Monday, 31 December 2012.
Let go, let God.

谢谢，回忆。我决定。。走了。
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 1:06 am

Sunday, 30 December 2012.
长大后，发现世界，真的不一样.

How many times have I told myself that all that don't matter? What made me so confident that my heart was perfectly well conditioned and guarded against even the worst form of scenarios?

Many nights I found myself lying on my bed trying to figure out what people are thinking; why they would act in a certain way... And if they do things that are undesirable to me, what would I do and react to prevent my heart from breaking. In my mind I've formulated thousand and one kinds of worst case scenarios that could ever happen to me in any aspects of my life. I thought I was ready and strong enough.

Yet when I saw all that, my heart completely sank. Completely.


And it only goes to show how much it matters to me.

Who am I trying to kid? I take words in too easily. I'm weak and I just break down in front of anyone who asks about my struggle. And once that happens, I just foolishly take it that that person really cares.

Talk about being just all curious or, put it in a uglier manner, nosy.

Honesty, I expected a lot more from you. But I guess all those were just written in a moment of folly.

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Dear God, no matter how silent You remain in this area of my life, I'm just gonna cling on to You.


Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 12:41 am