Friday, 17 October 2008.

I hate this feeling.
This feeling of insecureness, this thought that everyone is gonna leave me behind.
I hate this kind of feeling,
considering the fact that hitory is actually taking place again.
I hate it.
But I can't do anything.
Why?
Why must all this happen?
Oh f---.
I'm not mentioning his/her name here,
but close friends should know who that person is.
Grhh.
I hate everything.
Why must there be history?
Why must history happen?
Why must all this bad luck downcast on me once again?
Oh god, I'm making everything so obvious.
But I don't care,
I'm stating the truth.
The true fact.
The horrifying true fact.
I hate this.
I don't want this feeling.
I don't want this to happen all over again.
Because we don't have much time left.
Whatthef---.
I don't feel like solving any more of this conflicts.
Because everything is sucha waste of time.
I'd rather rot away than to have this kind of feeling all over again.
Maybe death's better than all of this.
I hate it.
So what if we really changed?
Does it matter anyway?
Nothing matters anymore.
I want to be carefree,
problem-less.
Go through this holiday,
& say byebye to you.
So everything don't matter.
Don't matter ANYMORE.
Maybe it's my fault, but you have to be pratly responsible for all of this.
I'm tired.
I don't want to carry on.
I don't want this to happen.
I cannot emphasise how freaking tired I am now (as in, mental-tireness).
I really don't want to carry on with this.
So what if I'm still counting?
Do you matter anyway?
No.
You may find me accusing you,
but you are partly responsible.
That's a true fact.

Time is short.
Go for your dreams.
Go for your future.
All the best in everything.
& farewell in advance.
Thank you for everything.
Thankyouthankyou.

You may choose not to read the above message.
Because it's nothing important (:

Now, quiz timeeeeee (:
100 question.
Ohmygod.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.
B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse.These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.
C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Sabotage:
1. Amelia
2. Sweeying
3. Lianling
4. Yuanting
5. Liyee
6. Angeline
7. Chiahsuan
8. Hayati

01.What have you been doing recently?
-Rotting at home.

02. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
-Hardly ever, unless hang or no battery.

03. What happened at 10.00am today?
-Feeling like sleeping during duty.

04. When did you last cry?
-Last tuesday. I can foresee that I'm gonna break down again next tuesday.

05. Believe in fate/destiny?
-Maybe? But it's always so horrifying, so terrible. Happening in a way you don't want.

06. What do you want in your life right now?
-Get 100 for Science. Prettypretty PLEASEEEEE.

07. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
-I don't have the habit of bringing an umbrealla.

08. What's your favourite thing to have on your bed?
-Blanket.

09. What bottom are you wearing now?
-Black shorts. Like duh?

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
-I don't think I've any.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
-Some, I do. While others, I don't. Sometimes I become very paranoid and begin imagining things.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
-I don't wear things given from other people, unless it's things like earrings, shoes, blah.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
-Money no enough?

14. What are you proud of?
-My friends & sometimes, my results, but not this time.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
-Really must say? "The write-up not accept leh, must rewrite". Like diao.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
-I wanted you. This song brings so much thought.

17.Do you have any nicknames?
-No way, I wouldn't allow that!

18. What does your last received text message say?
-Yeah, tell me if they have reply.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
-Like 12a.m.? I can't sleep.

20. Are you currently happy?
-No, I'm not happy at all. I want the secureness back.

21. Who gives you best advice?
-My super genius mind ;X. Hmmm, I don't know.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
-Eeee. Don't make me throw my dinner out from my stomach.

23. Who did you talk on phone last night?
-Nopes.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
-Yes, read my blockquote if you choose to.

25. What/who was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
-Chuxuan, Shiheng & Janice. Janice suddenly becames Idontknow... friendlier?

26. Do you wear toe socks?
-Nopes. I hate it.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
-Chuxuan in KC's house.

28. Have you ever had your heartbroken?
-OFCOURSE.

29. What annoys you most in a person?
-Ignorance. I hate friends who leave me alone.

30. Do you have a crush on anyone?
-Right now or in the past? In the past, I do. Now, I don't even think about boys.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
-Huh? Blurssss

32. What is the colour of your room?
-White and brown.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollar?
-No. Ofcourse not. But if it's an never-ending amount, I would.

34. Do you believe in the saying of :"talk is cheap?"
-Friends' talk are NOT CHEAP. They are expensive.

35. Who was the last person to lie in your bed?
-Myself? I don't let other people to sleep on my beloved bed.

36. Who was the last person to hug you?
-Chuxuan laopo (:

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
-Too bad, my first kiss is still here.

38. Do you have a life?
-Wapiang eh, what kind of question is this?

39. Have you ever think someone died, when they really didnt die?
-YES! Bleahs.

40. What is the reason behind your profile song?
-Hmmm. I don't know. I just love "I wanted you" because it brings back so much bad memories and I don't why I like listenin to it.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
-I don't know?

42. Last time you smiled?
-At school. I hardly smile at home.

43. Have you changed this year?
-Ofcourse. I've turned crazier.

44. What are you listening right now?
-Television.

45. Are you talking to someone when you doing this?
-No.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
-Stupid idiot. Ofcourse with my eyes opened!

47. Is there a quote you live by?
-YES. Persevere till this world ends.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
-Yes. My friends(:

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
-Yeah. But I don't like it, unless it's a guitar.

50. What was the worst idea you've had in this week?
-Hmmm. Killing myself? Kidding~

51. What are you doing last night at 11pm?
-I don't know. Trying to sleep.

52. Are you happy with your love life right now?
-Do I look like I have a boyfriend of any sort?

53. What song best describe your love life?
-"I wanted you" brings back my past.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
-I don't like anyone! Can't you just knock this off?

55. Who always make you laugh?
-Chuxuan, Shiheng and Chiahsuan? They keesiao ma ;X

56. Do you speak other language other than English?
-Duh. Chinese.

57. favourite website(s)?
-The best website on Earth -> ab-normallove.blogspot.com

58. What's your middle name?
-Yuhui. (:

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
CIP cum hiking. Who's going to the SC duty tomorrow? Help me transfer messages(:

60. What do you think you are like?
-I don't know. I'm UNIQUE.

61. Who will you choose to die with?
-Touchwood!I'm gonna ripe an old age.

62. Where have you been today?
-School and home? I hate it.

63. What game do you play often?
-I don't play games anymore. Sometimes play a little to kill time.

64. Who are you missing right now?
-I miss my bed. -.- I feel like sleeping again.

65. If you have to choose between friend n loves, who will you choose?
-Friends. Like duh?

66.What are you doing right now?
-Doing this quiz?

67. Which primary school are you from?
-Unity Primary.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
-Hotpink, white, light blue.

69. What emotion you like to show?
-Depends uh. Some times I do break down when I super sad or disappointed.

70. What is your life to you?
-Sometimes,it's so dull.

71. If you have something troubling you, what will you do?
-Curses in secret.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today?
-Clare. She keep di-siao me):

73. Who do you admire most?
-I don't know?

74. Which month are you born in?
-6 OF JANUARY ! PRESENTS PLEASEEEE

75. How are you feeling right now?
-Sleepy.

76. What is the time now?
-9.42pm.

77. what kind of person do u think the one who tagged u is?
-Shiheng, siaozhabor ;X

78.What colour did you use to dye hair?
-I don't dye my hair?

79. Why are you doing this test?
-Maybe for volunteer, plus sabotaged.

80. What do you do when you're moody?
-Sing music loudly.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
-I'm still 13. I don't want to think of this.

82. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend or friends?
-Friends.I don't want a boyfriend.

83. If today is the last day of your life, what will you do?
-Give everyone I know a GREAT BIG HUG!

84. Who is the person you trust the most?
-Shiheng & Amelia. They don't leak out my secret.

85. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
-Maybe? Sometimes, rainbows aren't pretty.

86. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
-Getting 100 for Science.

87. What is your goal for this year?
-Top 3 in class. Top 15 in level. Above 71% for overall. 5 distinctions.

88. Do you believe in eternity love?
-RUBBISH LA.

89. What feeling do you love most?
-I don't knowww.

90. Do you really think its Global Warming now?
-Yes! & I hate it. Animals are dying ):

91.What feeling do you hate the most?
-Failing my Science or having something wrong for my relationship.

92. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
-OFCOURSE. Unless they don't cherish me, I will try my best to carry on.

93. Do you believe in God?
-I don't know. But sometimes I do pray and it do get fulfilled.

94. Who cares for you most?
-My girlfriends & GANS.
There was a time when I broke down and cried, GANS surrounded me and joked about, making me laugh once again. Even the boys cheered me up. I love you all <333333

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
-GANS. They make my day.

96. What will you bring when you fight?
-Knife, guns, parang, noose, gloves, bombs. LOLs! kidding!

97. What have you done regretted doing in your whole life?
-Knowing someone that had hurt me like don't know how deep.

98. What would you feel if no one no longer cares for you?
-I BREAK DOWN & CRY. Stop scaring me can? I'm getting super insecure.

99. What if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
-Break up and curse him.

100. HOW DO U FEEL NOW?
-Sleepy & INSECURE.



;& Please. Stop all this. I don't want to do this anymore.
Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 8:49 pm