Wednesday, 1 April 2009.
"You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without."

Rant, rant and continue ranting:

I'm not angry with you, I'm just disappointed.
What's the problem with counting the CIP money during inspection when I've finished doing my work?
What's the problem with chit-chatting a little bit after finish doing my work?
What's the problem with taking just a little break by lying your head on the table after I've finsihed doing my work?
What's the problem with doing stuffs after I've finished doing my work?
I know professors' position are big.
But, at the same time, I know that their attitude are worse than us.
Don't joke about.
I've seen thousand of lecturers/professors from SAFMC, from YGSP, from schools, from a lot of places.
I've seen professors carrying SMILES even though they're super pissed off and complain their head off after workshops.
I've seen them.
Don't believe, from people from YGSP.

Do you know how tired is it for us?
Burning the midnight oil for homework for presentations, for projects, for revisions ...
& when you really can't take it, you're only left with two troublesome choices: either to sleep without completing your homework, or to take breaks between intervals in school.
It's tiring you know.
Teenagers should get 8 hours of sleep PER DAY.
But do we get the opportunity?
NO.
Projects after projects.
After the chinese projects, we have the hang-glider projects.
After the hang-glider projects, we have Art projects.
After Art projects, we have the PE projects.
It's like, no breaks at all.
When my father asks me out for bowling during weekends, I always can't 'cause of projectsprojectsprojects homeworkhomeworkhomework.
It's so stressful already, and over one small inspecting, you scold us, like you're going to cry anytime.
I'm numb already seriously.
I'm seriously disappointed.

You called us to write reflections.
& delibrately read everything out, and told us you're going to hand everything to teachers, emphasizing the fact that you shouldn't be counting your money during lessons and chit-chatting.
It's not like we're shouting across the room.
It's not like the professor is staring at ONLY ME.
It's not like I haven't finished doing my homework.
I have finished my homework.
I understand every single thing that Mr Sony said, or else I wouldn't be writting in such a detail matter.
I did every single homework and excercise that he called us to do.
So what's the problem, fussing over COUNTING MONEY and CHIT-CHATTING in front of a PROFESSOR when it's clear that I'VE FINISHED MY WORK.
It's stressful, streaming streaming streaming.
Subjects are important.
You must buck up; you don't want to go combined science.
You must get over (inserts mark here).
No failures this time round.
You're from an express class, and this level of work is atrocious!
Yeayea, expectations are soooo high.
It's not our attitude changing - it's school that had made us change.
You can't blame us for being rude/sucky/stupid/hot-tempered when we're stressed up.

We hope that we can just faint and sleep like there's no tomorrow, there's no school.
But every morning, when I hear the alarm, I feel like smashing it FLAT.
But in the end, I struggle to go to school, I struggle to listen in all the lessons, I struggle to top in every single test, I struggle for at least double science.
I struggle for this, I struggle for that.
It's really stressful you know.
I know, you've been a student before.
You sleep at 11pm and wake up at 6am.
But, did you ever thought, not everyone can adapt?
I need to sleep in order for my brain to funstion properly.
I need to sleep in order to prevent a throbbing headache from taking over my energy and liveliness.
I need to sleep in order to prevent myself from falling sick.
I dread falling sick, I don't get care in home at all.
All I get is a visit to the doctor, and being left alone in home with medicine and I'm all so weak to even move.
So I can just only sleepsleepsleep my way through.
I feel like getting up, get my stupid idiotic projects and homework done, and sleep peacefully without the word " PROJECTS " and "HOMEWORK" in my head.

Everyone sleeps.
& what I did was just getting myself a little break after I've finished my work.
What's wrong with it.
My SC vice-president sleeps in class too.
They can't take it, so what's wrong with me sleeping too?
*Sighs*
You all just can't understand, can you?

I hate this.
I hate everything.
How I wish I can get away, away from this, away from everything, away from this.

I'm dead tomorrow.
Mdm Aishah's gonna scold me.
I can feel it now.

So wish everything can overturn and turn out to be good.



Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 5:45 pm