Tuesday, 13 May 2008.

I'm such a disgrace to myself.
I'm such a disgrace to my parents.
I took that $100 for scoring 3 C5s and only 1 A2 so far.
It's such a disappointment.
公公，我对不起你。
Sorry grandpa, I disappointed you.
I'm seriously sorry.
I didn't mean to,
but it's really stressful around here.
Jumping from 4 subjects to 8 subjects,
the stress doesn't seem to stop around here.
So far,
already bad results are appearing.
What can I do?
I passed my math by 6 marks only,
I passed my literature by 8 marks only,
Only my History scored the best : 71 marks,
and the most disappointing subject is,
I only scored 58 for my Chinese.
For people who know me,
I used to do well in my chinese.
I mean,
really well.
Ever since after the new teacher have came into our class and teach,
my results fell like a person jumping down from a 90 storey building to the ground.
The impact to my mind,
grrhhhh,
it's painful, you know.
I want an A1,
but who knows GOD is against all of that?
Maybe he wants me to take up the challenge?
But I can tell you : I can't take it anymore.
Maybe commiting suicide is the best way out to solving my problems?
To solving my stress?
I really wonder how the Upper secs cope their stress.
I mean,
they seem to live off better than me.
BETTER OFF.
I wonder how they really do that.
Maybe they are much stronger ?

Hais D:
What can I do?
What has happened HAD happened.
All I can say is,
I'm such a disgrace to myself.


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Can't believe that we lost to Guoyao in yesterday's life science Workshop.
But......
They only won in practical.
They kan chiong one.
Doing experiments are not supposed to be like this.
If you were to see the scientist in laboratory,
they do their work so slowlyyyyyyyyyyy.
And do you know why?
They don't want anything to go wrong.
Guoyao's group wants anything to go wrong.
That proofs something.
They really don't know SCIENCE well.
Of course,
with this kind of standard of doing practical.
We don't even know whether they killed the Agar or not.

but at least,
we (me, amelia, Shiheng, Lynn) won in theory.
It's just that practical gives more marks okehh.
If the teachers did not give practical marks.
We would have won!
Practical give 100 marks.
While theory ,
only 20-30 marks.
It's like 1/5 over the practicals marks okehh.
ABSOLUTELY UNFAIR.

Still remembered when they asked questions in the start,
there's a question like this :
"What's the difference between lemon and sodium Bicarbonate?"
Then I remember watching an adult science show called "WE DIDNT KNOW THAT"
And I remember them doing an experiment (again , they were slow, okehh?) deciding which fruit has the most acid.
And they concluded that lemons had the most acid in it.(and that causes them to be really sour.)
And I has like,
"Okay, let's give it a try"
So I raised my hands and said:
"Lemons have acid while sodium bicarbonate don't"
and the teacher was like :
"Very good!"
and gave us the marks.
30 marks.
=.=
In the beginning when we haven't do any practical,
we were in the lead.
but when it comes to practical,
we didn't rush,
so we always come in fifth or somthing,
so only got 50 marks.
while Guoyao keep kan chiong kan chiong and get 100 for each practical each time.
At least we know the basic of being slow and steady.
Like ma'am Nury said:
" SLOW AND STEADY PEOPLE ALWAYS WIN."
Yah!
totally agree with that,
although we lost in the end,
at least we know we were gentle and didn't kill alot of Agar,
ruining the results .

p/s: No colours posted,because I am LAZY!

1e7 is really going down,
It's really a problem that,
the top scorer for chinese in 1e7 is actually getting a score of
69.5.
So what?
Should we blame ourselves or the teachers?
I'm not despiting(?) 1e7,
but it's true that we are really going down.
So,
I have the following GOAL made :
I MUST GET AT LEAST A 90 FOR
SCIENCE,
to win our glory
back.

Posted by P.Yuhuiz. on 6:48 am