Sunday, 11 January 2009.
That feeling's back.

Yes, that sickening feeling's back.
It's sickening and idiotic and I don't want to feel it, bother it, or even look at ----- right in the face to remind me of ---.
I hate this kind of feeling, sweet in the start, and when it continues for a few months, you go crazy over --- and then get more and more miserable when you know you can never see --- again.
Sickening, I hate this feeling.
Can I be numb for just a single minute?
Yes, I'm currently liking you for no single reason and I hate it.
I hate myself, I HATE MYSELFFFFFF!
I don't know why, but when I had that chat with you that day, I knew I cannot resist anymore.
Maybe I'm just going for your looks, but, I'm sure that, that's not the case.
So well, today's Sunday and I'm currently rotting with tons of homework for me to complete.
I want to see --- but on another hand, I don't want to see ---.
'Cause, I don't want to go deeper and deeper, again.
Crushing on someone and loving someone, is something I wouldn't be able to commit in my whole entire life.
Once, is enough.
I don't wanna repeat.


;& I want to go out and scream his name out loud, hoping that he'll be gone from my mind, forever.

Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 9:36 am