Monday, 15 August 2011.
Hurts so bad.

You know the times when reality feels like a sweet dream and those days all you do is to anticipate the arrival of the next day because reality was better than your dreams?

I miss those times.

I have never thought I'd land into a plight like this, becoming a victim in relationships. Being fed with lies all the while but totally oblivious to it.

But life's just like this isn't this? Faulting at the wrong time, falling in love at the wrong time.... This is really tormenting, but come to think of it, who can I look for? Those who promised to be there, those who promised they will stay forever ... Eventually left one by one. Even you.

I know I have to be strong, I have to be positive, I can't bury myself in pessimism forever.. However, it is impossible to recover in such a short span of time, especially when my national oral exam is just 3 days away and my Prelims start just next week.

I have no one but myself to blame. Blame myself for growing too dependent on you. Now that you left without a single word, I'm here rereading all those letters you left just months ago.......

Well, feelings fade, emotions die and time heals ... Now that your life is smoothsailing than it get ever get, I am forgotten. I was the one you changed you, I was the one who bled to save you. Now? You recovered ... and I am left here to die.

Had never cried this bad, fuck everything, 2011 suck
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 3:41 pm