Friday, 26 February 2010.
Tired week 1 + tired week 2 = Super tired me .

This week's even worse than last week.
Now it's not just training + studying = sleep late . It's training ending at 7+pm every day + test week + sleep super late + no appeitite + stress = EXHAUSTED ME + DISAPPOINTING RESULTS + DISAPPOINTMENTS IN MYSELF + CRYING WHEN I ENCOUNTER SOMETHING DISAPPOINTING ...

I'm not supposed to complain, I know. But I can't help to. People always say, "When you get to the end of the rope, tie a knot, and hang on." I'm hanging on. It's the rope that's going to break.

I shall not complain any further. I WILL NOT BE SELFISH. All these WILL benefit me.
忍一时，风平浪静，推一步,海阔天空。。。
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This week's marks the start of my 2nd test. I hardly have the time to study, thus resulting in super disappointing results. Initially I took it lighty, but after more disappointing events start to wreck my havoc, I can't help but break down and cry. I know I'm super useless, crying over stupid things. I tried. I really tried. but I couldn't hold it back.

Whatever. I will not do it anymore. Dumb shit.
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For this entire week, I have been sleeping after 12 mignight every day, thus receiving only a maximum of 6 hours sleep per day. Ha, of course my digestive system starts to break out another war ... No appeitite for dinner almost everyday. However I still tried to eat some tidbits okay !
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Tomorrow's the campcraft competition ... I don't know why but I'm very scared. Just that bloody 1 minute to PASS . 1 minute ! 60 seconds !

After all my trainings, I came to realise that, I'm always the one causing the time drag. It's either me who:
1) Forgets to grab my manila helpm properly, thus causing the flag pole to drop. It almost hit people. Useless.
2) Forgets to step on my peg, thus causing the whole peg to fly out. & I mean really FLY out from the ground. How stupid can I get like seriously. Time waster, useless being.
3) Fails to pull tightly. Others can pull until the whole thing turns tight. I can't. Why? Cause I'm useless. Fullstop.
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As you can see, I'm good in nothing though I'm a position holder. Everything flops, no matter how much effort I give in to try to change the ending. But it always turns out . Yes, disappointing. Disappointments after disappointments ... Bad grades, unable to cope with stress, failing to spread out my work evenly among my committee.
How useless can I get like seriously. I brought everything upon myself SO I SHALL AND WILL NOT COMPLAIN . ANYMORE.
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I'm tired. I'm nervous. But I ain't going to care. I shall let nature takes its course. Byebye.
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 9:18 pm