you.

It cheers me up how you have moved on ( a little though. But, still an improvement) and no longer cry every night whenever you think of your childhood and past times. You don't deserve this type of life, this type of tormenting childhood. :) You DEFINITELY deserve better. :) Sometimes, you make me reflect so much that unknowingly, become a better person. Every time when I get emotional over stuffs like broken friendship, unsatisfactory results, all I have to do is to think of you ... Think how fortunate I am as compared to you. How fortunate I am to have you there to cheer me up :)

Now, just carry on life with me and stop being emotional okayyyy :) 'Cause even if the whole world walks out, I'd be the dumbest one to walk in, stubborn enough to stay, and foolish enough not to leave. :) Smile ah, my panda :)

Your Panda :)

Haha okay, very mushy right (100% lesbianness ) Haha ! Okay la, not happy can don't read one you know :>

Huhu, I should go now, do momento !!!!!!!! Bye ~ I feel like eating McDonalds ._.

Entangled.

2010-08-12T20:43:00.002+08:00

What is happiness? Being with someone you love the most? Achieving the greatest things in life? Doing your favourite things? Surprises? Constant care from friends around you? Your other half? Memories?

Everyone has their own happiness. When I'm happy, I create a lively atmosphere around me, making everyone around me too. But when I'm not, ...

My happiness? When I'm with my sister. When my sister is happy with me. When my sister gets protective over me. When people around me can accept me for who I am. When people mind their words. When people stop throwing promises around like rubbish. Surprises. When my family is safe and sound (Yes I agree I hate them sometimes). When others can really fathom my feelings, and not make a joke out of it.

I believe that everyone wants and likes to be happy, not caring whether it last. That moment of pleasure is worth everything (well, at least to me).

But to me, being happy isn't the best sometimes ... Especially times like now. Sometimes I'd feel insecure when I'm happy; I'm afraid that I'd lose any source of my happiness one day. Just imagine, you lose your bestfriend. Then even your friends leave you. Get that feeling? I hate that, I really hate that.

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I don't know what's happening. It affected me really very much this time round. Yes, it's just a small misunderstanding, yet, I feel as though my heart and mind had been deeply stabbed by a really sharp knife.

这次就像一把尖尖的刀，一刀一刀地往我胸口刺...这刺刺的伤，真的好痛，好痛...

Continues on private blog.

Thoughts.

2010-08-09T11:00:00.002+08:00

It's National Day ! Happy birthday Singapore ! May you prosper :)

It's National Day, which means I'm only left with one more day to get Biology Chapter 8 and 9 into my head ! This is just so dumb -_- One chapter can already kill me slowly, imagine two ! & I seriously can't imagine how 23 chapters is going to kill me when Olevel draws nearer, huhhuh.

Just 3 days and I'm already in the holiday mood .. I don't want to go back to school ! *DREADZXC*

This is sooooo random. I should start revising my wordy Biology textbook !

*Faints*
Okay bye, I will be back ... once I'm free. Wahahahaha. -_-

I miss you like how my Merly misses it's Lyo and how my "friends" misses it's "best".

070810;

2010-08-07T23:01:00.002+08:00

I can't believe what happened earlier on.

I'm currently sitting in my quiet living room, hearing my ceiling stir, letting my thoughts run with a messy pile of Social Studies notes scattered all over my table. Admist everything, I still can't believe that I cried like 15 minutes ago, and that crying moment was totally random.

Having a fulfilling dinner with plain soup (accompanied with stir-fried bittergour with no egg), I feel rather ... okay. Texted my Panda sister, played Angry Birds on my brother's iTouch, and bathed. Then suddenly, I remembered that Biology's Individual Project assignment is due after my 4 days holiday. What a mood spoiler. Took it out, and placed it back into my orange file, trying to convince myself that's there enough time tomorrow. then I slowly recalled: Wow, Biology test and Amath Trigo test (I don't know when !) after my holiday too. Joke of the day.

I spent my entire day packing all my subject files, and my general file feel so light now *delighted*.

Went on to Social Studies. I realised I haven't copy my notes from Lynn when I was away for SYFOC training. Copying and copying and texting Panda (who was entertaining her just-given-birth boss) ... Suddenly it came. Moodswings. It was totally random, I've never expected it to come. Checking the time; 2154.
Panda: "What you doing wor?"
Me: "SS notes lor ... Going to die already."
Panda: "Haha :).. Ok jiayou! You sleep I pig." ("You sleep I pig" means, I'll wait for you to finish your work and we'll sleep at the same time.)

Feeling moody, I plugged earpiece into my ears, playing "感动天感动地”. My moodswings turned worse. With desperate measures ...

Me: "Idk why but I wanna wait for my father to come back ley .. 2 plus ... Haha you go sleep first bah .."

After several minutes, she didn't reply anymore. Hopefully she's sleeping soundly, dreaming of her Boss or her favourite past times ...

Then it came. While listening to songs I broke down and tears just gushed out. Reasons : I don't know. Feelings were pretty entangled earlier on, and after drying all my tears, I controlled my emotions ... & I'm feeling much better now.

How random can I get at times huh. Needa find ways to block those scary monsters from haunting my mind ...

I know this post is random but ... Let me cool down more before heading back to Social Studies.

Sorry panda, it was a lie to tell you that I was going to stay up till 2. But I know how scary your mood can swing especially when I started moodswinging. Sorry, tomorrow will be a better day !

Out of boredom.

2010-08-07T12:19:00.002+08:00

Not like other times, I'm actually feeling very bored right now. I'm currently lying on my bed, updating this dead and poor blog of mine, with a spoilt "D" button on my laptop, and downloading "Maplestory" at the same time (Okay you can imagine how bored I'm really am now). But I'm treasuring this moment of boredom 'cause it beats studying and working and everything. I do have things to do, but since I'm given tghis four days break, I think I should take a great rest first before starting my work. I seriously need to replenish all my energy lost for the past 4 weeks of NDP, I-don't-know-how-many weeks of SYFOC training, my upcoming YOG, and events (?).

For the past 2 months, many things, and I mean, really much things had set me thinking about stuffs. Academics, commitments, friendship, relationships, emotions. Sometimes I really want to pour what I'm thinking to my blog (sometimes private), but I simply can't find time. Now, since 4 days of break is given after my parade, why not?

I'm gonna recall my 2 months thoughts. If you hate me, if you're sensitive, if you're those kind who just can't stand how emotional/ mushy/ gross I can get, I warn you to close this window now. I am who I am, and your words wouldn't affect me as much as the past anymore.

As expected, my academics aren't as perfect as the past anymore. My Chinese had a sharp drop from A1 to B4 -.- I hardly have the time to study properly sometimes. Worse still, I can still laugh when I see a 61/100 for my recent Chinese test.Haha what a joke. I wasn't like this in the past. A B4 affects me a lot in the past. Now ...

Then thinking, why do I have to stay so committed to some things when I can choose to let go. Sometimes, clinging on to things, people you shouldn't makes you disappointed and upset at times. So I begin to ask myself. Why was there a drastic change in my commitment towards everything when I entered Secondary school life? Primary school life was carefree. I didn't really bothered about what I had in my hands. The only thing that bothered me the most when I was in Primary school was the limit of my freedom.

Maybe it isn't about being being committed that affects me. Maybe it's the process that make me really feel like giving up at times. I don't mind commitment taking up all my time and effort. But sometimes, the way thing are planned are really screwed up. Sometimes you have to take the responsibility of others when it isn't your job, and somehow others get your responsibility. Doing others' part, yet get maligned for not doing his/her work properly, is it worth it? & others gets your responsibility of out a sudden.

Sometimes, the world is really corrupted.

But still, I'm a coward to let go. Achievements earned may not be glorious, but getting something out of committing yourself to something, the feeling is really great.

As for friendships, when you know someone isn't worth your fight from the start, don't bother to start this. Given two choices: Having many friends around you but know someday they going to leave your side because of attitude that simply can't fit, being lonely and saving the heartache of losing someone whom you once held dear. The answer is pretty obvious isn't it ...

Sometimes being alone isn't a bad thing. Learn how to be independent, and life can still go on. Life will turn better, there's no point remembering things in the past which aren't worth remembering.

For now, I'm glad that sister is around to support me and give me the happiness I want. You know what I wanna say sis, *hugs*

Relationship wise, I only have one sentence to say: Boys with the same age as girls can never understand what the girl truly wants. Now, let's wait for them to mature.

&, Girls' feelings aren't meant to be toyed with.

I'm lazy to continue typing, moreover, I don't know what to type.

Many things had set me thinking and reflecting about myself, and conclusion : I've grown into a stronger, more independent and more optismitic girl. Now I'd give in my best for everything I do until stepping down from everything 7 to 8 months later. Hopefully, I'll bear to let go.

Till there, today is my off day (after so long. Ciaoz everyone :)

It's so fluffy I'm gonna die !

2010-07-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Finally, after so long, like 2 months, I'm back for a proper post. I'll try to squeeze out my brainjuice to recall what happened for the past two months.

Let me first start on my exam period. Well, it sucked tremendously and @#!@#$#@$#@ ! Stressed to the max. Never felt so stressed before :/
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Anyway my Pandasister went flying to visit kangaroos on 9th June and we went without contact for like 14 days. Three words: ~~I love it~~ IT WAS HELL. It was like, my sole support, my sole motivator, my everything was gone almost instantly.

To many of you, you may be like: "Hey, why you like that? No contact for 14 days only ma." *Then starts to give jiaobin face* "You lesbian ah?".
Haha, whatever okay, I'm used to it. As long as my conscience is clear, I find no need to explain so much to you when you purely don't understand :).

Many of you should know how important she is to me ~ & we quarrel but eventually a simple "sorry" solves everything :) I don't care whether you can imagine or not but that 14 days was mad torture la. Plus, I was having friendship problems at that time so : No panda + friendship problems = Fuckmylife. That period was really very miserable, hence the post 2 posts below.

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It isn't my first time experiencing that kind of things,but this time was unexpectedly and painfully miserable. With no support and encouragement, I really felt like giving up the world, giving up all the achievements on my hands, give up all the upcoming events. That period was really ... unfathomable.

Now I'm learning how to spell true INDEPENDENCE. (But my independence includes Panda though, haha).

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School reopens and first week I had SYF training! It was tiring and more tiring. Just imagine this:
Wake up at 5.45am in the morning -> Reach HTA at 6.45am (Cab okay! If I were to take train and bus, I think I must wake up as early as 5am -.-) -> Change -> Report at 7am -> Takes rifle, board bus -> Reach Singapore Indoor Stadium at 8am -> TRAINING TRAINING AND MORE TRAINING till 6.30pm (Straight 10.5 hours of training) -> Debrief, collect rifles -> Board bus and leaves SIS at 7.30pm -> Reaches back to HTA at around 8pm -> Return rifles and finish returning it at around 8.50 -> Reaches home near 10pm -> Bathe, grab something to eat, prepare uniform, polish boots -> Sleeps at 11pm, near 12mn -> Cycle repeats for the next day.

Although it's tiring, I made new friends during SYFOC'10 ! All those "I'm tired"s, sharing of water, sharing of food really did bond us A WHOLE LOT. :)I miss SYFOC'10 !

Truthfully saying, I'd rather go SYF training than go to school. When I was in lower secondary, life seem to carefree. I slept at 10PM every night for crying out loud. Now? It's considered a miiracle when I get to sleep at 11PM -.- The huge difference in sleeping time makes me really strained out the next day (especially when I have training). It makes my mood even worse when I know I'm tired, yet I have to memorize all my textbooks, and stupid Math laws and formulas. -.- Secondary 3 life is SO NOT ENJOYABLE.

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It's July now and commitments + academics are like BOOMZ! Due to SYFOC I totally can't catch up with Amath. Looking at the complicated Y-Y1 = m(X-X1) ( Is it correct? o.o) makes my brain burst. So it got me so fed up that I started to abandon it for Y = mX + C, which is so much easier!

Commitments wise ...
Student Council = Prom Night, Teachers' Day, Graduation Day all coming soon ~
YOG = (secret) .
YGSP = Chemical Car + YGSP Official Opening (which is all over !). Now I'm deciding whether to take on the "Crystal-Growing" competition. I loved this workshop the most last year and yet, I was not selected! Considering to pester teacher to let me in if it doesn't obstruct my End-of-Year Examination periods. :)
CCA = NDP !

Wow BOOMZ. Not forgetting tests !!!!!! *Faints*.
I enjoy the achievements of my efforts. But sometimes it gets just too taxing. I think it's the achievements which is pushing on so much. Not forgetting pandasister !

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& now I can confirm that Miss Lee reads my blog (Sorry Miss Lee, but you made it REALLY obvious in class)._. Now all I wish is that she doesn't send me to counseling ...

I should start keeping all my feeling-based post to my private blog :/

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Pictures time !

160510 Outing.

Prawning @ Farmart -> Meeting at Lot One (which turned out to be an ?! session) -> Fishing @ Qianhu -> Yew Tee CC -> Limbang mac -> Home Sweet Home.

The pictures' all jumbled up -.-

220510 Chemical Powered Car Competition
Just that 0.8metres and we can get into top 16 !!! I WILL GO BACK NEXT YEAR AND CLINCH THE CHAMPION GRH !!!

310510 - Chemical Powered Car Team Meeting (Preparations for YGSP Official Opening)
It unexpectedly became a webcam-ing session, HAHA ! Because of me !!!

030710 - SYFOC'10
I miss all my trainers and SYF mates :(

160710 - YGSP Official Opening
I wasn't nervous presenting in front of professors. For the first time in my life o.o

Okay, it's time for me to sleep !!!! *yawns*
There's still NDP tomorrow !!! Not to mention, I'm the commander for tomorrow's assembly !!! Curseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!!

Just in case you (Pandasister) miss your rabbit too much (HAHA IT STIL IN PERFECT CONDITION):

Qian Hu, YGSP meeting, Cruise, SYFOC'10.

2010-07-04T21:44:00.001+08:00

I will come back and edit this post, updating on my Qian Hu trip on 160510 (Sounds so ancient to me now) with Clare, Wenwei and Haikal, my YGSP meeting which ended up as a camwhore session with Weiyi, Cyndi and Yingcui, Unity NPCC Annual Camp from 030610 to 050610, my Star Cruise trip which made me fat (due to non-stop buffet) from 180610 to 200610 and last but not least, Singapore Youth Festival Opening Ceremony' 2010 on 030710.

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I wanted to blog sooooooooo much today, but my Internet's adds-on screwed up and I can't upload pictures to Photobucket. Nevertheless you and view the pictures beforehand on my Facebook (If you don't have my Facebook, happy searching ah ! )

P/S, I miss SYFOC'10, I miss my SYF mates (MYMJJ - Marissa, Yuhui, Minyi, Jiaying and Jieying), I miss my SYF trainers (Jolene Ma'am, Sharina Ma'am, Cassandra Ma'am and Michelle Ma'am), I miss him and lastly, I miss my dear panda( I'm sorry, you know what I'm referring to.)

& Yes, Minyi and Jieying is from Sir Terence and Ma'am SiLing's unit. So generally this is how our conversation went when we first talked to each other in Singapore Indoor Stadium:
Jieying was busy confessing her love to every GOH girls in the bus back to Home Team Academy on Moonday (She's crazy ! Haha !)

Me: 你叫什么名？
Jieying: Jieying.
Me: 什么学校的？
Jieying: Yuhua .
Me: HUH ?! SIR TERENCE ?!
Jieying: EH, 你怎么知道？！

This is really coincidental eh ~

There was another situation which was even more hilarious than this:
In MYMJJ, there is a girl named Jieying, another named Jiaying. I wouldn't mix their face up, but I always mix their names up, especially when I'm messaging them.
So on Wednesday, Jieying randomly messaged me that she wanna meet me this afternoon after school.

Jieying: Hi I'm Jieying (And I mistook it for Jiaying 'cause both look alike in my phone!), you today what time reach HTA ? (General conversation).
Me: Idk, but I going there eat.
Jieying and I continued to talk about crap and then we promised to meet in HTA's cafeteria for lunch in the afternoon.

-Afternoon-
Jieying: Where are you?
Me: At HTA le, you ley?
Jieying: On my way to HTA le.
-Awhile later-
Jieying: I reached, where you sit?
Me: (I forget what I said, but it has got something to do with where I was sitting). *Anyway, remember that I thought "Jieying" was "Jiaying".
-Jieying suddenly pops out in front of me-
Me: EH HOW YOU KNOW I HERE ?!
Jieying: *Rolls eyes*
Me: (check phone) OH ... I thought I was talking to Jiaying all this while.
Jieying: Angry with you ! Tskkkk !

Funny x 100.

Okay it's time for me to sleep and do TRUCKLOADS of homework bombarded to me while I'm Missing In Action for the past 5 school days. SIGH !!!

Seriously,

2010-06-22T00:00:00.002+08:00

Life sucks.

How I wish I was thrown to somewhere; somewhere where trust doesn't exist, where there's no emotions, where there's no stress, where there's no friendship, where there's no one misunderstanding every thing that I do, where there's no one controlling what I think, where there's no emotions controlling my life, where there's no competition, where there's no conflict and somewhere I could safely shut my eyes and there's no troubles.

How I wish I have someone who truly understands me, who would be my listening ear, who could keep my secret, who could make my day with just that one sentence/smile, who I could really trust, who supports me in every area, who would hug me tightly anytime and say : "I'm here for you."

Yes, I'm a bitch ruining everyone's life and spoiling all your happiness. I'm trying to be independent, and be someone who coul coop everything to herself without feeling miserable, who could bite her flesh to numb all the emotional pain surging in her, to be someone who is able to tackle and face the world bravely on her own without the support of anyone.

Worst moments of my 15 years of life. Yes, I'm sad, I'm disappointed, I feel like slapping myself. But who would care? No one.

No one would be willing to shed a tear for me even if I laid dead in front of anyone. No one would even notice.

Boyfriends? Best friends? Good friends? You care? Promises? Devotion? Fun? Happiness? Memories? Smiles? Laughter? Going crazy? Yes I remember, every single moment was memories I truly treasured, memories I didn't want to lose. But do you all? Do you all?

I may look like someone who's trying to snatch power. Well, let me prove you wrong. BULLSHIT. I don't even care if I'm just a normal person with no power, I don't mind being the follower. What I've achieved is due to the hardwork I've given throughout the 2 years and 6 months I've been in Unity Secondary. So should I stop working hard?

All I want is someone who cares, someone who understands.

Youknowwhoyouare, I need you right now. Just tomorrow, TOMORROW, life will be better ... (Tears drop). Everything's just so fake ... I need your shoulders and your consoles, something that others can't give.

Fuck my life. No one understands.

失去了才知道拥有的珍贵。

2010-05-15T22:31:00.006+08:00

I was bloghopping and I happened to see this video. Yeah it's Super Junior. I haven't been following them for like 6 months ... The latest news I read about was the Hankyung and SM case. After which, I totally stopped.

When I saw the video, when I saw Siwon's face( who happened to appeared first on the video), the feeling came back. The undescripable feeling. I still remembered how I used to go crazy over Teuk and almost the 13 of them, even though Kangin and Kibum went M.I.A for almost the whole year.

Surprisingly, I still remembered all of them. I started to pause and count the number of people in the video. 10. Feeling uneasy, I played and paused again. Still , 10. I played and paused yet AGAIN. 10.

I don't know why but there's this sinking feeling. Undescriaple. Then I started to think. Kangin, Kibum, Hankyung. Missing. ): What is this man ... what's SuJu without the whole 13 of them, it's so sad ... ): I know I have been seeing only 11 last year, but somehow, in one way or another, it's just ... disheartening.

Had enough of today.

读死都没有用

2010-05-13T10:42:00.004+08:00

My exams over. My MidYear Examinations 2010 is over ... and I screwed it upside down.

I just completed my Amath paper just now ... and it was the worst paper done. When my paper was handed up, I told myself not to discuss the answer. I told myself NOT TO. But after hearing my friends discuss, I cannot help but hear. All my answers were different from them . So so so .. difference. My heart sank instantly. INSTANTLY. Felt like breaking down and just cry. Still remembered my clique feeling really happy that they got some answers right, while me, all my answers don't match at all. NONE, NONE, NONE. Do you know the feeling? I've screwed my Emath up. I wanted to do well for my Amath. But what happened in the end? Potential F9. Of all tests and exams, I'm gonna get one in my Mid Year Examinations. I know it's no point crying over split milk, but I can't help but to break down and cry when I reach home.

I remembered what I once said. Amath was easier than Emath. I practiced, practiced and practiced. But I still ended up with these shit results and disappointments.

But who am I to blame anyone. I chose this road. I chose to enter double science class. I chose to took pure sciences and double math. I thought I'd be able to carry all these responsibilities. All these stress. But I was wrong. I was hell wrong. It's less than 6 months, and I'm already dying from my countless commitments in SC, YGSP and NPCC. Not to forget, a latge part from academics. Yes, I had chemical car competition preparation. I only started revision less than one week before Mid Years'. I gave in extra effort due to my detoriating results. I gave my effort. I gave everything. I sacrificed my sleep, and I went crazy over drawing tangents and memorizing all the body organs. I felt like really fainty during the examinations period, and I pressurized myself to press on, convincing myself that everything's gonna be over soon. I felt really stressed, but I pressed on because I thought I can get desired results. But reality had proven me. I'm a sucker and I'm never gonna make it in life no matter how hard I try. Even if I give in triple of what other people give in, I can still never meet their standards.

I'm a failure. A true failure. Everything seems so bleak.

I've lost my sense of direction. I feel like giving up my academics. I can't even realise my expectations, what more think about being a biochemist in the future.

Exam's over, but I'm not in the least happy.

Goodluckpeeps.

2010-05-01T19:17:00.002+08:00

Good luck in your Mid Year Examinations everyone (:

I have already started my mass revision but I'm slowww. Have you ? Yes I know most of you have :) .

Mid Year's starting in less 3 days time, and the first paper happens to be Chinese ! Guess what? I haven't even start -.-

Dear God, please make everything okay for her :) . Please do not clash her camp with her trip to A, like how my chance and hope to travel to D is already destroyed due to SYF. :( . Give the best for her, and do not make her emotional, pleaseee !

2010-04-18T20:43:00.003+08:00

Dear readers,

I am currently sick, yeah, nicely during my busy week. What's best is that, the sickness is not serious enough for me to get an MC even more half a day. Nice job, Yuhui, nice job.

I've not been taking great care for my health despite countless reminders from people around me, and thus resulting in this.

So, for the next FIVE LONG AND DREADFUL AND STRESSFUL AND CRAZILY-PACKED WEEKS, I'm gonna get really busy and tied up, up, up and up my neck. Thus, I would not be blogging until 13th May 2010 arrives, when my Mid-Years' officially end and my stress for Chemical Car Competition officially come and taunt me. Neverthelessly, I'd be constantly updating @Twitter.

Till then,
Yuhui.

120th day.

2010-04-16T23:56:00.001+08:00

Hey readers Yuhui is backkkkkkk. (:

Well like duh I'm still busy the last week . Anyway, I reached home at 9.45pm on Tuesday. ZZZ. But I did had a good time. Last week was totally BOOMZ. No time at all.
Ha, okay, same posting style yeah (;

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Hmmm, before everything, on Tuesday(13th April) it was our 120th day. (: HEHE . Okay la I know I'm like talking to myself because apparently only she and I knows about this. Hehe !!! My mind is blank too. There's a lot to say about her, about this friendship of ours you know ;> . Among ALL the friendship I've ever come across, she is the one who gives me the deepest impression, gives me the most secure feeling, gives me the utmst happiness that I could have ever wanted and mould me into a better person; person who wouldn't even think of helping someone, yet began to help out others to the maximum when she did the same thing to me ... (: From these 4 months I've found out a lot about her. From being strangers till now, everything. (: Throughout this 4 months, we met up only like 6 times? Gosh this is pathetic hahaha. But at least we have been talking on the phone from the start of 2010 till now. Not bad, eh ! (winks) HEHE. However, in the midst of this friendship, I ALMOST lose her due to my stupidity. Luckily things toned down and everything's normal now. ;>

Let me repeat what she said : "Whenever I am sad, she is always there to smoothen out things.. " Yes, you too ^^. Our chahracters might clash but still, we managed to accept it didn't we ? (: Isn't this friendship is all about ? Accepting flaws and still continuing happily ...

This is one of the most ideal friendship I've ever wanted. During times when I was down, when I feel like giving up due to the countless commitments I must make, she is always the one being there to comfort me and push me forward with encouragements. She never gave up on me even once. (: Thanks ~ :D

Sometimes it sets me thinking. If she didn't come in December, if she didn't see my Facebook request, if I didn't reply to her Facebook message and IF she didn't stumble into my life, what would happen? o.o Let's call it, FATE. (:

I don't want to lose this friendship of mine, never EVER. I may have know her for only a short period of time and some of you may tell me that I'd grow tired out of it of something, but frankly speaking, she gave me one of the best memories in my life. She somehow made an positive impact in my life ... Even there were risks, I would still continue this friendship, even in my next lives.

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Next is about a friendship I can say, just ended? Hmmm, well yeah, she and I stopped talking and guess what? I have better friends ^^ No point griefing over this matter RIGHT? Of course ! Say whatever you want ... We started this war or we landed you into whatever plight you're facing now. Just leave my friends alone and you continue with your life, I continue with mine, okay ! :D From this I may have not benefited much, but one sure thing is, I have not lost anything !

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Anyway, it's April 15 today ... Which means 2 more days and byebye to Esther Ma'am. Saddening ... ); When my happiness comes it have to leave so quickly ... (sad). Esther Ma'am ah Esther Ma'am, must come back whenever you're free alright? The best solution = DON'T LEAVE UNITY NPCC, DON'T LEAVE OC, DON'T LEAVE TOs, DON'T LEAVE U08. You proved us wrong during the hike, and I wish you can do it again. (: thanks for all your guidance all these while, it has really made U08 into better leaders. (: Although we can be very irritating at times :D

Hope you liked the big gigantic board U08 has made for you ! Sorry its last minute and we fail as actor and actresses. (You'll get to know at later part of this post).

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The next thing I'm gonna talk about is ... MISS LEE, I know you read my blog (: It's obvious from the start you said it ... Anyway remember the time when I kept looking elsewhere during your lesson? It's because a BEE flew into the class. Not because I'm trying to seek attention or something la haha. Our classroom is hot and it's INFESTED with bee la somehow.

Anyway it's scary when in the midst of studying one UFO just comes and scare you out of your wits. o.o

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This week is tiring ! As usual. I know I have been complaining AGAIN AND AGAIN, like non-stop one. But you can't blame me cause I can't take it ya know ! I just want to BOOMZ it all out !
Ok so anyway Mis Year starts on like TWO WEEKS TIME? Ahh totally stressed out. The problem is, next week's totally booked by Chemical Car competition preparation and I'm pathetically left with Friday (with is the cross-country) to enjoy myself before I start on my revision. This is stressing me out ! Anyway, my academics have been dropping, dropping and dropping. Chemistry have been a real disappointment, Amath too. I want more time for my studies, but when I try to tahan throughout the night, I find myself falling asleep in school the next day, which is worse. o.o Thus now I've not been doing my homework. (Opps I forgot that teachers read my blog). But I still hand them up of course (Ya, handing it up late la).

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There's parade tomorrow, and many of them cannot go or simply ... don't feel like going. Actually my real goal to go to headquarters, sit under the hot sun and watch the parade is to support my squadmates who are involved in U08; and of course, I DONT WANT TO STAY HOME AND LET FUNGI GROW ON ME ! But the situation now is totally dotzdotzdotz. Anyway it's compulsory la who's know ;< .

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Oh yes did I mention that now, I love MR ARUL's biology lessons ? Hmmm, I have to admit that HE can get boring at times but I love his passion for nature and of course he never-seem-to-end nature knowledge. It's really something I'm REALLY VERY ENVIOUS OF ! He's more of a geography-plus-biology teacher to me. He tell us about his own experiences and really, he's making me fall deeply in loveeee with nature and animals many many more ! If I were given a chance I WOULD DEFENITELY go on an adventure journey/hike to enhance myself around nature. People nowadays are just too dependant on technology and slowly destroying the world aren't they ? ;< . People ought to realise that, they themselves deserve to die, but the innocent animals really don't. (that applies to me too, although 'm really afraid to die T.T). So yeah if you are kind enough, participate Earth Hour everyday. :) A little effort from everyone goes a great mile. :)

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Hmmm, shall start with my entires now. It has been good 2 weeks since I've updated and I forgot most of the things I did -.- Let me recall ...

From 5th April to 9th April it was totally BOOMZ and SHINGZ. Endless tests and I kept on reaching home at 8++PM . Latest was 9.50PM haha :B That week have nothing in particular :O.

9 April 2010,
Got the news that Esther Ma'am is not coming for the hike because ________. That was after my Awards Night duty (which was duh, at night) and my mood was very lousy 'cause I haven't packed for the hike (which was the next day) and I WAS LIKE FREAKING SLEEPY LA. If you give me a pillar to lean on I can easily doze off. So when I heard the news I was like ... REALLY REALLY DISAPPOINTED AND SAD AND TOTALLY ... D: Triple sadness only. I totally "SIAN"-ed . It was pretty stressful 'cause we were only like , Sec 3s and if anything were to happen and Ma'am was not around, it will be equavlient to = DISASTER. Clare and I was totally SIAN diao la. Like going to cry already lor. Sorry for my bad attitude la, moodswings. Left conversation and went to sleep.

10 April 2010,
Morning when my alarm clock rang, the first thought which came to me : "Oh ... Esther Ma'am is not going so it doesn't matter that I continue sleeping. " So I continued to "nua" on my bed, and eventually still got up to continue the hike. Went to eat breakfast with Clare. Clare and I was like, complaining about _______, so we sent Esther Ma'am this message: "Ma'am prove us wrong." Esther Ma'am chatted with us, and we can sense the emotional feeling in her . :(. So we were confirming our thoughts that she'll not be coming. Sian x tenthousand. Haikal came to find us aftermath, and we went to school feeling ... dreadful. The start of the hike was already ... sort of failing. Cadet leaders coming in black socks, late coming, etc. All sorts of rubbish coming up. It's pretty stressful for Clare and Haikal uh, so I tried to help . Then, slowly, U08 began to cooperate and we slowly picked everything up. ^^ Really something rare la.

U08 tried to settle the cadets down, led by the two ICs (Clare and Haikal). Suddenly, someone shouted :"Eh, Ma'am Kaibing (Esther Ma'am) got come ! ". Most of us gave the "REALLY ?!"-look and went to see if it was true. True enough, she was there. :) . Her appearance was like, a miracle !(Machiam super star appear) She proved us wrong ! :). Some of us were wondering whether is she lying to us or not ... But looking from her _________ , I doubt so.

Set of to East Coast Park. There was a marathon going on so 5 stations were striked off. Haha, totally unexpected . Esther Ma'am helped to settled everything. If she really didn't come on that we'd definitely PANIC and the hike will fail terribly o.o SO I'm THANKFUL THAT SHE CAME !!! When everything was done, cadets started hike with their ICs, while Clare, Haikal, Esther Ma'am and I started to stroll the entire park to look out for any casualties. Haha, fun chit-chatting :D Walked from Park E to Park D I think. It rained halfway. Ruined my hair but we stilled continued to play Cling Cling. No cadets dared to catch Ma'am ('Cause she said :" WHO DARE TO CATCH ME, YOUR RANK WILL SUFFER." Haha typical la Ma'am.)so Clare and I purposely made ourselves the catchers to catch Esther Ma'am ! Fun only lor.

Casualty down at Jumbo (which was at Area E) so Esther Ma'am dragged me to accompany her to see the casualty. Ended up carrying the casualty back to Area D. O.O Esther Ma'am POWER ! Haha.

After which, unit games and went back to Choa Chu Kang. There's a Part 2 so don't shut this window ^^.

Okay, I know I suck in some photos but it's ... MEMORIES so I don' care.

Part 2 : BBQ.
After I went home, went out again at 3.30PM with Clare and Afiq to buy BBQ stuffs. Afiq looks like an auntie taking that TROLLEY la ! HAHA !

After buying, went to Haikal's house. BBQ wholesale delivered our food and at 5plus PM, Esther Ma'am managed to sneak out of her house and I met her to buy some items. After which, started BBQ at Stagmont Park !

When we opened the BBQ pit , the WHOLE pit was infested with ants. Black ants, white ants ! Goosebumps all come up ! ZZZ ! Haikal went to buy insect spray and PSST !!! All die. Cleared the pit and thenPlaced aluminium fil below to prevent the contact between charcoal and the flammable spray o.o Started to BBQ ^^ I purposely sat beside Esther Ma'am to CHOPE FOOD ! HAHAH !

Danm bloated after eating. Went to play with leftover ice ^^. Totally went crazy splashing each other with ice and cold water (brrr) . Non stop refilling from water points ! HAHA, totally went WET ! But, in the midst of playing, there were these 5 irritating KINDERGARDEN girls telling us : "Do you know that you're wasting Singapore's water ?" I couldn't bother so I just ignored them and continue with whatever fun I'm having.
They continued irritating me with the same sentence. I was of course, irritated by those mood-spoilers and said : "YA ! I KNOW !" They were like : "Then why are you wasting?" I totally ignored and continued to splashing on other people. HAHA FUN. But those girls went to complain to their parents (Super mood-spoiler) and we had to stop because we were afraid they'd complain and blahblah la aiya. Spoil my mood. So we decided to spoil theirs !

When they were playing on the playground we purposely went to play "CATCHING" . Haha laughs ! We were playing sort of violently so the parents were afraid that their children will get hurt. They called the children to move away for us. The children were like : "我们来先，为什么要走？！" . Hell attitude ! I don't like them ! Ew gross SHOO !!!

Haha, enough of this . Pictures !

15 April 2010,
Today's Esther's Ma'am last training with us. Super duper sad. ): We got the board (made by Clare and I) with everyone's message on it and then attempted to hid it.

This is what happened generally.
After school, I ran to NP room with the board and placed it on the table. I called Terence to write on it since he hasn't. I looked at my phone . "One missed call : Esther Ma'am. " I called back.
Esther Ma'am : "你在那里？”
Me: "学校。" (Ok la it's qian da I know BUT the board is meant to be a surprise ma ! So I've got to minimise the suspense ! )
Esther Ma'am : "Huh ? 你们在 NP room 吗？"
Me: *Frantic* " Orh er, 不在不在。"
Esther Ma'am : "Huh? 不在mey? "

Suddenly she was behind me ! I was totally "Errrr. Hi Ma'am. " . Terence and I were like blocking the block and I whispered desperately : " 拿出去！拿去躲！！！". Terence was damn quick. I distracted Ma'am and ZOOM , out he went. Ma'am didn't see it ! ^^. HAHA.

Throughout the training Esther Ma'am, Clare and I were planning to throw a surprise party for April babies. But we wanted a surprise for her. So we pretended we wanted to throw a party for April babies but actually, it's for her. Confusing I know, see below ...

Before debrief, Amirah and Hayati went off early to buy the cake by teling Ma'am they had family matters and needed to leave early. They left and we continued with debrief. After debrief, I went off with Ma'am to buy her April babies "cake", while Clare brought the whole U08 to under her block. So when Clare reached she called me. :) & me, who was at the cake shop viewing at cakes, suddenly said : "Ma'am, got people fall down at Clare's block, now crying ! Let's go look. " *going to laugh already*
Esther Ma'am : "Huh? (she was unexpectedly calm) Who ? Boy or girl? Serious or not ! Call back call back ! "
So, for the sake of acting, I called back.
Me : "Eh, Ma'am ask boy or girl, serious or not ? "
Clare : *anyhow bomb also* "Boyboy ! VERYVERY serious ! Faster come hor !"
Me : *cannot tahan, laugh ! * "She say boy ! She say very serious ! Crying now! Ma'am later then buy cake la ! We go see first ! "
Esther Ma'am :" Why you laughing ? "
Me : "I think boy cry very funny ."
Esther Ma'am : o,.o *reluctantly believe*

On our trip her she was telling me how she thinks it's a lie. Upon reaching we saw Zhengyuan's bare foot massaged by Andrew. Zhengyuan saw Ma'am, immediately LAUGH. Spolier la ! ;< HAHHAA. So the others, who were hiding behind a pillar, came out and "SURPRISE! " Ended up singing birthday song for her, cause we don't know want to sing. :X

Esther Ma'am, hope you liked the board ^^ Don't forget us okay, must come back !!! :)

Ok pictures.

I'm done blogging. Hell tired !!!!!!!!

Anyway to people who are in participating in NPAP tomorrow, best of luck to you all ! Unity U08 powerrrrrr :D !

Recee;

2010-04-01T22:16:00.004+08:00

I'm back, not just for the Recee, although the main point is still my memorable Recee la, haha.

Hmm, a little inside scoops before heading on. (winks)

So yeah, this week's quite slack I think. Or am I the one turning more and more irresponsible for my academics? Yeap I think I am. ZZZ. Juggling so many things at once can be veryveryvery tiring. You can seriously feel the STRAIN. So,so,so tiring. I'm trying my best to complete things and calm them down before CCA stands down, so I'll have ample time to prepare for my Mid-Year Examinations. At the same time, I'd like more rest to cure my very serious strained and panda-fied eyes now. ); It's getting worse and worse. With bombsites formed on my face due to PIMPLES, it's ... #$%$%#$% undescriable. Grh, potential mood-spoilers. Ruin my mood. Moodswings sucks. Holiday doesn't seem like a holiday. Weekends are meant for homework. What is this?
I shall repeat what I heard during the trip to the Parliament House : "School shouldn't have any CCAs or lessons during holidays. Many students are complaining that their holiday doesn't seem like a holiday. What's the point of getting so many Aces when there are increasing number of failures ?"

Yes, thumbs up! I mean, look. It flows in a cycle. When students are stress, it's largely due to homeworks and commitments. It would all round up to teachers getting stressed too since they have so many things to draft and plan out. As you can se, I'm not really procastinating about homework. It's due to all the events and competitions that requires a lot of time to plan. I leaves me with less time for homework and inevitably, revision. That's the reason why I don't even have the SLIGHTEST bit of confidence when I write my answers on my test papers. Crap.

When I'm more committed to something, academics suffer. When I transfer too much time on my academics, I'd have to say byebye to a lot of things. I'm not referring to my CCA though. Although I hate doing training program but still, I gives me some sort of enjoyment. Or anyhow the feeling of doing something for NPCC and SC/YGSP is totally different. Hmmm, maybe I still feel distant to 'em? Idon'tknow. Still whatever it is, I wouldn't run away from all these. I'd give in my BESTTTTTT no matter how tired I get.

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Hmmm, during this period, I still learnt some positive things though. One thing is of course, my planning skills is slowly picking up. (: That's good 'cause I'd know what to do when my peak period really comes, and that'd be around End-of-Year Examinations. So I have to bear with all my sufferings so I wouldn't suffer that much during my peak period. Yuhui, you can do it ! Chiong ah !

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Hmmm okay, time for updates !

280310 Sunday
As you all already know, U08 and Esther Ma'am went for recee down at East Coast Park for our coming hike. (: But our recee turned out like a outing. Of course there were serious moments but still WE HAD FUN. Esther Ma'am refused to take pictures with us no matter how we pester so she became the photographer of the day, using Clare's camera.

Anyway, before we started we ate at East Coast's McDonalds first. So we sat in one line, and there was this woman and man in front of us. The woman looked a little old (no offence though) and then man was ya, looks younger than the woman la ! Haikal and Clare started to : "Eh, you think they two is girlfriend/boyfriend or mother/son ?"
That was when I started to shift my attention to the "couple". I was staring at them, and concluded that they were mother and son. (Since we don't look like couples to me) We alerted Ma'am Kaibing and she too, stared at them. She stared for like more than 5 seconds and then said : "Girlfriend/ boyfriend. Should be. "
We didn't care much and continued eating until the male party went to touch the female's cheek in a lovey-dovey way. Ok I swear it was damnnnnnnnnnnn funny. We were controlling our laughter ! Unbearable man ! Hahahaha ! Ok la so I guessed wrongly.

After breakfast we all rented bikes. Cycled round and round and round and round to test our bikes. Mad dizzy. After testing we started our journey. Anyway, Rizuan and Terence rented roller blades, but travel prtty slowly. So we had to wait for them at certain places to allow them to catch up. We cycled from Area C to Area F, not taking anything seriously :X . Brought drinks (Esther Ma'am sponsor ! ) and cycled blahblah. Arrived at Area F, had serious moments and then PLAYTIME ! We dug a well and took LOTS AND LOTS of pictures . (: Like fun only.

Funny times flies. Sucks. Washed up, cycled back, did some seriousy stuff, and homesweethome aftermath.

280310 is really a memorable day. (: Something deeply etched into my heart. I don't want to forget it 'cause something is happening soon, really soon. Which will make the whole U08 SIAN. Yes so all we can do is to treasure time. ): How sad can life get.

Anyway pictures ^^ :

290310 Monday
Had CIP. Nothing much though. Meeting @ Long John's aftermath. (:

300310 Tuesday
Mother Tongue Oral after school. Screwed it upside down, thankyouverymuch. I didn't really prepare myself for this oral. Before the oral, while waiting for my turn, I was playing with Jingyi and Pamela's iPod Touch. The games was really funnnnnn and of course I didn't care about it even when I knew I was going to be next. I just treated everything like nothing. Like I said, I'm gradually slacking off academics and I don't know why and I'm hating this.

Anyway this is part of my oral (roughly):
Me: *Finish reading passage*
Teacher: Hmm, 很好(you can never believe a teacher's 很好 'cause apparently she says this to everyone and I don't know what her definition of '好' is like.) 根据报道, 新加坡人没有礼貌. 你的看法是什么?
Me: *Stun, stare at teacher for more than 5 seconds* "Err, 我觉得新加坡人有点没礼貌, er then 我觉得背后有很多原因. Er 第一,自己有样学样. 朋友做什么,自己也要做, 没有主见. 朋友对家长,老师没礼貌, 觉得很cool, then 朋友就跟lor. Ah, er, 第二是家长影响. 有些家长没有树立好榜样.
& I continued blahblah singlish-ing all the way. The teacher yawned and I got stuck at this particular section.
Part 2: Er, 我觉得如果国人在外国人面前没礼貌,他们伤到外国人的.. er, er *totally stuck* er .. * look here look there* 那个叫什么 .. er er ...
Teacher: 自尊心la.
Me: YA ! 对!

So ended up, don't know teacher testing me or I testing teacher, (laughs).

310310 Wednesday
Stayed back after school to do up a video for multi-media competition. Wenwei, Clare and I waited for the others' oral to finish. When the others arrived, we briefed them and we started practicing for videos. It was a really fun experience !!! ^^ Lots of NGs everywhere ... but all were funny !!!!
After more than 10 takes, finally a decent one was out. HAHA, accomplished ^^

The NGs (not all are here because Clare accidentally deleted some haha ) :
(PLEASE IGNORE MY VOICE).

And finally, the decent one:

Haha, was laughing when watching all of these. Did you ? HAHA.

010410 Thursday
Another month passed. Today's April's Fool but I didn'thave any mood to prank AT ALL.

It's April, which means blahblahblah ! ):
(Sighs).
Plus Mid-Year ? Ha, please go and die.

Training after school. Nothing much. Did enjoy myself a little. (:
Homed and cup noodles. Unhealthy but who cares man !!! Since I'm falling ill already so I find no point trying to cure myself since it's only going to get worse anyway.
Ha.

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So much for my updates ;) . Gonna find my doctor soon, or else I'd die a very horrible death. ._.

Kthxbye.

One week's update.

2010-03-27T21:53:00.001+08:00

Dear readers, I'm back in action. <; I'm back for my one week post once again ^^ (: Okay it's gonna get super duper longggggggg. ;> Happy reading and don't blame me if you go crossed-eyed or something haha.

Monday 220310

I had SAC duty, but out of a sudden I had a "meeting" so I went halfway :).
Meet usual clique in NPCC room, and we decided to clean up the NPCC room for good. I'm not saying that the previous state was atrocious la, but we want to make things better. (: It's a waste to place all our trophies on top of our cabinet anyway, so we decided to shift everything. Was satisfied with the NPCC room's new look :) All the pushing, tugging, cleaning, shifting, procastinating was worth it, haha :). So when it was close to 6, we called Esther Ma'am to come to the NPCC room ! We were like "MUSHI MUSHI" throughout the call, wahahaha.

Chatted till 7plus, home sweet home aftermath :).

When I reached home, Clare, Zhengyuan, Esther Ma'am and I was having a mass conversation. Hehe, ended up earning Biology notes. Wahaha. Thank you Esther Ma'am ^^ Your notes did help me a lot with my super last minute revisions. :) Thanks for your effort you have put in to print, jot down etc :).

Tuesday 230310

Went for Classification shoot. Part of U08 was disappointed when we didn't see Esther Ma'am at the foyer. We asked Mdm Asmidah: "Ma'am ! Esther Ma'am ley? She say she got come ... " & then she was: "Heh heh, I think she cheat your feelings ..."
So we decided to call Esther Ma'am. I called and said : "Mushi mushi ! Why you never come ! You wait ah ! " *Pass to Afiq*
Afiq: "Eh, Ma'am ! C'mon ! Where's your PICARD values? Where's your Punctuality? Where's your Initiative? Where's your Responsibility ?! " *Stamp feet*.
Hahah, many of us were laughing like some crazy idiots.

Reached HTA and saw Esther Ma'am. Weeeeee ~ (hahaha). Marched to shooting range, practiced, and REAL SHOOTING ! :). The feeling was different from last time ... One signal was given, we raised our gun. The first bullet went off BOOM ! & we all jumped. HAHA. 'Cause it's totally unexpected. After the first bullet went off, I aimed and shot. Missed. ): Shot again, missed ): . The third shot, I shot the edge, but it was counted as "0" still. So I aimed further to my left, and BULL EYES. :D Finally hit the target. Aimed at the same spot, and continued shooting. On my eighth bullet, the target was brought even further. LOL. 15 metres away ~ So I had to re-aim. I missed like 4 bullets? ): & aftermath, I shot the target again.

Still overall, I failed my marksman, 47/80 (Anyway the passing criteria is 60, LOL) . Out of 18 people, 9 got Marksman and I wasn't one of them. Awwwwww. But look on the bright side ! I got 0/80 last year 'ya know ! I improved like 47 pointz !!! :D

Anyway Afiq (who literally had the marksman's face) didn't get it as well. If I'm not wrong he got 43. Hehehe. I improved more than him ^^. He got 8/80 last year, while I got 0/80. Yet I scored higher than him huahuahua. Anyway, Afiq, when you see this, do not kill me LOL.

After which, Amirah, Clare and I took a cab back to school. The boys (Haikal, Afiq, Wenwei) took another. :) . Went back to NPCC room. They played with popper while the obedient me studied Biology !!! Hehe. :X

KFC for dinner with Clare and Wenwei . Esther Ma'am joined in after her UOPA meeting ;>. Home sweet home aftermath.

Wednesday 240310

Had solar-powered car workshop down at Singapore Poly. Our group was the last to complete HAHAH :X Anyway, it was a great experience ^^.

We went up into the lecture room, and halfway through, I really cannot take the lecturer's boredom (sorry NO OFFENCE ): ) and I used my bag to cover my face. Immediately fell asleep. Eventually I had no strength to use my bag and cover my face, so I went "Zzzzzzzzz"-ing right in front of the lecturer. After he is done with his presentation, Guoyao was like : "Eh, wake up already ... " HEHE, and I saw the lecturer staring down at me ...

Great experience huh.
HEHE.

Thursday 250310

I had training after school. Okay so I was energetic at first, but I grew more tired and I was more and more lenient to the kids. :S I shouted my commands with full power at first, and I slowly puncture. Geez. 'Cause my powers are slowly draining off. Tiring ~ Awards ceremony aftermath. MARKSMANNNNNNNNNNNNNN !!!!!!!!!!!!! )))))))): K just ignore me. Debriefed, and home sweet home ~

Friday 260310
Chemical-E-car workshop down at Ngee Ann Poly. Practical was fun :B, seeing the car flyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :D HAHA. Okay I'm plain lazy to elaborate. :(

Sorry for the picture-less post. I MIGHT be back tomorrow with pictures from tomorrow's recee. Anyway, I haven't pack but I can't wait.
WEEEEEEEE, U08 <3.

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Anyway I JUST found out something that is really shocking that concerns my friend AND YOU CANNOT IMAGINE HOW SHOCKED I WAS. I MEAN LIKE REALLY LA IS SHE SPEAKING THE TRUTH OR NOT ?!?!?!?! SHOCKED MUCHHHHHHHH OMGGGGGGGGGG. Unless you tell me sucha girly name is a guy la ... Largely impossible k !!!!!!!! OHMYTIANNNNNNNNN. I don't know how to open up and speak to you about this !!!!!!!! OHMYTIAN OHMYTIAN !!!!!! Sorry but I'm really very shocked upon the news !!!!!! AHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!! This is getting more and more scary ... I HOPE YOU WILL COME AND TELL ME, YOURSELF.

& I HOPE, I REALLY HOPE that ____________________________. ): ): ): ): ):.

Ok ignore me.

Cat video.

2010-03-20T22:20:00.005+08:00

K I find it SUPER FUNNY AND CUTE.

& I found out something. Affecting my mood drastically. Sian. I seriously don't know why there's so much grudge in my CCA.

正所谓, 家家有本难念的劲.

Kay. Let's treasure time till April. & hopes that she don't leave k, my dear U08. I know you all also don't want her to leave Unity NPCC. (: Everything is fine, and will be okay. (((: Let's just say we just wasted one ++ years. Well, at least we still have each other. (Anyway if any of you [U08 only !] are curious, ask me personally ) .

To you know who you ALL are ( Not my Youknowhoyouare) : We hold no grudges against Esther Ma'am. To be frank, when she first returned to Unity NPCC, I really couldn't take all her external CIs' punishment. Then I gradually realised, it's not that she's harsh. It's the HQ standard, and she's drawing a line ^^. Before Dec 09, I really see no single bonding between U08 at all. Plan things, 100% FAIL. I has NO INTENTION OF GOING TO TRAININGS AT ALL. I just went for the sake of attendance. Others? Hmph. She came back, we don't even know that tentage/flagstaff was even under NPCC syabullus. Worth laughing right? After Esther Ma'am returned, U08 turned stronger, many of us turned into better role models, better leaders, into what we are, Cadet Leaders '08 today. I have no intention of skipping one single session of training now. I seriously don't hate her. Instead, U08 even developed a sort of bonding with her. We don't even want her to leave the unit. We hold no grudges, and I (or even WE) hope that you all with resolve yours, and officially put an end to whatever conflicts there is currently in our CCA right now. We just want peace (twist) .

P/S; I don't think our camps were ridiculous at all. ._.

AH, KPO WHAT ! SEE WHAT SEE !

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ANW, CAMP POSTS BELOW ! (: ANOTHER CAMP PLEASEEEEEEEE !!!

NPCC Cadet Leader Camp + Sec 1 Orientation Camp.

2010-03-20T12:26:00.004+08:00

Part of U08 doing Esther Ma'am WEEEEEE~ HAHAHA (inside joke). Taken during Sec 1 camp.

Well, as my title depicts, I'm gonna talk about my NPCC CAMP ! & noth are residental so this post is going get helllllllll long, especially my the Sec 1 camp. Largely because I forgot what we did during our Cadet Leader camp (except for the super crazy parts ).

NPCC U08 Cadet Leader Residental Camp 2010. (13th March to 15th March).
Sadly only like 3 pictures was taken throughout this whole camp. 'Cause we were dumb, didn't bring our cameras. And more sadly, handphones are confiscated throughout the entire camp -.- So yeah, we took the chance to taken some pictures during dinner time when handphones can be used, :B

Okay let's start now.
Day 1
I only went for Cadet Leader camp only around 11am in the morning, because I wasn't allowed to leave early from SC camp. Thus, only managed to leave school around 10.30am. Darren and I rushed like mad home, and because of this, I forgot to bring my sleeping bag home -.- Charlene's helping me, heng man. If you passed your Math, you should know by now how long we were allowed to bathe, change, blah. 30 minutes. So I ran home, bathe, threw everything at home, and out I went ! Met Darren @ 10.50am, and went back to NPCC room. Settled somethings with Kristabel Ma'am, and settled down with the others at Music room. They were having lecture halfway, so Esther Ma'am briefed us personally on the lecture. Learnt to write up a lesson plan. I chose Games day since it's the easiest left, HAHA. Did it, handed it up, and headed with another lecture, which I forgot. Was still energetic since I had 6hours of sleep in SC camp. I know it's long but I was wishing to sleep longer since I still had camp the next day okay ! Listened to lecture, joke joke, and went down for lunch. Ate in less than an hour, went back up to the Music room for more lecture. this time round, it's "Method-Of-Instruction". To be truthful, many of us wasn't even paying attention. Just copying notes because Sir Lovell told us to do so. Never did it occured to us that we will be tested the next day ~

Next up was Campcraft. Was given around 7 to 8 minutes to run to our bunks and change and fall in back. HAHA, we all were laughing while running :b. Changed and went to field for campcraft. End up, halfway through knots lesson, RAINNNN ! Ended up with drills and lashings lesson. Changed to Half-U (again) and then learnt how to conduct dismissal and master parade. (: Next up, lashings. Nothing much. Next, MAKAN TIME !!! Outdoor cooking, maggi noodles again. Actually, it's nothing much too, just that Zhengyuan was making funny actions again. This was what happened : Zhengyuan was cooking by himself, and after cooking, he found it uncomfortable to sit on the ground and sit from the mess tin. He shouted : "VERY HARD TO EAT SIA, THIS WAY! " Then, he just went LYING on the ground !!! Everyone was laughing like mad ~ Washed up, and went for second round of drills. Learnt new drills. (:

Next was briefing. Us briefing the CIs how our Sec 1 camp will be like. Anyway, we made Esther Ma'am angry because we didn't compile all the files for her. :/ Sorry, haha weeeeeeee ~ (inside joke). Our briefing took hell long. Oh and did I mention we got our bubble tea in the midst of briefing? 8). Was briefing was done, debrief time. As expected, the CIs pumped us. :O. Totally expected because our performance was really thumbs down .

Only managed to sleep around 1am.

Day 2
Woke up around 5.30am o.o Fall in at 6am. Learnt more PT drills. HAHA Sir Lovell look so cute doing PT hentak kaki !!! (: NExt, breakfast, and campcraft MOI. TOTAL FAILUER PLEASE ! -.- Mad disappointing. Next was knots MOI ! I'm luckly !!! I got reef knot ! HE. HE. HE. Lunch( ouitdoor cooking) and drills MOI aftermath. I got "Open and close dressing". I WAS WAITING FOR RECEIVING ADN GIVING ARTICLE !!! Yet I got "Dalam buka/tutup barisan ke-kanan lu-rus." o.o I know this command is easy BUT ! I PREFER GIVING/ RECEIVING ARTICLE ! Am quite satisfied with my voice ^^ LOUD! Huat ah ! But my command was , hehe. Anyway some of my squadmates made us stood there for a veryyyyy long time ! "Menghadap(?) ke-hadapan ber tiga tiga ke-handapan pu sing ! " How do you turn in front when you are already in front? o.o

Dinner was GREAT. Senaran CHICKEN RICE !!! NICEEEEEEEEEEE. :> After which was mock campfire. (: Nice ! (: BUT SOME PEOPLE JUST DONT WANT TO SING -.- OPEN YOUR MOUTH LEYYYYYYYYYY !!!

If I'm not wrong next was debrief. Ended at 10. (Early I know). But we ended up sleeping at 1plus again because we still had personal interviews. Waited for each other before going to sleep. (: & OF COURSE, WE WERE SUPER DUPER HUNGRY SO WE WENT BANGING ON CIs' BUNKS DOOR AND BEGGED FOR FOOD LIKE 7TH MONTH HUNGRY GHOST ! Hahaha !

Day 3
Fall in outside Music room at 6.45am with our bags. Graduation exam, was laughing and laughing although we muist take it seriously . Wrote crap !!!!!!!! :D There's a particular question : "If you get to choose where to go overseas trip , where would you choose " Almost half of us chose Korea ! Huat ah ! If we really ge to go Korea, I'd go for NPCC overseas trip instead of Japan. :B

Next was PT, then went back to music room ! HUAT AH LEISURE TIME ALL THE WAY TILL BREAK CAMP ! KARAOKE ! GOSSIP AND BONDING SESSION WITH MA'AMS ! RARE, UNEXPECTED, MEMORIES ...(:

That's roughly how my Cadet Leader Camp went. Although it's tiring (expected) but at night, we always feel energetic because we make each other laugh. That's really something I miss. Gossip sessions at night, with squadmates and Ma'ams, joking session with squadmates, with CIs ... Something. I would really miss when Ma'am Esther leaves @ April ): Ma'am don't leave ... Come back help us ! How can we function with only one Sir (You know what I'm talking about).

NPCC Secondary One Orientation Camp 2010.

Sir. (:

Day 1
This is the camp when we officially lead. Still remember, before we ran to the parade square to take their attendance, we were like " U08 huat ahhhhhhhhhhh !!!"
K so starting of the camp was a total flop. Comunication breakdown, hierarchy was not followed. Behind time etc.

Shall not talk about it. Next was lectures. We went out halfway, prepared tentage, sing along. When their lecture was over, Cadet leaders went to guide them along, except for Wenwei and I who was taking care of the logistics downstairs. o.o Because we were bored, I came up with a new performance (:

Next was lunch, outdoor coking (again). Taught them how to use their mess tins, stoves etc. But many of them still didn't know how to light their solid fuel up. Guided them, helped them. (until want vomit blood) LOL. Now I know the agony of CIs. o.o Was freaking mad towards the end because they were taking their own sweet time to clear up, ZZZ ! Campcraft next. I went for SC investiture so yeah, I skipped campcraft ~ After an hour rehearsal, went for drills session. One group was really ~ . They only listened to Ma'am but not us. Ended up, they had to run numerous times acorss the parade square. ._. My group was okay. (: Not much scoldings included . (:

Next, preparation for campfire. (: Prepared last minute with my U08, and then WE WERE READY ! WEEEEEEEE ! (: Got the Sec 1s and Sec 2s ready, headed for dinner. After dinner, we left the Sec 1 and 2s to discuss for their performance, while we practiced our campfire ceremony. In case you didn't know, our campfire this year is really special. There's a car driving in, and we had to form do the formal procedure (like those in NDP) to invite our OC (Mdm Asmidah ) to her seat. HAHA funny and unexpected ! COOL CAMPFIRE ! & IT'S OUR FIRST ! What's more was that, there's the campfire started in a way that a "fire ball" was throw down from the second storey into the fire pit. (: Started with performance, and took pictures (& because of this, we went down pumping during debrief because of side track). Our performance was last. IT WAS REALLY A BLAST. (:
This was how it went :

U08 gathers the shout "HUAT AH" !
Sir Jason was all :"HUAT AH ! TIO BEI PIO LIAO AH ! " Haha, funny ^^
We shifted in front of the campfire, and started to make fun of Sec Two's last year performance.
" WE CAUGHT A LITTLE BABY BUMBLE BEE, WE CAUGHT A LITTLE BABY BUMBLE BEE , MUMMY, DADDY COME AND SEE ! WE CAUGHT A LITTLE BABY BUMBLE BEE!"
Afiq : "Cadet leaders, are we really going to do this?"
U08: " NO~~~"
All:
" All cadet leaders, all cadet leaders x3, put your ranks up (we really held our ranks up high. HAHA, yes, we brought it down while changing out of our Full-U).
Up in our school school,
doing our drills drills,
(something something, I forgot LOL )

Turning to our left left,
turning to our right right,
semula here and there (OIIIIII at the CIs).

If you like it then you shoulda put a rank on it,
If you like it then you shoulda put a rank on it,
Dont be mad because you should put a rank on it,
If you like it then you shoulda put a rank on it .

OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH OH ~ "
That's our first performance. Base music was "Single Ladies" by Beyonce haha ^^
Anyway, after we "OIIIII" at the CIs, Sir Jason stood up and was like :" OI , TURN REBELLIOUS LIAO LA ! " Hehe, funny !

Our second performance, after the first was:
"In the morning, in the morning, in the morning, see CIs. Conduct spot-checks, conduct roll call, take our handphones hide away.

In the afternoon, in the afternoon, in the afernoon, makan time. Maggi noodles, satay chicken, cook in mess tin, turn chaoda !

In the evening, in the evening, in the evening campfire. Fire burning, watch they perform, see already, want to sleep.

In the night time, in the night time, in the night time, debrief time. CIs nagging, go down pumping, scolding scolding BUEY TAHAN .

(At this point, all the CIS "OIIIII"-ed us, HEHE . HAD FUN ^^ )

After debrief, after debrief, after dbrief wash up time. Toilet flooding, lizards crawling, sibei dirty, CURSE DIE IT .

When they sleeping, when they sleeping, when they sleeping, we hungry. Don't want to sleep, kajiao CIs, hungry hungry, want twisties."
Base music was one of the NPCC cheers. o.o

Cheer:
"Who are who are who are we? U08 (action). Who are who are who are we? U08 (action). Who are we? U08 (action). WEEEEEEEEE (everybody jumps and do twist sign) "

Haha, our cheer was meant to make fun of Ma'am Esther LOL.

After campfire, retreat, interactive bonding. Nothing much.

Debrief next. Our debrief was HELL LONG ~ Ma'am Lynna was making signals behind, signalling us to be faster. :/ Next was CIs' debrief, and after which, sent sec 1s to sleep at 1.

Our debrief by the CIs next. Expected, pumping for all the mistakes we have done. Only managed to sleep at 3.30am.

Day 2
Sec 3 cadet leaders fall in at 7am. Sec 1 and sec 2 were extremely late. So Haikal and I shouted from below : "EVERYONE FALL IN !" YAY FUN ! Everyone started making noise and fall in. Ma'am Esther pumped them because they were late. PT next. Esther ma'am wanted to play badminton so Haikal and I brought them down, played with Ma'am Esther in the Hall ^^. But it became a gossip session after which. LOL ~ 10 minutes before PT ends, went down and informed them. Breakfast aftermath. (: Made breakfast for Haikal, Willie, Rizuan and the CIs. LOL. Campcraft next. Taught Sec 2 lashings. Some of them are really fast learners (: Drills after that . Took the Sec 2s since I taught the Sec1s until want vomit blood the day before (:
They got pumped 2 times by Ma'am Esther, and one of them said "CB" . Clare heard it, complain to Ma'am Esther. Ma'am Esther was like : "K debrief later ..." HAHA. They way Sec 2s salute also funny man. (NO OFFENCE). Some salute like they're blinding themselves from the sun, (laughs).

Lunch up next. WAS VERY IRRITATED !!!!!!!!!!!! K so this was what happened. Clare and I took care of the Sec 1s before they went off to take their utensils. After sending them off, Clare went to change, and I went to check the bunks, to ensure that everything is okay. Ended up, BUNKS NOT OPENED. @#$&^$%^$%&$ !!! Ran up and down looking for Esther Ma'am for bunk keys. With no avail. After perspiring like mad, I finally located Esther Ma'am . Got the keys. But by then, the Sec 2s surprisingly changed. Which means their bunks already opened. #$##$%#$ GRH ! While walking off, Sec 1s on the 3rd storey shouted down: "OI ! OUR BUNKS CANNOT OPEN." That really pissed me off. I calmed myself down and unlocked their bunks for them. Their first reaction: BURGE IN AND SOME EVEN COMMENTED : "LATE LIAO AH, LATER CONFIRMED KENA PUMPING. " *STARE AT ME * Attitude problems, -.- HATE THEM LA VOMIT BLOOD ! NExt went down to canteen to check that everyone is down. Sec 1 and sec 2 = attendance full. Sec 3 cadet leaders = ALMOST EMPTY TABLES. I don't know why they took so long to change. -.- So I ran up, look for them. Some were still slowly strolling ~ I closed an eye, and went to change myself (YES I HAVEN'T CHANGE). While changing, Amirah and Clare told me about the notebook and water bottle issue. WAS SERIOUSLY DAMN PISSED OFF BY THAT #@$@%#$^$%$%^ GUY CAN ! IRRESPONSIBLE ! YOU TOOK IT, EVERYONE SAW IT, YOU STILL HAVE THE CHEEK TO SAY I DONT KNOW ! (SLAP YOU !) Quickly changed, locked all the bunks and RAN DOWN TO CANTEEN. RAN ! I thought they have eaten, but they haven't . O.O Because the Sec 3 haven't acheive full attendance -.- When I came back, they started to eat. Lynna and Estehr Ma'am called me to sit with them o.o Talked, and decided to "ACT" during debrief at a later time. (: HAHAHA.

Next was games. STOP ABRUPTLY HALFWAY because they refused to cooperate. -.- Headed on with debrief. Shall skip everything. Shift to drills part. (: Firstly, I scolded the person who scolded Esther Ma'am "CB" . HAHA ~ (: Ma'am asked him some questions, he refused to answer, and Esther Ma'am went very angry. She banged the table, and the hot kettle fell. Luckily there was no hot water inside. The cadet cried, and was brought outside. Continuted with debrief and area-cleaning and bunk out. Sec 1 and 2s were released first. After they left, the Sec 3s headed on with our own debrief. :B Released only at 6plus pm. Went home, WAS REALLY SLEEPY. Dinner, unpacked, bathe and SLEPT for straight 13 hours ! NICEEEEEEEEE ~ You can imagine how tired I am right. o.o

K, pictures time. (Everything is taken during Sec One Orientation Camp (: ).

Car used during the campfire night ... SIR JASON'S CAR !

Sorry for the neglect but,
THANK YOU HAIKAL FOR THE PHOTOS !!!
K, via this post, I want to apologise to those whom I've flared up to during the camp. ); I was rather pekchek ): SORRY (:

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Anyway,
To U08: I was thinking of a U08 chalet this coming June. WHO WANTS IT ?! Reply soon k , I scared no slots ^^ (:

U08 huat ah ! (loves)

Hurt.

2010-03-09T15:04:00.002+08:00

我对你真的很失望。。。

在我人生的路途中，大部分的开心，快乐，喜悦都是因你而来。你难过，我伤心，心碎。你开心，我自然也会快乐。

现在，我只能眼睁睁看着这些渐渐消失。你给的美好虽短，但以深深的颗在我心上。

谢谢回忆。
永别了，以前的你。

我了了，理解了。因为你不由自主哭了。

会想会念又怎样,

2010-03-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

Warmest regards to all my readers, I'm finally back ~ Well this week is as hectic as last week, and I was sure that I could feel energy draining out faster than the fastest moving object found on Earth. You must be wondering, when I'm so busy, I still bother to update my blog. That's because at every end of the week, I always feel like updating my blog. So much as that however busy I am, I still take a tiny bit of time to log into blogger. Okay I'm not making any sense ... I'm half dead you see !

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Common test 2 ended officially on Wednesday, 030310 (Except for my Social Studies test which is situated next Thursday due to the lack of time). Was happy and I'm sure those who frequently talk to me are able to sense the drastic change in my mood once the school bell rang at 2.10pm on 030310. Although after Wednesday, I still had meetings, workshops, trainings and Learning Journey to attend to, I'm still happy that one HUGE (and I mean, REALLY huge) burden is finally lifted off my shoulders. ^^ Inevitably, I still feel tired (Tired till the extent that I have those fainty feeling whenever I stood/walk too long) due to the less than 6 hours of sleep. It's like, "Okay I'm gonna go and sleep my remaining 5 hours to the fullest. " *Blink of eyes* *Bell rings* "DRATZZZ." I'm sure most teenagers know exactly how this feels. Waking up as early as 6.30am (Okay maybe some as early as 5am) just to prepare yourself to school ... I know it's tiring but life ...

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As stated above and in my tweets (if you all were ever following me), I'm actually rushing proposals for both my SC camp and NPCC Sec One Orientation Camp. I have to admit that it's really VERY tiring to balance myself between 2 sides, but I also cannot deny that, throughout this whole process (which I'm still handling now), it has taught me to plan my time more accurately. Now, without tests, I'm doing both my proposals even more happily, although I'm still sacrificing my sleep due to this. :)

Also, because we are to supposed to plan for the Sec One Orientation Camp as a squad, my U08 and I have been meeting up at least 3 times per week to discussing about our programmes, unit tee and more. Throughout eveything I actually can sense the the bonding between us grow stronger and stronger day by day. Although conflicts between some of us still remains unsolved ( for about 2 years, hehe ), but it's worthwhile, I guess. What makes me the happiest is the stronger bond between my NPCC clique and I (: You know who you all are. (: Lovezzzyouall ~

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Of course, in the midst of doing all of these, I have to bear with slackers (as it's name depicts; they slack off work) . Of course I have to cover up their jobs for them. It's veryyyyyy tiring, like more stress piling on you. However, there are still people around me who bothered to ask how I'm feeling, to cheer me up and more ... Some even tried to help. I'm sorry but I have to reject all your offer because I really don't like to implicate you all ); It's my work (literally, even I have to cover for others) and I have to be responsible for it ... I see no point of placing more burden to you all. You have done your part, and take the remaining time to rest. (: You really don't have to go the extra mile and help me. & Anyway, thanks. (:

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Not to mention, my readers are dropping ... must be because i've been updating roughly 4 times per month, while others are literally updating 2 to 3 times every single day o.o sorry but, yup time constraint. ); Readers do come back ~ Hehe. Okay la I'm not despo. & I don't even care whether people reads my blog or not ^^ .

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Oh and yes ... Due to late-back-home schedule, I spend barely 4 hours on my studies everyday ): The worst was Chinese, which I only spent 2 hours on (10 pm to 12am) . Well that resulted in utimately disappointing results, especially my chinese ): I know it's my fault, not bothering read newspaper and all ... (sighs) . Others are less heart-wrenching but still ... disappointing . (sighs) let's not talk about it.

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Okay so during this week I got obsessed with Low Kay Hwa's book (all over again). I'm sooooooo desperateeee for it !!! I wanna own it like now ~ But I'll have to head down to Plaza Sing, which is sooo far away. That's not the main reason though. Everyone's soooo occupied to even spend a few hours with me ... Let alone a trip down to Dhoby Ghaut. (Sighs) & moreover, monetary problems. (This causes less headaches, all I have to do is to bomb my savings with it ._.)

I'm thinking whether I should head down to Plaza Sing tomorrow by myself ... It's gonna get lonely, but at least I get to think ~ Hmmm, shall see my mood and decide. I hope whatever decision I end up choosing will not land me in deep regret .

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If you are following my tweets, by now you should know that, throughout my whole dear March holidays;
- I have SC camp from 12th(Fri) to 13th(Sat).
- NCO camp from 13th(Sat) to 15th(Mon). (Which means I have to go down to NCO camp STRAIGHT after my SC camp. Oh, I'm so looking forward to it ~ Okay that's sarcasm)
- I have Math remedial on Wednesday.
- I have Sec one Orientation Camp from 18th(Thurs) to 19th(Fri) . (& yeah, I'm ONLY looking forward to this one).

I must really salute to my schedule. Minusing all my camps and remedials away, I'm only left with Tuesday, Saturday and Sunday to relax, complete my homework and prepare for my tests( Which happens to be situated ON THE FIRST WEEK AFTER MY HOLIDAYS). Oh well ~ Byebye to outings till June ~ ); 2709 ~ Man, I can forget about going to my favourite places till Juneee. Mad saddening.

Hmmm, let's just say this holiday is just going to be another weekend, that's all.

What makes it worse is that, I'm the OIC and AIC/IC (Not confirmed) for both camps. & for people like me who gets paranoid at the slightest thing, I worry that things might flop, blahblahblahblah ~ So yeah, it's depressing work I guess, but it benefits me so yeah ~ I must convince myself all these are worthwhile.

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I miss Crystal ... ):):): Was talking to her yesterday on Facebook; she missed me and I missed her. I don't even have time for my own family, let alone friends ... Sorry Crystal, meet up real soon alright, I'll dig out my time for you ):

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Oh and due to SC investiture, 3/7's SC Excos cannot attend for their CIP -.- We have to join other Secondary 3 express classes. So when CE lessons are used for practicing performances, I really feel ... Okay it's unfathomable.

Okay, enough said. Events now (:

Monday 010310

U08 went for their dry shooting practice. We wasted more time chit-chatting than practicing how to shoot. o.o

But at least whatever we chatted was really hilarious ~ I realised whenever I'm with U08 I'm always laughing, whether it's insulting or not ^^. & we have LOTS of inside jokes , jiggle jiggle, HAHAHA ~ I just said one .

Okay so yeah on our way to Home Team Acamedy (HTA), Zhengyuan started with his (insertsnamehere) joke. We were laughing all the way to HTA ~ Except for some (inserts-one-malay-word-here)s of course ~ Hehe we laughed till Mdm Asmidah disacknowledged us as her cadets ): Sad case ~ but still . Haha Ma'am too bad la, we are still your cadets that brings you countless headaches ~

When we reached HTA we were still laughing, but in lower tone because Officers were everywhere. There's this particular incident that I remembered clearly ...
Haikal was cursing Afiq with indian words. Afiq was doing the same thing (Can't blame both of them, they learn too much and they abuse the words and utmostly, they are childish. However, I like ! ) Haikal was using ACCURATE indian words (haha, not bad ah !) and Afiq wanted to outtalk him and he shot Haikal back with inaccurate indian words. One Indian boy, from Bishan Park SS, and sitting in front, was astonished at Afiq's words and said to him : "Why are you scolding your own mother? " Clare, Hayati, Haikal and I immediately bursting out laughing !!! Right in front of 3 fierce guy inspectors !!! While laughing Clare knocked her head against stacked chairs and Haikal was like : "EHEH WHAT HE SAY !!! " The guy replied something which I'm not going to reveal 'cause it's too dirty. If your curiosity arouses you too much, come and ask me personally ~

After dry practice, Haikal, Afiq, Clare and I cabbed back to Yew Tee . (: Hehe had a good time ~

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Tuesday 020310 and Wedneday 030310 : Meetings.

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Thursday 040310
Attended a workshop down at Ngee Ann Poly . The workshop is named "Fun with Adobe Animations" . It's something to do with Adobe again (recalls school IT lessons), so I wasn't even looking forward to it at all o.o I'd rather go training ~ So yeah,when we reached there the knowledge passed down to us was quite general. The lecturer and coach only wanted us to draw something and make some flash animations. O.O Because I really suck at drawing humans and pigs, I ended up drawing :

Panda ! 'Cause it only requires CIRCLES :)

Okay see how my panda transforms:

Okay I know my drawing suck :C.

After my workshop I rushed down to training. Just in time for dismissal parade o.o Debrief till 7plus, settled unit tee. I deposited using my own savings :( Sad case ): $170 ~ I gave it in $50 notes and it'll come back as $10 ~ Aw man. ):

Oh and we got our campcraft results. Boys' results are rather satisfying but girls' results was utter disappointment.
If I'm not wrong, the results should be;
Boys: 137/155.
Girls: 124/137.

I shall not elaborate ...

Friday 050310
Biology students headed to Science Center for see the Body World exhibits. Although our bags were undescribably HEAVY !!!!!!!!!! but overall it was really worthwhile, because the exhibits were really great. :) I learnt a lottt. It's a pity that it ends today, if not I'll definitely grab another chance to go there again ): Awwww. I hope it comes back soon ):

Oh and anyway, Lynn, Amelia and I stayed back in Body World till 7pm, 'cause we went for our second round 8). Really FASTASTIC, AMAZING and like what the advertisement says, INSPIRING ~ I wanted to buy their L-shaped file but it costs $7.90 !!!

Amazing as it is, I find it quite, QUITE spooky ... I cannot believe whatever I'm seeing are once-alive and walking like us ... Or rather, I can't believe they're made out of real humans and animals' body.

Too bad photography were not allowed, or else my this post will be flooded with those exhibits !!!

Saturday 060310, which is today ~
Met Clare, headed to National Library, had lots and lots of problem with the connection. (Anyway, thanks to [insertnamehere] for helping (: ) I gave up and Clare and I headed over to her house and do our work. HAHA ~ but we still ended up playing. o.o

@ 4plus, Clare headed to her Grandma's house while I walked home. Bathe and travelled down to Grandpa's house. HOMECOOKED BUFFET 'cause it's Gonggong's birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GONGGONG !!! LIVE LONG, LIVE HAPPY, and I love you (: I had a great time with my cousinzzzzzzzz. (: Especially Amanda, Zackery and Cassandra hehe ~

Okay pictures ^^ :

Cassandra ~

& Zackery !!! (:

Cute (:

Oh and pictures taken during campcraft competition :

Got to go, it's late and I want to sleep. Hardly touch on my proposal :C. Shall rush it tomorrow ~

I shall end off with this picture:

Although it's missing Hayati and Afiq but still lovezzz.

"Leaf departure is due to Wind pursuit. Or because the Tree didn't ask her to stay" -True Love Stories.
(Read it, it's touching ~ )

It's such a dirty mess, imperfect at it's best.

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2010-03-04T22:16:00.001+08:00

I SHALL COMPRESS THESE 3 WEEKS INTO A 5 LETTERED WORD :

TIRED

Will be back on hopefully, tomorrow, or Saturday.

Campcraft compeitition.

2010-02-27T18:06:00.003+08:00

Today marks the end of my campcraft trainings. No more tying, no more peggings, no more squating under the hot sun tying lashings. No more manharness. No more coling. No more clove hitches. No more reef knots. No more throwing pegs around. No more showing attitude when we have to go another round. No more laughing and giggling (jiggling) to inside jokes during debriefs with our NCOs. No more sufferings from blisters due to pegging (Clare) and pulling manila helpms with our utmost force. No more downward force, upward force. No more being spars and bamboo pole up and down staircases. No more round lashes. No more 12.4.8. No more "tensions are not strong enough"s. No more "untidy clove hitches"s. & in 3 to 4 weeks times, no more Sec 4 NCOS.

Today also marks the start of U08's NCO journey. No more regular water breaks. No more seniors guiding us. No more early dsimissals. More Sec One Orientation Camp meetings. More lectures. More camps. More courses.

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For today's competition, it;s actually quite a failure I think . (MY OWN PERSONAL VIEW). So this was what happened :
Woke up at 515am in the morning and got out of my house as soon as possible. Met up with Clare and hit the McDonalds for breakfast. Headed off to the busstop opposite Unity, and bus-ed to Pierce Secondary. Ma'am Kaibing was briefing us about the procedures on the bus. Upon reaching, we sat int he canteen, registered and after some briefings, the competition started . OKAY THIS WAS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED :
Once we heard the first long horn, I took the 3.5m manila helpms and nylon rope while Yingtian took others. Was practically dragging the spars to the farthest end and tied ours round lashings as fast as possible. I didn't bother to tie a thumbknot at one end because I was in a pretty rushing mood. Yingtian immediately proceeded with her 12,4,8 clove hitch, while I started with my manharness. I completely forgetten about the carabiner and immediately placed my nylon rope into my manharness. It was when Clare shouted : "Eh, 那个carabiner ley ?" that I realise dI completely forgotten about it. -.- So we had to remove the nylon rope, clip on the carabiner, and run through our nylon rope . It was really time-consuming and when we were finally done, we put everything in place and proceeding with guyline. When Clare and I were strongly holding on to our guyline and waiting for Yingtian to slowly leave the pole and reaching the peg, the pole almost fell. The CIs in charge was running in and out of the lot cause our pole was threatening to fall all the time. When Yingtian reached the nearest peg and tying her slipknot, the pole was shaking all about. & I REALLY MEAN SHAKE, SHAKE REALLY DANGEROUSLY. Clare ended up calling Cailing from the gadget to hug the pole while we tied. As Yingtian, Clare and I pulled at "3", Cailing actually post grip of the pole( as it's her virgin try) and the whole thing fell. Thus, she roughly gauged the middle point and called Amirah to hug it instead. We quickly carried on 'cause our fastest timing was, as shown on the previous post, 13 minutes. Initially, I didn't have any strength to pull my guyline. I get really nervous as I thought I will be the one ruining everything again. But then I thought : "I am useless, but still, I cannot let others' effort go down to the drain just because of my uselessness." . Then, out of nowhere, I pulled my guyline with MY ALL MIGHT AND STRENGTH. Miraclously, my guyline managed to tighten and I quickly end with 2 half-hitch and butterfly knot. That when roughly when I saw Yingtian having difficulties with her slipknot. I shouted : " Yingtian !!! 你可以吗！！！ " . I ran over and found out that she actually had problems with her guyline. I took over her and signaled her to settle the flag. I pulled her guyline with all my might again, and woohoo! It tightened . Fighting spirit, must be the help of competition around me . ^^ Settled flag and FLAG IS DONE ! IN LESS THAN 10 MINUTES. But the problem was, THE POLE WAS SLANTED, OUR 12,4,8 HITCHES WAS REALLY VERY UNTIDY, OUR TENSION WAS BULLSHIT. Gadget can't fit our mess tin, and shelter was not even up. ):

So much for that 12 minutes.

No personal offence but I think our training since Dec 15 has gone down the drain. i mena, this training had taught us what is campcraft, knots, lashings, this and that this and that ... But we were trained for more than 2 months, while other school only started when school reopened. So much so for not taking trainings seriously.

Now I miss tying guyline, tying round lashing, tying my 12,4,8 clove hitches, I miss pulling the school flag on my pole, I miss arranging my two spars and identifying the top and the bottom, I miss dirtying my whole hands due to the dirty field. I can't believe I'm saying this but I MISS CAMPCRAFT. ): & It so happens that campcraft competition occurs on alternate years and today's competition is the last chance U08 is experiencing this. When chance is just at our doorstep, we don't cherish it ... and when it's gone, we regret. People ...

After the competition, went to discuss proposal, and gossip session. i really went on hyper mode during the gossip session ! LAUGHING ALL THE WAY THROUGH THE SESSION ?! Hahaha, really had a good time . ^^

Next week schedule:
Monday - Dry shooting practice.
Tuesday - Sec One Orientation Camp meeting.
Wednesday - Meet up with Mdm Rashidah (?)
Thursday - YGSP Adobe Animation Workshop @ Ngee Ann + Trainings (Goodgame, after workshop I need to rush for training, hectic man)
Friday - HOPEFULLY I'm free ...

I know this is abrupt BUT I need to go and rush my proposal ... Or else tomorrow's exhausting workload is going to kill me mentally. No joke. Kthxbye.

Tired week 1 + tired week 2 = Super tired me .

2010-02-26T21:18:00.003+08:00

This week's even worse than last week.
Now it's not just training + studying = sleep late . It's training ending at 7+pm every day + test week + sleep super late + no appeitite + stress = EXHAUSTED ME + DISAPPOINTING RESULTS + DISAPPOINTMENTS IN MYSELF + CRYING WHEN I ENCOUNTER SOMETHING DISAPPOINTING ...

I'm not supposed to complain, I know. But I can't help to. People always say, "When you get to the end of the rope, tie a knot, and hang on." I'm hanging on. It's the rope that's going to break.

I shall not complain any further. I WILL NOT BE SELFISH. All these WILL benefit me.
忍一时，风平浪静，推一步,海阔天空。。。
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This week's marks the start of my 2nd test. I hardly have the time to study, thus resulting in super disappointing results. Initially I took it lighty, but after more disappointing events start to wreck my havoc, I can't help but break down and cry. I know I'm super useless, crying over stupid things. I tried. I really tried. but I couldn't hold it back.

Whatever. I will not do it anymore. Dumb shit.
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For this entire week, I have been sleeping after 12 mignight every day, thus receiving only a maximum of 6 hours sleep per day. Ha, of course my digestive system starts to break out another war ... No appeitite for dinner almost everyday. However I still tried to eat some tidbits okay !
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Tomorrow's the campcraft competition ... I don't know why but I'm very scared. Just that bloody 1 minute to PASS . 1 minute ! 60 seconds !

After all my trainings, I came to realise that, I'm always the one causing the time drag. It's either me who:
1) Forgets to grab my manila helpm properly, thus causing the flag pole to drop. It almost hit people. Useless.
2) Forgets to step on my peg, thus causing the whole peg to fly out. & I mean really FLY out from the ground. How stupid can I get like seriously. Time waster, useless being.
3) Fails to pull tightly. Others can pull until the whole thing turns tight. I can't. Why? Cause I'm useless. Fullstop.
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As you can see, I'm good in nothing though I'm a position holder. Everything flops, no matter how much effort I give in to try to change the ending. But it always turns out . Yes, disappointing. Disappointments after disappointments ... Bad grades, unable to cope with stress, failing to spread out my work evenly among my committee.
How useless can I get like seriously. I brought everything upon myself SO I SHALL AND WILL NOT COMPLAIN . ANYMORE.
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I'm tired. I'm nervous. But I ain't going to care. I shall let nature takes its course. Byebye.

手牵手, 我的朋友, 爱永远在你左右.

2010-02-24T15:23:00.002+08:00

I'm back (:

I'm down with ONE pathetic test, and I have 5 more ^^ And god-zillion tonnes of homework to complete.
You must be asking why I still have the time to come online. ^^.
WHY? 'Cause I'm back to tell you that I will not be back until tests stop chasing my back?

If you understand, say "understand", if you don't understand, say "don't understand. But if you understand and you say "don't understand", how am I supposed to know whether you understand? Understand?
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So yeah anyway, Saturday wasn't really a good day to me.
Charlene's Geography challenge was a total flop, I guess.
What's worse was boy's campcraft, everything was NOT up. Flag pole up, flag not up. Gadget was atrocious. Now it's my turn to be scared. We can't even bring up everything by 16 minutes. BLOODY 16 MINUTES. I don't want to waste all my efforts going to training since 15 December till now by ending up with flag not up, tentage not up and gadget not up.

(Sighs), what to do. Life's like that and I can do nothing but to procastinate right? Gonna go, lashings practice tonight.

Tiring week.

2010-02-19T21:13:00.006+08:00

This week has been a really tiring week for me. Although Chinese New Year 2 days of school away, but I'm still tired because there's lots of movement this Chinese New Year, plus there still homework and proposal to rush during CNY. Speechless ...

This year I enjoyed CNY quite a lot. I love it when red packets come to me ^^. Haha, everyone knows why of course $$. Okay so yeah this year I'm throwing $450 into my bank since I can't get my ideal phone. (cries). So why not put my money into better use? Haha, unlike my brother who sppent almost all his money gambling away and buying his new W705. I have to admit I'm very jealous 'cause the phone's function is what I really want ( Wifi, great themes, and most importantly, UNLIMITED MESSAGE SPACE. Which means I don't have to feel sad when I accidentally delete important messages). But I shall look on the bright side. (: He used his own money but my LG KP500 is a gift from my dad ( Somemore it's on a non-special occasion). HAHA. When I accidentally spoil it or something, my heart will feel less pain (of course not for the missing of messages part) . I shall wait for Aino to come into my hands. Haha wait long long.

I wasted Wednesday, Thursday and half of my Friday getting really mad at somebody. I feel so agitated and angry at him. Nothing can describe that mad feeling. When things gets worse and worse, more unhappy things( which I don't want to talk about) came to make me even more insane. I got to a certain point that I feel like crying but held everything back. As a result my moodswings came and I began neglecting the feelings of people around me. Sorry. ):

Today marks Charlene and etc's Geography challenge. (: Well, all the best ! To stupid incooperative people out there : WAKE UP YOUR IDEAS. Stop being so immature yeah. You're making my friend fuming mad!

Today's also NPCC boys' campcraft competition. Although I'm worried but still ALL THE BEST . Initially I wanted to go but due to some unknown stuffs we're unable to. I want to see the tense-ness in the competition !!! So at least I know a little what's in store for me next week ...

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Ha, I shall start my post officially ...

130210 Saturday

I had Student Council Camp meeting in the morning ... Settled at MacDonalds at first but ended up in KFC. Meeting ended around 3? Ate late lunch and went to sleep till 1630. Ended up rushing like some mad woman. -.- Drove down to Yishun, and ate at some restaurant.

Reunion dinner was great with my family. What disappointed me was the food. Its standard was only mediocre ... Either too salty or too plain. What's worse was that the total bill was more then $1500. All those 8 dishes didn't even fill my stomach ... So when I reached home I ended up sweeping away New Year's goodies. :/

After which, I realised Shiheng was actually upstairs at her uncle's house ^^. So we decided to meet. At the lift staircase on the 9th storey ^^. We had serious talk at first but ended up laughing like some stupid idiots because I told her some hilarious incidents. HAHA.

After a short while, went home and counted down for Chinese New Year. (;

140210 Sunday.
It's the first day of Chinese New Year, clashed with Valentines. Haha, I have no feelings for Valentines but I'm hyper over CNY ! Red packets ! $.$

Look at my eyes ! They exist of different sizes. ):

After visiting Grandpa went off and visited 9 temples around Singapore ... Tired to the max ! Went home around 8plus and slept only like 1++am.

150210 Monday.
Visited Grandma, lunched and headed over to uncle's house with cousins. First round 1of steamboat startedas early as 1500 !!! Ohmygoshhhhh. Luckily I managed to escape before the second round started. (: !

160210 Tuesday.
House warming at Uncle's house. Attractiveeeeeeeeeee ^^ . I love their new house (envious). Haha.

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I have nothing to elaboate about Wednesday and Thursday. Moodswings. -.-

190210 Friday.
I loved training ! The front part was quite terrible and miserable but after which, things made me lift my mood immediately. Drastically !
When we went for training, Clare and I took over Secondary Ones. Teach them the correct procedures, but they still end up doing the wrong thing. Lol ~ Games aftermath. Clare and I were really tired ... so we just stood there and watch them play with monotone faces. towards the end, my squad began to frantic over our Chinese New Year performance. Initially we only wanted to end it off with songs and our "dongqiang" sizing, but after we heard that each performance needed to last at least 5 minutes, Clare and I decided to call Clare's mum to being over Clare's lionheads so as to perform. HA! Everything was last minute. U08 gathered, settled everything quickly ! After Secondary fours and Secondary Twos was over with their New Year song, we proceeding with our lion dance ! Zhengyuan was (Y), number one in playing the drums ! While performing we were laughing ALLLLLLLLLLLL the way. Haha, lifted my mood immediately ! & after the lion dance, we immediately lined up from shortest to tallest, and Haikal shouted : "Dari kanan, angka dongqiang dongqiang bilang ! " It sent me laughing like mad ~ So after the command everyone shouted "dongqiang" simultaneously and Terence ended with "DONGQIANG SIR AND MA'AM ! " Made the audience and officers laugh immediately. Woohoo ~ U08 power !

I still remember U08's combined camp performance !!!
We kept our performance in the dark and ended up shocking our Ma'ams with :

Early morning come training,
sit one corner go study,
hoping we'll pass our promotion test,
study until very stressed !
We will pass the test, we will pass the test, PROMOTION TEST !
We will pass the test, we will pass the test, PROMOTION TEST !
We will pass the test, we will pass the test, PROMOTION TESTTTTTTTT !

Haha, I know it's stupid. But it's dead hilarious to me !!! As you can see, our cheers and performances always have something to do with NPCC ... JUST THAT THE COMMAND/ CHEERS IS CHANGED 8). Haha !!! I also remember how our seniors told us : " you all very daring hor, do this in front of Ma'am ! " This is what I call, POWER ! NPCC must be courageous , agree? Haha, love U08. <3

After training ended, debriefed, waited for the rain to stop, and home sweet home ! (:

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If you manage to read all the way here, you really deserve a kiss from me ! Hahaha, (:

"I dont know where I stand with you and I don't know what I mean to you but everytime I think of you all I wanna do is be with you " - Facebook's Group "People Change, Things Go Wrong, Just Remember Life Goes On"

熊猫.

2010-02-16T10:10:00.002+08:00

我很闷耶 !
我不想, 我不要, 我不想也不要做功课!!!
越做越想睡觉!!!

闷啦 !!!
你们懂我在做什么吗 ?!?!?!?!
我正在等一只熊猫还我简讯!!!
几猪以下喔她, 我比她还迟睡还比她还早醒.
HAHA 她online了, 可是我 appear offline 喔 !
哈哈, 让她浪费钱来回我简讯吧 !!! HEHEHE.

是好笑的咯 !

OKAY LA BYEEEEEEEEE.
IGNORE THIS POST, SUPER NO LIFE PLEASEZZZ.

CNY Eve .

2010-02-13T23:08:00.006+08:00

It has been like 1 week since I last posted, although I only had 1 test last week .
Largely due to laziness, trainings and meet ups .

This week was quite a devastating week for me ... Or should I say for us ... More later .

Saturday 060210.
Attended 2709 BBQ ! It was a event to celebrate Weiyuan's and Angela's advanced birthday .

Let pictures do the job yup (:

Haha, ORHBI !!! (stick out tongue).

JANICE ! YOU ARE SO CUTE !!! HAHA. I was laughing like mad when I was uploading it haha ! ^^

Monday & Tuesday 080210, 090210.
Training. Nothing muchhhh. Was anticipating the Games Day soooooooo much until I found out that it clashed with my DENTAL APPOINTMENT .

Wednesday 100210.
FOR ME TO KNOW, FOR YOU TO FIND OUT.

Thursday 110210.
I actually wanted to ran back to school after my dental appointment, but ended up, APPOINTMENT DELAY . The dentist only attended to me at 4pm WHEN I REACHED AT 3PM OKAY. I ended up not returning to school since it was so late . By the time I return it would be like, 5pm? Sorry Clare )-: . Changes of plans, and once again, for me to know, for you to find out.

Friday 120210.
Everyone exchanged Valentines' Gift! (:

By dear Joey ! Love you ! Happy Valentines and CNY too ^^. Thanks for your Ferroro Rocher ! & your piece of note ! (:

By KOHCHIAHSUAN ! Don’t be jealous … There’s a heart inside ! Hahaha, love and thank you KOHCHIAHSUAN ! (:

On the left: Jingyi.
On the right: Liyee.
Thanks to both of you! (:

& of course … Shiheng and Chuxuan’s flower pen and noteee! (: Love die! ^^

Anyway, these has been little time so I didn’t have the opportunity to carefully wrap my gifts … I feel so guilty !! I shall put in extra the effort on my present then ! Ha, provided that NTUC opens on the second day on Chinese New Year …

Oh, after I reread all of my birthday wishes (manually written or printed out) and valentines’ wishes, I decided to paste every single wishes on a piece of huge board to serve as my motivation . It ended up nice ! Now I can look up at it whenever I feel stressed or sad . (:

Here it is :

(:

Was enjoying myself for the day, when I received one bad news. I'm disappointed and I feel threatened at the same time ...

Why do you have to do this ... Even if you knew, you don't have to use that to threaten me . You don't know how important she is to me. Technically, nobody knows ... I don't want anyone to know about us. Even if SHE saw us, but do you have to call me a spy? I never had that kind of intention when I drew near to her. It's FRIENDSHIP. I never took FRIENDSHIP as a kid's play, neither do I grow close to someone for any ulterior motives. Me = spy because I'm friends with her? BULLSHIT. THE OTHER SHE DON'T EVEN KNOW.
You don't know my feelings, 'cause you have never been through it before . How does it feel like when you are really good friends with someone even though you have to keep this relationship in the dark? Yes you still blissed ( If you don't you deserve to die). But when this relationship is slowly coming to light, and you realise that you'll be implicating the other party, how would you feel? Maybe you can't imagine but I FEEL SHAG. I FEEL GUILTY. I FEEL AS THOUGH I BROUGHT UPON ALL THIS.

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I don't know what to do. At least we're safe for the next few days.
I'll let nature takes its course, and of course, pray that everything will go smoothly .

对不起, 连累你了...

Back in Action ... and then lost again.

2010-02-06T11:01:00.006+08:00

I'm back blogging !
I missed blogging properly soooooooo much.
Let's see, when was the last time I had a proper post, huh?
TWO WEEKS AGO (those post which are filled with me procastinating doesn't count, it's not even proper in the first place ).

Hmmm, I have quite a lot of things to update on ...
During these two weeks, a lot of things happened ; sad and happy things.
Some things even set me thinking ...
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For the past 6 days , I have been revising for my test like a mad girl ...
I only get to go back at 6plus for 4 days in a week because I have trainings.
Thus, leaving me with less than 6 hours to study for every single of my test .

I really don't mind sleeping late every night you know .
It's just that, it's always during this kind of period, when I desperately need support and encouragement, that my parents (particularly my mum) pull me down.
When she see me staying up late, she will be like : "Play la, play somemore ... see now everytime late late sleep, like that even more tired. "
Contradictions to her sentence :
1) I DIDN'T EVEN PLAY.
2) EVEN IF I DID PLAY, IT'S JUST TO RELAX MY MIND FOR A WHILE, AND LESS THAN 15 MINUTES LATER, I'M BACK TO MY WORK AGAIN.
My dear mum, you see me working hard for my future don't you? So why do you have to keep harping on my misdeeds (If it was ever considered a "misdeed" for playing to relax both the mind and soul.)
3) In comparison to me in the past, I'm working doubly hard on my academics, SC and NPCC right now. In the past, I never stayed up late to study AT ALL. I sleep at 10 every night, because when I was a SEC TWO, I was not an Exco member of SC, and I don't have to carry the burdens of being an going-to-be-NCO. Now, it's totally a different case. Seniors are stepping down, and gradually my friends and I have to take over their responsibilities.
Of course we'll have to train hard ... Like what our new Sir said, as we become NCOS, we have less rights and we deserve less breaks then our juniors ...
My dear mum , I'm trying really hard to balance out my things right now . I know you're tired, but I'm tired too. I just hope that you'll just stop venting all your anger on me ... Even if staying up late studying and revising for my work hurts your eyes, you don't have to drop sarcastic remarks. I'd rather that you ignore me.

Well, on lighter note , all the above 3 points are just small matters .
When I get results I'm relatively satisfied with , she passes sarcastic remarks and I don't know how, she'll begin harping on my attitude again. Next time, I'm not going to tell her about my achievements. No, N-O; NO. I'll just keep all these happiness to myself. What's the point of achieving so much ... when people around you are not even acknowledging it? Furthermore , I don't want to create big hoohas over such matters. I shall keep all my feelings to myself.
Other than that, she's playing favouristim, yet again. She'll blame not only my brother, and me for misdeeds that my brother has done. He's being nagged at for hogging on to our new laptop for too long, and when I reached home yesterday, I pleaded for the laptop since my brother is using the desktop( again). Well, I ended up being washed by very big waves of criticism. Firstly, it's not even my fault. Secondly, I desperately want to surf the Net. Thirdly, SHE'S NOT EVEN SCOLDING MY BROTHER FOR NOT GIVING ME A CHANCE TO USE THE COMPUTER FOR ONE ENTIRE WEEK. What is this?

As for my dad, I don't really have any harsh comments. I know he's concerned with me staying up late every night because he always bring up the death of my uncle (who passed away because one of his nerve broke due to too much studying) . He speak to me in gentle tone and tries to chase me to sleep whenever the clock stikes 11. But with no avail.
Sorry and love you dad.

I know I shouldn't be complaining and complaining. But, this is how I feel . Maybe I'll feel plain stupid and dumb next time I press archive and stumble across this post.
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Next up, NPCC.
Well, I don't really have comments for my CCA. Although I hate the 4days-in-one-week trainings, but generally I think it's all worth it. Competition's creeping in anyway, so bascially it'll so us nothing but good (except for the draining-all-our-energy-out part) in near future. Well, U07 and U08 hwaiting (:
Anyway, there's this new Sir who just entered our unit ... From what I've heard, he's gonna be our permanent Sir . (ultimate shock) . All I can say is, I don't understand his theory lesson on knots and lashings at all. No offence, but in a certain way, I just cannot absorb all the knowledge he's passing down to us as easily as Ma'am Irene's. MA'AM IRENE WHERE ARE YOU ?! (winks). Maybe Ma'am Irene concentrate less on theory but emphasize more on practical. No hard feelings but I learn better that way. :X
Next, Total Defence Day is drawing nearer and nearer. As for this year, cadets have to write an ONE-PAGE essay on the theme "I Will". Unfortunately I got the honour of writing the essay. Here comes the problem; I CAN'T WRITE. My grammar's standard is low down there (points down) and my vocabulary is pathetically limited. I always have problems expressing my own feelings using proper english ! So why ME ?

That's all for NPCC, two camps during March. NCO camp and Sec 1 orientation camp.
From what I heard, Sec One Orientation Camp's from Thursday to Fryda (2D1N) ... so NCO camp's most likely from Monday to Wednesday. Adding on Student Council Camp from Friday to Saturday, I'm gonna get a really TIGHT schedule . I just hope homework doesn't haunt me .
OHMYGOSH, WHAT ABOUT 2709 MARCH'S BBQ ?!
(Screams).
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That's all for my two-weeks-worth complains.

Above everything, there have also been people who was always there for me, especially my dearest Youknowwhoyouare . (;
She's tired, I'm tired but she never fails to cheer me up completely whenever my eyes are flooded with tears of my mum's sarcasm and criticism. Without her, I think I've given up long time ago.
Thanks my dear friend, may we last long (:
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Of course, out of this two weeks, I have been going out of my house, attending concerts, BBQs, and stuffs like this. (:

22 January' 10.

The six of us (SC 2010-2011 Exco members) went to Botanic Gardens to have our videoshoot.
The whole process was nerve-wrecking, embarassing and of course, HOT ! The weather was atrocious ... But overall, I enjoyed myself even though, 1) I keep shifting my eyes to my script even though the camera was already rolling; 2) I danced like a vampire. Haha !

The greatest achievement was, I came back with lots and lots of pictures with plants and flowers in it ! (:

23 January'10.
A BBQ was held down @ Amanda's house, @ AMK.
I didn't know it was a advanced-birthday celebration for Amanda so I didn't went with a present ! (guilty). But, I will hand my present over to her when I visit Grandma and Grandpa @ Yishun during Chinese New Year. (:

Pictures !

3 year old cousin ! He was pressing for Elmo videos and cannot sit still ! HAHA.

He finally stood still when my auntie told him : “I’m gonna buy a motorcycle for you !” Haha, cute. But it’s all a bluff to make him stand still and face the camera … Haaa.

28th January'10.
This day marked my (unknown number) dental appointment.
The dentist PULLED my molar to the back by putting a ring in between 2 of my teeth.
Pain !

Received bad news while I was alone on my bus. ):
Glad that's you're okay now.
Cheer up okay, I'm here (:

30th January'10.
Attended band concert down at Victoria concert hall.
The concert was pretty enjoyable, although the front part was pretty dull.

The concert was another mean of 2709 gathering .. But only 3 girls came !
I know it's pathetic but overall I did enjoy myself even though 30th also marked the (inserts event here), which made me pretty tensed up an worried throughout the whole concert .

Memories of 17082709, deeply etched in my heart. (:
1 Febuary'10
1 month of 2010 has passed ... Time pass quickly. Counting from today (6th Feb), it's just another 9 days to (inserts event here); and 8 more days to Chinese New Year (Ah, I haven't finish buying my stuffs yet ! )

1st Febuary also marks the start of Week 5, which is hectically packed with 4 test (not to forget trainings till 6)? Plain atrocious. Stayed up till 12 every night( literally morning) just to complete all my homework and revision ...
Tired but for my future !

5th Febuary'10
I had Chemistry test this day and I got back my Chinese and Amath test ! (:
I got 2nd in class for chinese - 78/100 . To say the truth I was quite atonished because I never expected myself to get the 2nd ... I wanted to get be one of the tops BUT after seeing the taking the paper I felt as though the hope was practically dashed. Now, it's like, a dream come true ha. I truly hope I'll maintain. (:
& ! Top for Amath - 28/30 ! Although Pamela and Kenneth also got the same marks as me BUT , I'm more satisfied with my results than my class position. But I'm still a little disappointment because I have no idea how to solve a 3 mark question ): .

Anyway, the Sec one NPCC cadets officially entered the unit today. 8).
I took over them with Cailing and Yingtian at first, and we briefed through the rules and regulations of NPCC ... how everything must be standardized and every other things. Next, we played ice breakers. We made them say their name and why they joined NPCC. We got some unsatisfying answers like ; "I was forced to join NPCC," , and " I don't know". What's worse is that, out of 23 cadets, at least 17 gave "exciting" and "interesting". I still remembered, when I first entered the unit, I told my NCOs that I joined NPCC because I want to hold the gun, haha ! (:
However, there were also initiative cadets too. One joined NPCC because she liked our fancy drill performance. Haha, gladdd 'cause it's more than 24 people's effort. (: One joined because he likes marching ... Speechless (ha maybe because I like campcraft more than drills ); but I'm happy that he managed to give such good reasons to enter NPCC. Next, we let them play the "Whacko" game. At the start, it was atrocious. So I made them introduce themselves ALL OVER AGAIN. Their attitude and performance was bad so I kept on scolding them . HAHA, number 1 bad senior (: Hey, but it's for their own good and our own good ! If they aren't disciplined then WE are going to suffer when WE take over the unit.

That's all I guess.

I'm heading over to Warren later, for 2709's class BBQ and Weiyuan cum Angela's birthday celebration.

TingWeiYuan, TOOT ! The person who is EXACTLY 1 month younger than me. 15 year old already, BE MORE MATURE ! Okay that's the only message I want to pass to you, haha !

Got to go meet Amelia and gang now, I hope that there'll be picture spam later. (:

Byeeeeee.
Oh, and did you manage to finish reading this super long post ? HAHA.

I'd hold on to it ...

'Body' War.

2010-02-01T23:05:00.003+08:00

My body wants to start a war with me again .
Trainings till 6 plus + tests revision = sleeping at 12++am everyday and waking up at 6 every morning = less than 6 hours of sleep. Sometimes less than 5.

Now, I can even fall asleep in class.
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT.
I can literally doze off in class.

AND WHAT MAKES EVERYTHING WORSE IS, MY BODY SYSTEM IS BREAKING DOWN TOO.
I HAVE INCONSISTENT LUNCH AND NOW, I HARDLY EAT MY DINNER AT ALL.
MY SORE THROAT PLUS COUGH IS BACK.
SEVERE HEADACHES EVERYDAY.
EYESIGHT'S DETORIATING.

ABOVE 5 SENTENCES = DIE.

Byebye, I want to sleep but I still have Geog and Emath and stupid "Sanguoyanyi" to complete.

Byebye to computer for 1 entire week, byebye to internet for 1 entire week, byebye to kpop to 1 entire week , byebye to Leeteuk for 1 entire week.

BYEBYE EVERYTHING.

Cheerup.

2010-01-28T21:08:00.003+08:00

Hello, my dear sotong, pleasepleaseplease cheer up.
I know the news came by too sudden, way too sudden ... But it's a fact.

I wouldn't stop you from crying, go ahead and cry all your unhappiness out, but promise me, after a certain time, you have to learn to stop, okay (:

Bestfriend, cheers and smiles.
好朋友, 我真心诚恳地希望你能在最短的时间内振作起来 ...

SLEEP !

2010-01-26T22:35:00.002+08:00

I DEPRIVE OF SLEEP.
MY EYES ARE PAIN.
MY SHOULDER'S ACHING.
MY BACK'S ACHING.
EVEN MY BUTT'S SORE.

MY BED IS LESS THAN 20 STEPS AWAY FROM ME AND YETTTTTTT I CAN'T MAKE LOVE WITH IT RIGHT NOW BECAUSE CHINESE PROJECT'S STOPPING ME.

Homework, damn you.

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Will be back on Saturday with PICTURE-SPAM POST.

Cruel.

2010-01-23T09:41:00.003+08:00

My god la ...
I was passing by Pamela's Facebook and then I saw this bloody gross and cruel video : SCREW DIE YOU LA.
I STOPPED THE VIDEO HALFWAY.
DAMN YOU THIS WOMAN, WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS BLOODY SHIT TO A KITTEN WHO PRACTICALLY DID NOTHING TO YOU?
DAMN YOU LA, ASSHOLE, I KNOW YOU WANT TO ADVERTISE HOW "POWDERFUL" YOUR HIGH HEELS ARE BUT YOU DON'T NEED TO DO THIS TO A CAT ALSO .
I GIVE YOU ONE EXAMPLE LA, MORE PRODUCTIVE, CALL YOUR FRIEND TO WEAR THE HIGH HEELS, AND THEN CALL THEM TO SQUASH YOUR STOMACH, MOUTH AND EYEBALLS WITH IT.

YOU THIS BLOODY NORMAL HUMAN HAVE NO BLOODLY RIGHTS TO DO IT OKAY, DISGUSTING ASSHOLE.
YOU ARE JUST MAKING YOURSELF MORE POPULAR INTHE NEGATIVE WAY.

BLOODY HELL, SCREW YOU TO DEATH.
YOU WILL SUFFER IN THE FUTURE, BE PREPARED MAN.
BLOODY HELL, SHITYOU GO AND DIE AND VANISH FROM THIS WORLD LA.
THE WORLD DOESN'T NEED YOU TO KILL KITTENS OKAY.
JUST GO DIE.
GO SQUASH YOUR STOMACH, MOUTH AND EYES WITH YOUR "POWDERFUL" HIGH HEELS !

Zzz, watching this video makes me feel even worse.

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2010-01-23T09:24:00.007+08:00

何苦呢

I didn't know that it'll affect me that much ...

Irritated;

2010-01-22T21:16:00.002+08:00

Very irritated right now ...
A lot of things happened earlier ... and now it's making me feel veryveryvery sad/ disappointed/ upset.

Today's not really the day for me...
Going shopping alone tomorrow ... do some homework and off for BBQ.

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I don't really want to elaborate about today ...

I just got bloody 68 for Emath. F. Hate myself. If only I did the last page.
You changed a lot ... I really don't know what to say ... Our friendship is like drifting farther and farther ... No ...

I'm tired of Sec 3 life, I'm tired ... trying to grasp everything out of my own limits ... I'm really very tired ... I just want to give up and don't give a damn to anything anymore .............

Bye.

心烦;

2010-01-21T20:38:00.002+08:00

I feel very vexed right now, although there's practically no homework today ...
BECAUSE :
1) I haven't plan what to wear to videoshoot tmr.
2) I haven't finish memorizing my script.
3) I haven't prepare NOT to cry when Emath test result is released (which is most probably tomorrow).
4) I feel very tired.

))): VEXED.

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I don't want to blog.
The more I think about my Math the more I want to cry.

))): youknowwhoyouare, prepared to handle a crying girl tmr !!! ))):

Utter disappointment.

2010-01-20T17:01:00.003+08:00

Okay so today I'm not really happy because :
1) I'm NOT satisfied with my Biology results (80 ! I COULD HAVE GOTTEN MORE THAN THAT IF ONLY I HAVE PUT IN MORE EFFORT IN MEMORIZING OUTSIDE-TEXTBOOK THINGS ! GRH! )
2) I LEFT THE LAST PAGE OF MY MATH TEST BLANK . YES BLANK.
Whatthe!@@!$#@$#@$@# I'm so carelesssssssssssssssssssssss.
Hate myself hate myselffffffffffffffffff !!!
It already happened during End-Of-Year last year, why happen again !
BOMB AWAY MY 9 MARKS( excluding those questions which I did but don't know to solve! ) !!!
Not to mention A1, I don't even have the confidene to get a B3 ))):
Utter disappointment...

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Went home straight after school today ...
I actually planned to read some novels to brush up my English for tomorrow's test (okay la in vain to score well for it) BUT I was in this playing mood so I shall care about my homework after my brother comes home and snatch the computer from me ):

Switched on computer, and my drawing disease was back, BWAHAHAHA.
I was telling Youknowwhoyouare how I drew an ant next to a picture of termite in my Biology test ...
She called me lame ( She passed the lame-disease to me ) and out of a suddenwere drawing.
LOL.

Enjoy ~

By me.

By me.

By me.

By Youknowwhoyouare ( See her drawing makes me very depressed because she can draw such nice bunnies even without a mouse ! )

By me.

Komodo Dragon. BY ME. HAHA.

By me.

My dehydrated snake LOL.

By Youknowwhoyouare.

By Youknowwhoyouare; I think this picture is very nice :/ See make me depressed HAHA.

By me, HAHA.

Youknowwhoyouare say this looks are duck ! This is a chicken lor !

I think this looks like a rabbit :3

Pig ... And finally ...

YOUKNOWWHOYOUARE'S ZHUBAJIE. HAHAHAHA LAUGHDIEME :

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I don't know why but the more I think about my Math, the more I want to practice my english.
But the problem is, HOW DO YOU PRACTICE ENGLISH ?!
))): Sad case ...
WHY. MUST. I . ALWAYS. FLOP. MY. MATH. TESTS/ EXAMS !!! )))))): !!!

Long day out.

2010-01-18T21:36:00.003+08:00

Today's a rather long day, I guess.

Okay whatever let's treasure time and faster blog .

Morning there's school, zzz.
Amath was okay because THERE'S NO HOMEWORK (:
PE was QUITE okay, except the part where I forced myself to run and ended up seeing the world spin like mad.
Chinese was boring ~
Recess was the most exciting part of the school timetable. (:
Was mad nervous during Biology because I'm afraid that Mr Arul might bomb us with test ... BUT NO TEST YESYESYES !
Geography was okay ... Was busy making card for Youknowwhoyouare (winks).
Assembly was about discipline and CIP ... hmmmm, I hate it because it dragged my time ! -.-

Then after which, ran back home with two freaking blisters killing me, bathe, ate and ended up, meeting time was 3.10pm !
So I took my own sweet time to change, to prepare and everything. (:
End uppppppppppp !!! Late . :D

Because Youknowwhoyouare think that taking the bus would take a bloody long time to reach (insertplacehere) so we decided to cab down.
Hehe, thanks for the cab fare ah ! (:
Sat down, chitchat, met up with her friends and went up to register.
Was separated from Youknowwhoyouare ! Boohoo.
So I was toying with my phone all the while :X

When it was time for buffet, I didn't feel like getting up, because 1) NO ONE ACCOMPANY ME , and 2) Super crowded, I HATE THE CROWD.
So I still stayed there since I didn't want to eat anyway ...
Then dragged by Youknowwhoyouare to eat.
Like vegetarion lor ... Tofu, rice and vegetable...
And then Youknowwhoyouare was like : " The chicken very nice ~~~ "
SARCASTIC ! :D
After which, Youknowwhoyouare went to find her Sir, so I threw away my food (which I'm supposed to finish) and ran to the toilet.
Swallowed 6 pills at one go, PRO EH !
Aftermath, went back to ballroom, almost slept ... O.O
Stopped at 7, break till 730...
So went to toilet, was chased back and then, address from MOE and certficate giving...
Left @ 8, bused back to Choachuakang.
youknowwhoyouare's friend ( I think his voice very cute lor ) left halfway and we both bused back to Choachukang .
Hands were numb and head was very dizzy lor.
So when the bus door opened, I practically ZOOMED out.
(:
But when Youknowwhoyouare came down I was like clinging to her because I feel as though I was going to faint O.O
Afterwhich, goodbyes came and I passed her my "present".
HAHA.
Okay la, all I want you to know is, the present is not meant to agitate you or rake up your past; I just wish it'll help a lil in changing you. (:

Then homed, blogged ... SLEEPING SOON ! :D

):

2010-01-17T13:53:00.003+08:00

I feel so sad so down so bloody upset/ disappointed with my brother right now.

So what happened was that I was shivering and very hungry and I wanted food very badly but my mom will not be back until like late afternoon so I PLEADED (note hor PLEADED okay) him to help me get some food before I faint or something because all I ate was 1 piece of plain bread in the morning.
& then he refused.
I was like ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY because I was hungry and sick and bloody hell all I want was food and then I can concentrate on my studies.
BUT OH NO, I DON'T GET FOOD.
ALL I GET WAS : CONTEMPTUOUS REMARKS, SCOLDINGS.
I'm seriously sorry but F***.

Yeah la whatever maybe you all are saying that I'm bullying my own brother but think la. You shiver, you try to talk but no voice comes out, you concentrate also got problem. WOULD YOU EVEN WANT TO WALK DOWNSTAIRS AND BUY FOOD ?
Sorry la but hor I seriously no energy to entertain my own stomach.
I'd rather sleep it off and then forget about my shit Biology test which has no exact date. SOMEMORE THINGS ARE TESTED OUT OF TEXTBOOK OKAY.
I don't even know what to research lor -.-

What makes everything worse is that whenever my brother is sick I would always get super frantic and then I would do whatever he says ( when he's sick la) .
NOW, I NOT ONLY HAVE TO SUFFER FROM HIS SELFISH-NESS, I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ALL HIS BLOODY NONSENSE. (He switched on the TV in the room WHEN I'M STUDYING. Freak or what).

Whatever, I'll just eat plain bread and forget about my stomach .
Then I'll eat my medicines and sleep everything off and wake up with plain bread waiting for me on the table.
Seriously la, I'm having cough, and I still deserve at least porridge right? PLAIN BREAD FOR ALL THREE MEALS, YOU TRY LA. NOT SICK ALSO WILL BECOME SICK LOR -.-

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I’m seriously F***ED UP and I Don’t feel like studying but I have to FORCE myself to or else I’ll end up crying again.

I HATE MY WEEKENDS, I HATE SCHOOL; I HATE MY BROTHER WHO APPARENTLY DOESN’T EVEN CARE WHETHER HIS SISTER IS DEAD OR NOT.

Well, when YOU get sick, guess what I’ll do?
I’ll go downstairs, buy plain bread which can last you for all three meals.

When that happens don’t complain okay, you forced me to do it.

Officially sick.

2010-01-16T18:19:00.002+08:00

Hi, me this girl is currently, online, SICK, and after a few minutes she'll be offfffffffffff to do her Amath homework (again).

FALLING. SICK. SUCKS.

Accomplished week.

2010-01-15T20:39:00.005+08:00

This week's rather accomplished, I would say. {:
(: Although there are things that made me really unhappy but I'm still glad that there are happy pills cheering me up all this while too ^^ !

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Today I woke up rather late again though I slept early yesterday.
Why? Because I love my bed and I'm lazy to get up.
Hehheh.
But eventually I got up, coughing like some mad person.
Brushed teeth washed face, and discovered that my voice changed. O.O
Didn't care so just left for school, passed my brother's water bottle to him, and off to duty ~
Aftermath was lessons, plain boring and since it's close to weekend so teachers took the chance and BOMB (BOOMZXXZZCZXC !!! ) us with tests and homeworks.
Atrocious, all the stress is coming ):

Recessed, caught SecTwos bringing drinks up (he's even sucking the bloody drink in front of me ) .
I was having sore throat so I didn't bother to shout because I knew no voice would even come out.
So I pointed at him and took the drink away.
All his friends were like O.O and said : "Woah, step sia ..."
I'm speechless lor like seriously ! -.-
Childish play.
If I didn't have sore throat I'd have screamed right in their faces.
Sickening ~

After which was lessons again ~ boring and bombed with LOTS AND LOTS of homeworks. ))):
I seriously have nothing to say ... after one day of relaxation and it comes back ))):
Whatever ~
I SHALL STOP PROCASTINATING . (goodgirl).

Lunched, bought bubbletea and off to Science Center to attend "DNA in Forensic Science" Workshop. (:
I LOVED THE WORKSHOP.
Enriching, yet interesting.
(SUPER THUMBS UP).

Now, let the pictures do the talking, ^^ :

* I look super sucky in the photos but YOU THINK I CARE? (:

After which, went back to school, completed YGSP reflections, went upstairs to peek at NPCC a little.
I see no Ma'ams but I heard that Ma'am Nury was there. :O
Next, went back down, did some homework and HOME !!! (:
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I MISS TWOSEVEOHNINE A LOT A LOT A LOT.
When I get bored in class, I always find myself looking to my right, expecting to see Alvan screaming like mad, Zhungkiat throwing paper aeroplanes to the fast-moving fan, Weiyuan and his cliques taking brooms and chasing each other in and out of the class... But, now, they're never there. ))):

When I was sectwo, I remembered that I was frequently shouting at Weiyuan and Alvan to shut up.
But now, I WANT THEM TO COME BACK !!!
Irritating ~ I want a noisy class to a quiet and superduper dead class !!! ))):
(Pulls longlong face).
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SC meeting tomorrow, wonder what will happen. (sighs)
PLUS I NEED TO WAKE UP AT 7 ! ))):

My mum's nagging right now.
Freak super irritating ~

Whatever ~ I shall go now. BYE (:

Love and misses.

2010-01-14T20:00:00.001+08:00

I'm back ! ^^
In a happy mood rightnowrightnow !!! ^^
Majorly because, there's only one homework today!
& the homework's simple la, I settled it in less than 1 minute. (:
So now basically I'm freeeeeeeee (except from copying biology notes which is not necessary at all ).
Also because ... there's YGSP tomorrow, can't wait !
Butttttt, I'm dreading the theory part :/

&& OHOH !!! I saw SuperJunior's family message ! It's so touching ~ .
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Despite being happy there are still things that pull that "HAPPINESS" down ...
1) I think it's really over ... Maybe I should just like, really learn to let go.
2) I'm in desperate in for : MONEY (!!!), new wallet, new purse, new school bag, new bag, and new pencil case !!! And all these need MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!
3) I HAVEN'T EVEN BUY MY CNY CLOTHES YETTTTTTTTTT !!! Not,Even,A,Single,Piece !!!
4) My Scholarhip will come only at the 24th !!! -.- That's only when my money comes in ... BUT LIKE WHAT? 2 WEEKS TO SHOP FOR CNY CLOTHES ?!

Whatever ~~~
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Okay la, shall blog about today ...

Woke up @ 6.30am, but only got up and brushed teeth etcetc at 6.55am !!!
Lateeeeeeeeeeeee for duty. (: (I don't even have duty lor ! HAHA )
Then lessons, zzz !
Paid attention all the while ! Goodgirl !!! ^^

Anyway during chemistry practical I poured too much water into the beaker, boiled it, and how water flew out ~
Everyone in the class was like : "OHHHHHH ~"
LaughOutLoud !
I was laughing also, like totally unaware of the dangers lor HAHA !!!
Recessed, and then ENGLISH !
Went through a song, learn influential skills.
& then, next was, slack through CharacterEdu. !
HOHO.
Then it was Geog.
Homework all the way since Mrs Ram wants us to complete our mindmap.
^^

Then school ended, SAC !!!
Sleepy at first, so kept on thinking about things.
Swtched off my phone, close my eyes, and then switched on my handphone again.
HAHA.

Texted texted, then Shireen hid Jingxuan and my bag !
Itellyou, I WAS DAMN MAD AND ANGRY LOR !
So when Jingxuan was carrying shireen's bag( In great attempt to hide it ) , I unzipped her bag, and dragged everything out ^^
All her sweets, earpiece and (GIRLSTUFFS) flew out ! (:
I grabbed her ipod, ran into counselling room , and hid it inside the secret compartment of the blazers ^^
YAY.

So she returned our bags, I still kept her in suspense.
Her face like totally change lor ! (HAHA PLAY LOR PLAY SOMEMORE ! (: )

HAHA.
(:
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HOHO.
I miss 2/7'09.

Super Junior's family message :

Leeteuk: In the past, we have always had activities separately.Many have expressed their unhappiness about it. But I always tell my fans, we have 13 members and will only have 13. This determination must be present within us.SJ is our house.
A house will not leave behind or forget any member. Although this house is not big, but everyone one of us need you.

Heechul: We have many members, there are many times where we are apart, but i hope we can cherish the times we spend together.Even if there’s only a minute.Even if we are so busy that we are unable to meet.I still hope the members can enjoy the happy times together and comfort each other during hard times.

Hangeng: Its been 7/8 years since our members have been together, since trainee days. we cared for each other ,received awards, go through tough times and cried together. There are many things that I’m sorry as well as grateful for towards our members.I have never said this before. But i really want to thank the members, who have always been by my side no matter what. And I’m really sorry for not being there during difficult times.

Yesung: The past have already passed. Everything will start afresh.We shall not forget that we are Super Junior’s members. We are a family.

Kangin: I don’t wish to think what will become of us in the future or how long more can we be together. Once i think about it, I’ll feel very sad. But no matter what happens in the future, separation, or not being an artist, I wish I can tell others, these are my family members, we are Super Junior.

Shindong: I kept thinking that it was because I couldn’t fit in, I can leave Super Junior. But come to think of it, although there might be this determination, but it is impossible to leave and forget about everything. The members who have always been worried about me. The worried members who called back from China upon knowing that I was on diet.Then did i know my thought of leaving is not being good to them but just pure selfishness.I wish to stay by your side…and a Suju member that does not embarrass the group.

Sungmin: I’ve always felt that Super Junior is a group that causes one to feel tired easily. Hence, I’ve been jealous of DBSK sometimes because they can have activities together without leaving anyone behind. But i still think our group is the best! Although we often have activities separately, but during introductions, we will always say I am Super Junior’s XXX . This is the best moment.

Eunhyuk: I’ve always been thinking, what exactly can i do? Other than dance and rap, what can i give the members? How lucky am I, the not so special me, to always get introduced to others by the members proudly. Thank you our members. No other words or emotions can express my gratitude towards you.

Donghae: Others told me : I trust and love you. This is what i want to tell our members now. The members who tolerate whatever mistakes I’ve made.The hyungs who have been like a father to me.I love you.Forever.To me, you are my family who’ll never change or leave me.

Siwon: When we are promoting in China, it is very tiring, and i really miss the members in Korea.However, regardless if it is M or H, there is a SJ in front. whenever i think about it, it makes me feel as if the members have always been together.

Ryeowook: When we go China, the fans will always raise huge placards.There are also Suju ones.Whenever I see these placards,I will start counting our members, from 1 to 13.When I reach 13, it feels as if the members are together again. I always believe, being apart is only a matter of time. We will definitely return and be by their side again.

Kibum: Although I seldom attend activities with the members, including 3jib, therefore there are many times where people ask me: are you a member of SJ? I’ve never been able to express how apologetic I am to the members.Compared to other forms of addresses, Super Junior is still my favourite. Although I’m unable to be on the stage with the members, my heart is still with our 12 members. Please believe me.

Kyuhyun: China fans wrote a sentence on the pearl sapphire blue sea photo. If one day, the world betrays Super Junior, ELFs will betray the whole world too.I’ve always been thinking, what did we do to deserve such love from them. But come to think of it now, it is not just for me, but for our 13 members. Though we were often separated, the members who have never stopped working hard for this team called super junior, THANK YOU!

SuperJunior, I'm glad all of you care for one another, love !
AJA AJA , SARANGHAE . (:

Stop.

2010-01-13T22:53:00.001+08:00

你可以不要这样了吗…
命运对你找成的折磨, 辛酸, 我知道是没人能体会的…
可是你知知道你在伤关心你的人的心吗?
-

放开心怀, 周围的人都在关心你, 保护你, 你没什么好怕的…
勇敢的, 踏出第一步, 每个人都在你后面支持你, 鼓励你…
加油, 我的朋友 …
我会一直在你后面支持你的…

Escaping reality ...

2010-01-13T20:52:00.002+08:00

I haven't been posting in a while ...

Woke up with super bad mood...
Only cheered up completely when I was in SAC today when joking with the evil CAREBEAR Clare !!! :D
Laugh until I stomachache lor !
Mouth numb, butt numb, stomach numb siah !!! Ohmytianz.

Okay la... So in conclusion, I finally made out what is Clare ...
Please scroll down. (:

DOWN LA

DOWN MORE AND MORE !!! ^^

CLAREBARE ( CAREBEAR).
Eh, pink blusher, green eyeshadow, plus super big earrings hor !!!
Make up is not cheap okay !!!
Need $9999999999999 polardollars lor !!!

No need to eat me okay ^^, I'm a fish who lives in a fishtank, not in the Arctic. (:
xDDD

Okay byebye .

& to Youknowwhoyouare : YOU HOR, BETTER STOP BEING EMO HOR ... WE LIKE 1 WEEK NEVER REALLY CRAP UNTIL LAUGH ALREADY LOR !!! YOUKNOWORNOT !!! VERY SAD SIA )));

一千个伤心的理由

2010-01-11T21:07:00.001+08:00

爱过的人我已不再拥有
许多故事有伤心的理由
这一次我的爱情
等不到天长地久
错过的人是否可以回首

爱过的心没有任何讲求
许多故事有伤心的理由
这一次
我的爱情等不到天长地久
走过的路再也不能停留

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后我的爱情
在故事里慢慢陈旧

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后在别人的故事里
我被遗忘

爱过的心没有任何请求
许多故事有伤心的理由
这一次我的爱情
等不到天长地久
走过的路再也不能停留

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后我的爱情
在故事里慢慢陈旧

一千个伤心的理由
一千个伤心的理由
最后在别人的故事里
我被遗忘

Youknowwhoyouare and to my deardeardear clique, I want you to do what I did to this post, cancelcancelcancel all negative thoughts. (:
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Okay la random, post below (:

6th.

2010-01-11T15:39:00.003+08:00

6th day in school. AND STILL NOT ADAPTING.

Whatever ~

So my bloody PMS came today and AS EXPECTED, CRAMP LIKE SHIT OKAY -.-
As first it wasn't so bad, but during Geography it got so pain I was making super scary noises okay !
I almost cried and fainted in Geography class -.-
IT IS SO PAIN LOR !!! OKAYOKAYOKAY !!!
It was pain BUT I had nothing to pinch and bite on so I crushed my Geography notes !
Now, my Geography are all CRAP, crushed !!!
Idiot -.-
Then it got so bad that my whole body cramped together with my stomach as well.
NICE. -.-
My whole body was literally SHAKING.
SHAKING ALL OVER.
And at that point of time I received youknowwhoyouare's message BUT I was shaking sooooooooo terribly that I don't even have the energy to press the unlock button on my phone ! -.-

Then it got so bad that Shiheng and Angeline accompanied me to the Sickbay.(THANKSAMILLION !)
Lied down, felt better immediately.
Called my mum, and continued texting people with my shaking hands.
Terrible man.
(Recalls January 2008 when I got sent into the sickbay because of cramps too ).
(Shrugs).
PMS, I hate youuuuuuuuu !!!

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Sighs, I better start on my Amath homework OR ELSE my mother is going to ban me from computerrrrrrrr tonight. ):
Then I must waste my money texting youknowwhoyouare you know !!!
(P/S; It's not about the money, but because I hate pressing my phone ! Because it's lag ^^. )

WILL BE BACK AT NIGHT (If nothing happens).

P/S; MY POOR GEOG NOTES AHHHHHHHHHHHH !!! ):

Edited @ 8.41pm.
MY MENSTRUAL CRAMPS ISSSSSSS BACKKKKKKKKKKKKK , HATE ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!

Dying soon.

2010-01-10T19:07:00.003+08:00

I AM GOING TO DIE FROM ALL THE BIOLOGICAL TERMS WHICH I DON'T UNDERSTAND. I'M DEAD TOMORROW MAN. I'M TIRED, I WANT TO REST, BUT ALL THESE CRAP ARE STOPPING ME ! (URGH) . IT'S REALLY GETTING ON MY NERVES.

Okay dangz, I seriously give up on the "Theory on chloroplasts and mitochondria (with relations with ATP molecules)" part of my Biology homework.
Eh, at least I know (roughly) what is histone, cytoskeleton and the difference between eukaryotic and prokaryotic cells okay !!!

Now my eyes are hurting from the glaring screen. ):

Sometimes I wonder whether I had chosen the wrong class ...
I mean like, I chose Biology than Physics because I loved it more but now ... I'm regretting a little, just a LITTLE.
I mean, I used to lvoe Biology a lot.
Seriously like one HUGE lot.
But now ... after the change of teachers, I cannot absorb my Biology facts as well anymore.
Mr Arul is very different from Mdm Aishah.
Mdm Aishah teaches in class from textbooks... But Mr Arul likes to take us around and see things for ourselves. And of course, we have to be very dependent on our learning.
If you want to know something, find it on the Internet.
Which apparently, I don't understand a single SHIT at all.
I mean, I was never dependent in my learning. SOME-ONE MUST COACH ME.
Or else I'll die a very terrble death.
So ... Well, I'm not adapting well @ the start of 2010 :/.

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Ohmytianz, youknowwhoyouare just surprise me with a chuck of notesssss. I lioke ^^
At least I'll have to struggle less on the Internet liao lor.
If I continue on the Internet I seriously don't know what will happen man.
:/

Oh well, I want to thanks Youknowwhoyouare's best friend and youknowwhoyouare la of course.
HOHO, I am a lucky lil girl. TEEHAHA.
(K)(K)(K) . Lovedieyouuuuuuuuuuuuuu !
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Okay bye, if there's no homework tomorrow (yeah right dream on) then I'll post tomorrow.

Don't miss me too much alright ! Hahaha.

Edited @ 8.12pm.
You helped me sooooo much yet I cannot do anything to help you with your work. Guilty, much.

Heart-breaking.

2010-01-09T20:14:00.003+08:00

Youknowwhoyouare broke my heart lor ! ))))))))))))))))):
She's online now and she still doesn't want to talk to me !
She's petty and I'm petty soooooooo no one's talking ! ))))):

I'm angry with her because she assumed that I taught Chiahsuan bad things when I'm teaching Chiahsuan how to convert files !
& I SAID I'M NOT GOING TO TALK TO HER TONIGHT !!! ))))):
Break my heart only lor her ... D:

I still remembered when she faked angry with me I was there : "Sorrysorrysorry ! " to her lor (although I know she fake BUT AT LEAST I bothered to talk to her lor !!!) .
Now she completely ignoring me , not knowing that I have opened her window waiting for orange light to blink lor !!!
DDD: ! Faster talk la you ! (I know you are going to be the first one looking at this okay ! Don't fake. )

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Today's SATURDAY and I'm VERYVERYVERY happy because I don't have to stay up for homework ! I LIKE ! ^^
But that means that I have to complete the rest of my homework tomorrow. (sighs).
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I'm still angry at youknowwhoyouare !!!
So I'm gonna reveal who she is .
I know all of you are waiting for this la ...
Be patient okay ... I shall go upload her photo now ^^

Okay I'm done ...

Youknowwhoyouare is actually ...

is actually ...

is actually ...

scroll down more la !

She is actually ...

A SOTONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay la lame !
If you want to know the real her hor, happy waiting okay ^^
Unless she allows, I will not reveal who she is. (:

P/S youknowwhoyouare: Did your heart pop out? (:
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Today's boring.
Nothing to elaborate about actually...

So... byebye !