Saturday, 7 August 2010.
070810;

I can't believe what happened earlier on.

I'm currently sitting in my quiet living room, hearing my ceiling stir, letting my thoughts run with a messy pile of Social Studies notes scattered all over my table. Admist everything, I still can't believe that I cried like 15 minutes ago, and that crying moment was totally random.

Having a fulfilling dinner with plain soup (accompanied with stir-fried bittergour with no egg), I feel rather ... okay. Texted my Panda sister, played Angry Birds on my brother's iTouch, and bathed. Then suddenly, I remembered that Biology's Individual Project assignment is due after my 4 days holiday. What a mood spoiler. Took it out, and placed it back into my orange file, trying to convince myself that's there enough time tomorrow. then I slowly recalled: Wow, Biology test and Amath Trigo test (I don't know when !) after my holiday too. Joke of the day.

I spent my entire day packing all my subject files, and my general file feel so light now *delighted*.

Went on to Social Studies. I realised I haven't copy my notes from Lynn when I was away for SYFOC training. Copying and copying and texting Panda (who was entertaining her just-given-birth boss) ... Suddenly it came. Moodswings. It was totally random, I've never expected it to come. Checking the time; 2154.
Panda: "What you doing wor?"
Me: "SS notes lor ... Going to die already."
Panda: "Haha :).. Ok jiayou! You sleep I pig." ("You sleep I pig" means, I'll wait for you to finish your work and we'll sleep at the same time.)

Feeling moody, I plugged earpiece into my ears, playing "感动天感动地”. My moodswings turned worse. With desperate measures ...

Me: "Idk why but I wanna wait for my father to come back ley .. 2 plus ... Haha you go sleep first bah .."

After several minutes, she didn't reply anymore. Hopefully she's sleeping soundly, dreaming of her Boss or her favourite past times ...

Then it came. While listening to songs I broke down and tears just gushed out. Reasons : I don't know. Feelings were pretty entangled earlier on, and after drying all my tears, I controlled my emotions ... & I'm feeling much better now.

How random can I get at times huh. Needa find ways to block those scary monsters from haunting my mind ...

I know this post is random but ... Let me cool down more before heading back to Social Studies.

Sorry panda, it was a lie to tell you that I was going to stay up till 2. But I know how scary your mood can swing especially when I started moodswinging. Sorry, tomorrow will be a better day !
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 11:01 pm