Saturday, 9 October 2010.
Happiness.

"If you're trapped between your feelings & what other people think is right.. always go for whatever makes you happy." - @TheLoveStories #TLS

No, it's an impossible task; especially when that particular thing makes the other party sad although you're happy. That defeats the purpose, doesn't it?

It's all about forking out willingly, Yuhui. Forking out and sacrificing everything at no cost, and expecting nothing back in return. Not even slight happiness. Yes, you're willing to give up everything for that person; but that doesn't mean the other party have to do that too. Because remember, you forked out willingly from the start. No one forced you.

Now, all I can do is fake a smile and pretend that I'm happy, extremely happy, with life. I don't wanna to be somebody I'm not; but the consequences of being sad threatens me to be happy.

Yuhui is a happy girl, a happy optimistic strong girl who's able to tackle everything. Even if everything is messed up and ruined, I'll clean up and say it's perfect, covering the flaws. Even if a porcelain plate is broken, I'll find all measures to glue it back and use it again, thinking that it's condition is still as perfect as it was. Even if a doll is torn, with all it's cotton flying all over the place, I'll stuff dust into it and it'll still be my greatest companion. Even if perfect truth turns out to be a facade, I'll be the only dumb one floating in that truth.

Yeah, that's why I'm happy. Almost all the time. And I'm enjoying bits of it.
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 2:37 pm