Sunday, 3 January 2010.
Mouth excercise.

我的天啊 !
我不懂为什么我将早醒啊 !
真是的!
我很累耶!
我要睡觉睡觉睡觉; 可是我睡不着睡不着睡不着!
现在才7.40AM 啊大家!
每个睡得像猪一样, 可是我不可以!

P/S; 我觉得我的华语还写得挺烂的! -.-

我现在要常识回去睡觉了 !!!
我晚上回来再POST吧 !
厉害咧!

Okay la WHATEVER my chinese seriously cannot make it already lor !
Machiam P4 standard siah … Mygod.

WILL BE BACK AT NIGHT (:

& youknowwhoyouare ah ~ faster go create blog ley … Then when I have nothing to do I can go stalk Your blog . (laughs).

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I feel very sad and miserable @ the earlier part of the day ...
Becauseeeeee before I had my nap something happened which made meeeeee damn mad and pissedddddddddd.
So when my super irritating brother fought for the computer, I went to bed crying myself to sleep.

& when I was having my nap, I dreamt that my Great-Grandma pass away ...
It was a scary moment. A REAL SCARY ONE.
& then when I woke up I just cried .
Slient crying laaa, I don't dare to burst out crying.

Since I have this dream, let me take this chance to tell you about my relationship with my 101 year old Great-Grandma...
My Great-Grandma lives in Malaysia.
I still vididly remember that EVERY SINGLE year of Chinese New Year, my whole family (inclusive of my Grandma and three cousins and my uncle and aunt) would make a trip down to Malaysia to visit her.
When I was young, her condition still aren't that bad, she still can walk around the house, and even whip up a sumptuous meal for everyone .
Everytime we visit her, she would carry this really happy smile aroundddddd, she never fails to ...
& then, my parents stopped visiting her. I don't know why. When I asked they always replied with a "SIAN" and then just shrug it off. I really don't understand. Now it's only my cousin's family who's visiting her.
I still remembered all her food tasted great. I mean REALLY great for a 90++ (now she's 101) year old person. Her food is also great for a person who cannot see properly and has a bit of walking disabilities.
I also remembered how she would try to pick out meat and vegetable for me and my cousins. But because she do not have a very great eyesight, she'll end up picking out things like garlic and shallots into our bowl. I know it's gross to a certain extent but I love her caring heart. That moment was really heartwarming ...

Then the thing I least expected happened.
I visited her last year, and she was lying on bed, she totally can't move.
She just lied there ... she's not even herself anymore.
When she saw us, she pleaded her helper to carry her into her wheelchair. She couldn't recognise anyone ... not even my grandma, her own daughter.
It was pretty saddening but I managed to hold back my tears.


The dream I had really set me thinking.
What happened if my Great-Grandma really pass away?
I know we aren't on very close terms, but I still respect her and I cannot deny that I often miss our memories together.

Why are human like this?
They only learn how to appreciate things only when they're gone...
I hate myself being like this.
I've always taken things for granted... and when it's gone... I find myself crying and tearing apart.
After these lessons I would always tell myself : You have to start learning to appreciate things before they are gone...
& then before I know anything I'll start taking things for granted again... be it parents, class, friends...
Humans never learn.

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I should stop this. I don't want to cry somemore.

And to add it on there are more unfortunate people outside there ...
For example; youknowwhoyouare. (I'm sorry ... )

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Caught up with KohChiaHsuan today.
Was happy. (:
She was laughing like mad when I told her our flag stuff only managed to raise after 40 minutes . Ha. (she's a scout bythewayyyyy)


Shall stop here, school's tomorrowwwwww. I'm not ready ... Oh well. (shrugs)
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 7:36 am