Sunday, 17 January 2010.
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I feel so sad so down so bloody upset/ disappointed with my brother right now.

So what happened was that I was shivering and very hungry and I wanted food very badly but my mom will not be back until like late afternoon so I PLEADED (note hor PLEADED okay) him to help me get some food before I faint or something because all I ate was 1 piece of plain bread in the morning.
& then he refused.
I was like ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY because I was hungry and sick and bloody hell all I want was food and then I can concentrate on my studies.
BUT OH NO, I DON'T GET FOOD.
ALL I GET WAS : CONTEMPTUOUS REMARKS, SCOLDINGS.
I'm seriously sorry but F***.

Yeah la whatever maybe you all are saying that I'm bullying my own brother but think la. You shiver, you try to talk but no voice comes out, you concentrate also got problem. WOULD YOU EVEN WANT TO WALK DOWNSTAIRS AND BUY FOOD ?
Sorry la but hor I seriously no energy to entertain my own stomach.
I'd rather sleep it off and then forget about my shit Biology test which has no exact date. SOMEMORE THINGS ARE TESTED OUT OF TEXTBOOK OKAY.
I don't even know what to research lor -.-

What makes everything worse is that whenever my brother is sick I would always get super frantic and then I would do whatever he says ( when he's sick la) .
NOW, I NOT ONLY HAVE TO SUFFER FROM HIS SELFISH-NESS, I HAVE TO PUT UP WITH ALL HIS BLOODY NONSENSE. (He switched on the TV in the room WHEN I'M STUDYING. Freak or what).

Whatever, I'll just eat plain bread and forget about my stomach .
Then I'll eat my medicines and sleep everything off and wake up with plain bread waiting for me on the table.
Seriously la, I'm having cough, and I still deserve at least porridge right? PLAIN BREAD FOR ALL THREE MEALS, YOU TRY LA. NOT SICK ALSO WILL BECOME SICK LOR -.-

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I’m seriously F***ED UP and I Don’t feel like studying but I have to FORCE myself to or else I’ll end up crying again.

I HATE MY WEEKENDS, I HATE SCHOOL; I HATE MY BROTHER WHO APPARENTLY DOESN’T EVEN CARE WHETHER HIS SISTER IS DEAD OR NOT.

Well, when YOU get sick, guess what I’ll do?
I’ll go downstairs, buy plain bread which can last you for all three meals.

When that happens don’t complain okay, you forced me to do it.
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 1:53 pm